It was raining
I was happy cuz I love rain.
It was a normal day falling to night
Neither too dark nor too bright.

I was living
Like I do everyday.
But something made me feel
Like I was on the bay.

I wasn't crying
But I couldn't smile.
The rain stopped outside
But a storm started in my heart.

Everything was normal
Then why was it compared to horror?
I knew the truth
Then why I didn't want to believe?

I was eating
When I felt it as poisonous
Did I continue or I stopped
Why can't I remember?

I was sitting
In front of the idiot box
Maybe that saved me a few minutes
From the bowler.

Never it showed me
Anything about you
Then why today
It had to be him?

My heart stopped beating
Then how was I living?
My brain was confused
Then how does it make sense?

When the unpleasant came
I went to the denial
Why did I woe
When it wasn't what I dreading?

Was it the demise
That tormented me?
Or was it because
It was him?

I always told you
How I feel about you.
That was the truth
Then what is that happened now?

I should be grieving
But I was on rue.
That I never did right by
Or I just wanted more of him.

I saw red in present,
And black for future.
The blue from the past
Cut me like a dagger.

The people around me were all blind
They didn't see what happened to me.
But how can I blame them
When I wasn't even sure of me?

Why did I feel the worst
For someone not my best?
I saw that happened before
I witnessed even worse.
I dread losing what I love most
Then why did it felt worse?

I felt the love
I never felt before.
Was it for him
Or something was hidden behind?

Why did I want to scream
"I love you" to him
When I just marely liked him?

Why did I wanted to scream
" Come back" to him
When he was never mine?

I hoped his inamorata
To mourn the most.
But it was just me
Everything else was fine.

I waited for you to come
To tell you how I feel.
But you never came
Or did you went with him?
Was this what haunting me
Or the general cause?

Nevertheless I wanted to see him
All over again .
I found his old picture
Still the same.

What was unalike was only me
Since I was seeing from a different light,
I made it melting my soul,
With the fire of my heart.

Today was the worst day
I ever felt .
Even though,
I'm the Wile E. Coyote.