I feel as if I'm losing even though​I'm not playing. I feel that I'm getting left behind that the world is moving on and I am standing still I'm on the brink of tears. I'm getting teared to shreds parts of me missing as another person I care about leaves me my heart won't stop racing the panic attacks never ending the anxiety worsening and names flashing by my minds eye and my heart crumbling as people let go I feel as if I am nothing no more than a fly people want to hurt and get rid of the saying "sticks and stones will break my bones but words will never hurt me" is a lie words do hurt they have meaning and can lead people to suicide and cutting and self harm cause words hurt more than sticks or stones ever will