Pov Yoongi

I went back to doing drugs on a daily basis. I couldn't handle my life without the LSD anymore.

But it slowly lost his effect.

I needed a larger dose, and the times I would see Jimin or even hear his voice in the state of intoxication were getting less every day.

It was frustrating!

I already heard of ways to increase the drugs effect and cause intensified hallucinations, but I never had the courage for that.
The risks are too high.

But what else do I have to loose?
I already lost everything that was precious to me.

With that in mind I called Namjoon again.

I was out of LSD anyways so he could just bring the other stuff that I needed too.

"I need more, Joon! And bring some Ecstasy as well this time!" I said as soon as he picked up.

A sigh was heard from the other end of the phone.

"You really shouldn't do that, Yoongi. You never went this far. I mean 'candy flipping', are you sure? It's really dangerous."

"Just bring the Ecstasy." I instructed him and ended the call.

Who is he to tell me what I should do? He's not my mom! I know it's dangerous. I just don't care about it...

After I grabbed my wallet I left the building and headed straight to the park once again.
  

~ time skip ~

At the meeting point I had to wait at least 30 minutes before Namjoon slowly approached me.

I could see that he was debating with himself if he should really give me the ordered stuff. He usually walked around like he owned the ground underneath him, but today he was nervously making one step after another.

It was pathetic. He was pathetic.

Why couldn't he just hand everything over like he usually does.
Why does he care?

When he finally reached me he still had all of that insecurity in the look on his face. I really wanted to punch him right now.

"Just give it to me, Joon....." I said, the annoyance in my voice was clearly audible.

"I will be honest, Yoongi. I don't think this is a good idea." He replied and it seemed like he really meant it.

"Well guess what, no one asked for your opinion." I spat out, but immediatly regretted what had left my mouth.

I let out a heavy breath. "I'm sorry, Joon..... I just really need the  Ecstasy."

I heard him sigh once more before he spoke again. "Jin will hate me if he finds out."

He reached into his pocket and handed me two little bags.

Not even a second later he was already on his feet again, but he turned around looking at me in all seriousness.

"Never contact me because if this shit again."