Pov Yoongi

Back at the graveyard I was just standing there in silence once again.

My thoughts were occupied while I stared into space.

I am disgusting! I can't even keep my promise to him.....
But it's the only way I can be with him again. Just for a short period of time and he will never forgive me for this, but if that's the price I am willing to pay it.

I had replaced the flowers in front of the gravestone and threw the dead ones away.

From now on I would take care of his grave and make sure that it looks better than all the other ones around.

After I finished my daily visit and said goodbye to my baby I headed back to the appartment.

I kept thinking of ways how I could hide my drugs, in case Jin would come by unexpectedly.

I decided to take care of the issue first thing when I came back home, and so I did.

The LSD was now hidden in a little box that I placed in the drawer
of a side table next to the couch.

I locked the box and the key was now attached to a leather band around my neck.

After I was done I took a shower.
My first since the funeral.

It's not like I started to care about my appearance, but I didn't want to look like shit anymore when I visit Jimin.
What would he think if he could see me?

Since today was a good day and I felt better than usually, I even went out to go grocery shopping.

I bought all the ingredients for his favorite food, so that I could cook some of the meals he always loved to eat.

With the bags of food in both of my hands I walked by a tatoo studio.

I've always liked tatoos, but I never got one since it could be a problem when you want to do some voluntary work.

'But there isn't anything stopping me now.' I thought and entered the shop.
   

~time skip~

One hour later and one tatoo more I was back on the couch, tracing the newly engraved letters on my collarbone with my fingers.

Now I will always carry you around with me, baby.

The thought made me smile. I would always have him immortalized on my skin.

It was only his birth and death date, but I felt like a piece of him was with me now.