When my friends are sad I help them feel better. When they are angry I help them cool down. When they are confused I help them understand. When they are depressed I get them all the help I can. When they have anxiety I hug them until it goes away. When they are suicidal I talk them out of it.

Why is it that when I'm sad I can't help myself. When I'm angry why can't I cook myself down. When I'm confused I can't help myself understand. When I'm sobbing my eyes out why can't I make myself feel better. When I have anxiety why can't I calm myself down. When I think about committing why can't I encourage myself to go on with life. When I tell myself that everything will be okay it feels like I'm lying.

I've helped so many people get out of all this shit yet I can't do that for myself.