*sighs * you lose friends or, you keep them.

In my case... I lost one that meant a lot to me. She's not dead or anything, I just... Idk I promised her something and I broke it by doing it again and I saw stuff she said to someone and *starts crying* I just can't..

Its what made me write the l last part to this book...

Do I not like matter to you anymore?

Im just like really upset even tho we never dated but you said that you did like me in a girlfriend way but you said you don't like long distance relationships and boom... you love Kyle. He's your purple galaxy (wtf does that even suppose to mean?), your universe. I couldn't ask for anyone better. You're mine forever and always......... right??
Well... Congrats *claps my hands slowly*

*sighs* I really need to take a chill pill. Well... I need more than just one.
And it sucks cause I burned my secret box yesterday and now I'm starting to regret it...
I really am.

*hugs my legs and burries my face in my knees* God, I'm such an idiot Dx

I mean, I love talking to Alex.
I fell in love with her when we first met...

And, Im in love with Serena

And Emerald... @Jewel_In_Insane, if you're reading this... I love you too, and you know I do. You've been here for me whenever I needed you. You put up with me after all the hard times. Im glad I met you. I honestly am. You're the first one on here that I've ever called dweeb. And you'll always be my dweeb.

Serena is my Berry boo... also my strawberry and no one can replace her. I just love her way to much.
I love you @freakgirl123

Guys... just please don't ever tell me that you love me if you honestly don't mean it..
Like please, don't ever say it to me.
You shouldn't say it to me in the first place..

I mean, just look at me....
*sighs* I'm nothing but a fuck up..

*bounces my head of the wall* fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck Fuck!!!
I feel like such a fucking asshole right now.
And it's only 3:01am...

Fuck!
This is all my fault..
Fuck

God, she's gonna hate me so fucking much once she sees this... fuck!!

I don't know what to do or say anymore...

Oh wait, I do...

DON'T EVER FUCKING FALL IN LOVE WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Or, at least *sighs again* don't lie to me about it..

Im just gonna go....

I think I said enough.
Well I said way more than enough, but fuck it.. right?

*fake smiles* right (: