for BTSandPentatonixGirl cause she seems to be the only one who actually reads this
(I wanted to dedicate this chapter to you, but I'm too stupid for that)
 

Pov Yoongi

After the call I headed straight to the park to meet up with Namjoon.

He was my dealer when I used to do drugs.

I was clean for two years now so Namjoon must have been quite confused by my sudden phone call.

When I arrived I sat down on the bench where I used to meet him and waited.

"I thought you stopped all this." I suddenly heard a deep voice from behind me. I didn't even turn around. I knew who it was.

"I did. But that's none of your business, just give me what I'm here for." I simply answered after he sat down next to me. I didn't see why I would have to justify myself in front of him, so I didn't say anything else according to this subject.

"I heard what happened and I'm sorry for your loss, Yoongi, but he wouldn't want you to do this." He said in a serious tone.

"Well guess what, he is not here to stop me." I spat out.

Namjoon let out a heavy sigh.

"Alright." He said and handed me a little plastic bag. "But don't you think you owe him?"

I took it and put it in the pocket of my jacket.

"I know, Namjoon. But I can't. I just can't. It's too much for me." I told him with a pained expression.

"I just wanted to make sure that this is really what you want." He said and took the money out of my hand.

"I don't want this." I admitted. "I just can't continue without it anymore. I tried. I really did, but he was the only thing that could replace the drugs in my life and made me happy without them. Now I don't see any other way."

"It's ok, Yoongi. I don't judge you for this. I'm surprised you didn't call me earlier." He replied and patted my back. I must look really pethatic right now.

"But I do. I judge myself for this." I sobbed. "I can't even keep this promise to him."

Namjoon looked at me worriedly and pulled me into a hug afterwards.

I cried into his shoulder for a long moment until the tears dried up.

"Are you sure that this is the right thing to do?" He asked after I sat up straight.

I fake-smiled at him before I stood up and started to walk away.

"Just don't worry about it. I already died with him anyways."