I don't know how to apologize

Honestly don't even want your forgiveness
I just want to acknowledge it
I was toxic and I did not deserve you
Even as a friend.

I kept blaming you for my miseries
While ignoring all your feelings
You were hurt
I kept hurting you more

You gave me signs
But I ignored them
Because I couldn't see your pain
Over what I was going through

I had no right to blame you
I was immature
Just because you rejected me
Doesn't give me the reason

Reason to be mad at you
When you did nothing wrong
Now that I've realized it
I don't know how to ask for forgiveness

Sure it ended over a year ago
But we were friends
And I was a bad one
A really bad one

I deserve another shot at friendship
I've learned to be a good friend
I've learnt to not be so narcissistic
I've learnt to care about people

I've come a long way
So if you do agree
We can have another chance
To write our friendship again

While removing the part
Where I confessed my love for you
Because I've grown up
I promise to be a better friend.