Pov Yoongi

Candy flipping.

The mix of LSD and Ecstasy.

I heard it is really dangerous, but that doesn't matter anymore, as long as it helps me to see my baby again.

The method of mixing these two substances together is known for it's strong detection change (hope that makes sense) and intensified optic and acoustic halluzinations.

Sounds perfect to me.

I know there are side effects like "horrortrips" or stuff like that. But it's not like I'm not living in the worst horrortrip already. So fuck that.

Since I never went this far before I had no idea of how the quantitative ratio of the two drugs had to be.

I would only use a little of the Ecstasy today, since I don't want to overdose the first time I try this.

~time skip~

After I took the drug-mix I was able to hear my babys voice again. But sadly I didn't get to see him.

'Guess I'll have to increase the dose of the Ecstasy tomorrow' I thought and sat up on the couch.

It was in the middle of the night, but I didn't feel tired at all.

I made my way into the kitchen, because my stomach rebelled since I haven't ate for 4 days now.

I started to prepare sushi, one of Jimins favorite dishes, in all possible variations.

I ended up making more then I could eat in the next weeks so I decided that I should share it.

I stored everything in plastic boxes and put them away.

After I grabbed a few things, I left to visit his grave. I promised I would come to see him every day. I couldn't bear to break that promise too.

It was completly dark outside and the streets were only illuminated by a few street lamps here and there.

"Jin would surely scold me for walking around the streets at this hour" I whispered to myself and had to chuckle at the thought of that.

When I arrived at the graveyard I had to notice that the gate had been locked for the night.

But I didn't come here to go away again just because that stupid gate wasn't open. So I climbed over it without hesitation and simply continued my way towards his grave.

Once I reached it, I set my backpack down next to me on the ground and started to unpack it.

After I sat everything up I lit up the candles.

One box of sushi was now placed infront of Jimins gravestone between all the lilies and one was laying on my lap.