The soft rustling of curtains, the feelings of the cold air brushing along my exposed skin, raising tiny pin pricks of goose bumps along my exposed arms. The harsh blinding of the sunlight as it shone its unforgiving rays into my eyes.
    Tearing them open, I winced, going monetarily blind as the harsh, blinding sunlight shown through the thin curtains. Blinking my bleary eyes, I rubbed them with the back of my hand, wincing as tiny russets colored flakes dusted my cheeks. 
       I attempted to stand on legs of jello, my knees weak. I closed my eyes, steeling myself. Taking a deep, the dryness in my mouth became aware to my dull senses. Scrunching my nose, I ran my tongue around the roof of my mouth, trying to find even a hint of moisture.
The Sarah desert must have more water than my mouth at the moment, I thought scrunching up my nose. Leaning against the wall for a few more moments, I got my bearings an pushed off. The short, staggering steps of legs of lead an knees of jello were painful.
Gripping onto the counter, I reached with a hand shaking as if I just came out of a snow storm. My eyes caught on the exposed part of my wrist, the spot where the multiple brackets I've collected over the years usually hid.
The clusters of leather, plastic, rubber, and string that's long covered the pale skin of my inner wrist, ever since that first one. The same shaking hand and marked wrist grabbed a cup, filled it with water, and held on like my life depended on the water in the cup.
In some ways, the water was what my life depended on. It was the symbolic expression of what I needed most, something to quench the thirst and pain in my throat. I needed somebody to be the water for my heart.
To quench the pain and the thirst to be loved, for someone to never leave me and be there in my worst and love me through my best.
Taking a gasping breathe, I became aware of the hard surface under me, the puddle of spilled water that was soaking through my pants. Running into the cracks and the grooves in between the tiles.
The cup lay shattered in pieces, laying there broken an ugly now. Like me. I was the cup. I was this broken, ugly thing that was useless now. Because you can't use broken things, and nobody wants something broken...
Taking a gasping breath, I braved myself to my feet, igniting the stinging pain as I felt the shards of the cup dig into my palms, slicing the thin flesh. The staggering, heavy foot steps of my feet trying to drag my broken and unwilling body to the bedroom.
Collapsing in the bed, I closed my eyes, embracing the tears as they fell. Your broken, an nobody wants something broken.....
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It was a few days after the shattered cup. The dull chattering of the mall as I walked around with my best friends. My eyes roared over the stores, lost in my own thoughts that ran through my head going 100mph, until I felt a weight in my back.
" Hazel Lynn, did you not hear me?", an voice all but shouted into my ear.
"Jessica, why the hell are you on my back?", I said, turning my head so the face of the petite blonde on my back. Rolling my eyes, I hefted her higher on my back, " But no, I didn't hear what you said. I wasn't focusing, sorry."
   "Hmph", she said, a pout forming on her lips.
   " Do not even give me that look", I said," You do the exact same thing to me so you can't even say anything"
     The slight laughter of Josh behind us, draws our attention. His laughs, and shakes his head again at out slight banter, an doubles over laughing when we both stick out tongues out at him, rolling our eyes back into our heads.
      Jessica quickly hops off my back, before taking off to our destination in the mall, the famous Hot Topic.
       Shaking my head, I walk slowly after her, as she continues to run an skip to the store, like a little kid who's seen the candy shop.
    I follow her inside slowly, taking my time to take in the familiarity of the store, feeling the music blast, becoming calmer by the second. Funny how a store can do that....

    Heyyy guys, if you have already read this chapter, you can obviously tell I added some on. I'm not sure why it was published, it was supposed to stay a draft but oh well. I also typed it on my phone so sorry if there's any mistakes :) love you guys!!!