I came to a realization that I've been stringed along a toxic, manipulative relationship by one of my long time best friends. I am no stranger to this, but of course I couldn't see the attention they gave me, the amount of times they made me feel special. SOMEHOW somehow, I couldn't see past that not ever a few years back when there was clear signs then.

Barely coming out of one, just to be tricked and wrapped in another. 

Just to put this out there, I am trying to deal with it and trying to think of possibility on how to end it though it might, not only my current friendships, but myself.

It's hard to cut someone off with so much power above my head.

(06/30/2020)