Hey guys.

I wanted to properly express how I've been feeling, without hiding behind poetry, and to also apologise for lack of updates to certain books.

Many things have been happening in my life recently. I got a job, I have really serious exams this school year which I need to study and prepare for, and I also have a girlfriend. I didn't have any of these things when I started this account on Wattpad, and because I had no other priorities I was able to write and update every week, sometimes more than that.

You guys have all been so supportive and I am so grateful for that.

But I've also had a massive drop in motivation.

You see, this... event happened about a year ago and it's still really scarred me. For months I couldn't do anything. I'm getting better now - with help from my amazing girlfriend and awesome friends -  but it's still really hard to find motivation to do things that aren't required of me, like writing.

It's weird because I love writing and when I am writing I feel so happy, but actually getting my laptop and setting up time for myself to write is so hard.

I decided I need to be open and honest with you all so, I guess this is what I'm doing.

Don't worry, I'm not quitting Wattpad or anything, writing is my passion and I love it. I'm not even taking a hiatus or anything - this is more just of a way for me to explain why there hasn't been many new chapters lately.

I'm not going to go into detail about this event, aside from that I had a crush on my best friend and she betrayed me. No, I didn't confess to her, and no, she has no idea I liked her (I don't like her now haha). It really hurt and led to me being alone for months.

If it wasn't for @luna_lykanwolf, @Dorian_Halivard, @slimeypirate7744 and of course @TammyMaia225 I would have been alone for even longer. Genuinely you all mean so much to me.

And thank you readers! Whenever I was having a bad day, someone seemed to notice, because I always got a super sweet comment on a story saying how much they love it. You're all amazing, and without you all, I don't know if I'd have the strength to continue writing.

So... what is this drabble I just wrote haha - it was supposed to be an apology and now it feels like a therapy session XD

Anyways, if any of you wanna reach out and talk to me about how you're feeling, feel free to DM me. Is it DM or PM? I don't know XD

The point is, if you need to cry, to rant, or just to say hi, my doors are always open.

If I don't reply immediately then I'm probably asleep XD

Umm... yeah.

Bye guys! I hope you'll keep supporting me, and I hope to keep writing :)