Pov Yoongi

I woke up and my head was throbbing. My eyes were puffy and I couldn't see clearly.

It was the same as every morning.

Even though I was awake now I didn't move an inch. I just sat on the couch and stared at the wall in front of me.

After about an hour, maybe two, I slowly stood up and grabbed the least dirty hoodie from the floor. I don't even go inside the bedroom to get some fresh clothes. I always take some that are already laying around in the living room.

I don't care about my looks. There is no one to look good for anymore.

When I stepped out of the apartment I felt how the fresh air filled my loungs as I locked the door and put the key in my jacket.

On my way to the graveyard I always stop at a little shop to buy a bouquet of lilies. He really loved these flowers. I never understood why, but they made him happy.

I wish I would have bought more for him when I had the chance. His adorable reaction when I gave them to him on his birthday or other special occasions.
I should have started to get these flowers for him every day while I could still see how happy they made him.

I looked up at the sky while I kept walking. Dark clouds covered it and it would probably start raining again some time today.

I arrived at the gate of the graveyard and sighed as I reached my hand out to it.

I stayed like this for a moment before I could force myself to open the gate.

I hated this place. I hated it so much, and if it wasn't for him I wouldn't come here ever again.

But I had to visit him everyday. I can't forget about him. He was and always will be my most precious treasure.

I made my way to his grave and stared at the name for a while.

It was still the same. The letters didn't change.

I felt the tears building up again as I carefully placed the lilies in front of the gravestone.

This wasn't right.

"Why did it have to be him? Out of all humans. Why him?" I sobbed and burried my face in my palms.
"WHY COULDN'T YOU TAKE ME?! HE DIDN'T DESERVE TO DIE!!!"

'And I couldn't do anything to save you. It should have been me. I should have changed places with you.' I thought while the tears streamed down my cheeks endlessly.
      
      
     

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