So..... Recently I'd been talking to my crush a lot more and he asked me if I could be his girlfriend..........

As much as I really wanted to, I couldn't. When he asked me that question I legit froze and I was so shocked because my crush liking me back is the last thing I thought would ever have happened to me. 

Needless to say, I didn't accept it nor did I reject him. So..., we're kinda like friends and yet not friends right now.

Dammit I don't know wtf I'm saying.

I cried a lot that night and I really wanted to just throw myself offa building because I felt terrible for saying so many things.

And he's really romantic it's just that it's as though he's too safe for me.
Look at it this way.

Me: tomboy, doesn't do her homework, listens to lots of pop punk and screaming, dresses like an emo tomboy, is really passionate about things I love, highly emotional despite my "tough" appearance and curses/swears a lot, gets angry extremely easily, suicidal

Him: calm, biblical, never gets angry, a real good boy, ADHD, really sweet and romantic, extremely (almost too) positive, actually wears shirts for church, ex-gymnast, has a Hufflepuff's point of view on life, plays it safe

And the more I talk to him, the more I think that maybe he's not the right one for me....

Anyway I don't know what to think anymore.

Tell me in the comments what u think I should do..... I guess....

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If you shoot me in the head, I might not even feel it...

Love, ScarletHand <3