Looking deep inside, I find the feelings I have been trying so hard to hide

I have always loved him and he has always lied about his feelings towards me 

I'm tired of the games he plays

tired of the mess I made

tired of being alone

I think I am ready to go home

my thoughts always stick in my head 

my body feels like it is made out of lead

I try so hard to keep the things I feel inside

But I'm also tired of having to hide

The truth starts today 

yes today 

not tomorrow

today.

When I look Inside and let go of the feelings i'm trying to hide

I realize that I can't do this on my own

that I need to find a place to call home.