When: October

Written: October 30

Right now, I feel so down. I'm being hurt by a girl on my team, she keeps getting me down... I would explain this but I'm just going to copy and paste a conversation (altering names) for you guys to get a feel of what's going on...

ME: Well, when I was doing it, I was doing it as a setter with Tara passing, Ella hitting... Then, they all keep complaining. "Keila, don't hit it, set it." and I'm just thinking. "Do you think it's that easy when the ball is fricking going to the side where you can't actually set?" And like, Ella agrees, and when Tara was passing she was like. "Keila!" and I'm thinking. "Tara! Can ya please pass it so I can set it????" and they're all like getting mad at me, when really, can you blame me? If the ball is like 2 meters away from me, do you expect me to chase after it and be able to set it? No, because 1 I can't do that, barely any of them can, and 2 I can barely set normally anyways. So why, why, why are they killing me??? And next to that, all of them are like. "Keila, don't do this, don't do that!" and I'm just like. "I can't help it, ya'll can't do it so that I can actually get it." (that's what I was thinking btw)

Friend: PREACH GURL.. look Tara did the same thing to me u know when we were versing the coaches. Well it was the third hit and Tara was off and I was on but like it was out of bounce so I tried to save it and it hit like were my thumb meets the hand u know? Anyway, i miss and Tara was like " LARA YOU COULD HAVE GOTTEN THAT JEEZ LARA" I was going to get the ball and she kept yelling at me and I stopped in my tracks turn around to Tara and said "WHAT DO U WANT" and she was like jeez no need to get mad... but then I was setter ok so now we r on together and it was about to be the second hit but it was clearly Victoria so I didn't go for it cuz like I would dive across the floor just to set it so then ok sorry this is so long anyway the ball dropped on the third hit and Tara was like " LARA THE SECOND HIT IS ALWAYS THE SETTER!!" and then I'm like oh no u didn't and then I'm like "well at least I can actually set and bump and shot her a look and shut her up I was like U GO LARA!!! But yea u did nothing wrong she gets triggered at us when she can't even do it herself and thinks she is the coach OH MY I'M SO TRIGGERED RN!! So yea..

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As you can see, it isn't good for me... I'm dying a little, but oh well...