Worst feeling in the world
Watching someone dear to your heart
Taking their last breath
All you can do is stare

This feeling isn't sadness or anger
It's something that's rather more bitter
A part of me is filled with guilt and despair
That I couldn't spend more time with her

A part of me is happy
That she's going to a better place
To meet her lovely son and dear sister
Who have been waiting for her for ages

Her whole life just flashed infront of me
How she used to tie my hair in braids
Before taking me to gurdwara
How she took care of me as a baby

Sure she was not happy with my birth
But soon she realized how important I was to her
When she accidentally dropped me in hot water
I don't remember well cause I was just a baby

Ever since then, I became her favorite
She loved me so much
Even after I got older and we had our fights
She would always ask if I had dinner every night

Sometimes I wish we had recorded her voice
It feels kinda empty without hearing her rants
Oh how disappointed she got when I chopped my hair
Now there's nobody to say I can't cut my hair

Even though I moved out 6 months ago
We still used to talk on phone
Sometimes I forget that she's no longer here
As I find myself asking my mum about her

I don't know how to deal with this
I have to move on but how much time will it take
To get over the grief and pain
That was caused by someone who passed away...