I laid in bed and allowed myself to think
For some reason you were there
In my own little mind palace I created
Which still lacks a name

Yet you were there and I'm not sure how to feel
I haven't seen you in so long
I haven't looked at your eyes in forever
Years and years have gone by

You fit the definition of forever and frustration
Because god, you're a snake that makes my blood boil
Toxic and tricky and lying and everything bad

But I'm reeled in like fish, taking the bait
I don't know why i keep being drawn to you
You're nothing good but also heaven and hell
A demon and an angel in one

My palace crumbles and dissolves
Bricks being washed away by waves emotions I tried to get rid of
I thought they were gone but I guess not

Perhaps it's simply because it's late
There's flashes of lightning outside and
I feel helpless tonight in the silence of my room

I don't like that I can see you
Even hear your voice whisper to me
I can hear your rabbit quick heartbeat
And I can feel every little sigh come out

I don't like to let my thoughts roam at night
It gets hard to breathe sometimes
And I just feel like a heavy weight
While I rebuild my palace