As they fly away,

Perhaps to join the others,

Where it gives them joy,

To loiter around freely,

Rather than shut closed,

In the chambers of my heart.

'

I desperately try,

To hold on to them,

My dear life,

Losing importance as I look at them.

'

I put out my hand,

Only for it to pass through them,

My hand loving the warmth hid,

In their creases.

'

My hand goes back,

Involuntarily,

To catch them.

'

To keep them safe,

In my now fisted hand.

'

I open,

Only to see them fluttering away,

From my palm.

'

Letting out a scream of torment,

I walk blindly through the overwhelming darkness.

'

My bleeding feet,

Hurt by all these glass shards,

And broken pieces of hearts,

Is my only companion,

Under the starry sky.

'

I reach out to them,

With both my arms put out this time,

My hands almost there,

Grasps tight on to one of those,

At last.

'

Only to hear a snap of teeth.

'

Agonising pain starts from my hand,

Moving up to my arm.

'

My eyes wildly search,

In the stark darkness.

'

Only to see a pair of Topaz eyes,

Wild as mine staring back.

'

A monster,

A demon,

Chewing away my hand,

As it looks at me with a repulsive look.

'

A punishment I received,

For seeking them;

For seeking my Memories.

'

Of my childhood.

Of my parents.

Of my grandparents.

Of my high school life.

Of my college life.

Of my marriage.

Of my love.

'

Of it all.

'

The monster that punished me,

Eating me alive.

'

The last words I heard from it were,

"You don't deserve to remember.

So you suffer,

From this ugly disease,

You call Alzheimer's."

'

That was how my Memories and my family lost me;

I tell the angels listening to me in rapt attention,

Focused solely on me,

Clustered around a coffee table,

In heaven.

***

©VioletEden