I don't like to say I hate things but
I hate spring break as usual
No matter what break it is
I hate it
Breaks have always screwed me over
My body simply buffers and I get error 404
I don't produce thoughts or ideas
My mind stops completely
I can't process anything
Spelling and reading is more difficult
I feel empty and I forget things that send me
Into a breakdown I may or may not deserve
I couldn't tell you if I had lunch five minutes ago
I don't remember at all
It's like I'm just a moving corpse
Nothing is entertaining anymore
I fall out of love with my favourite music
My parents try to take the free days to “bond” with me
But it's like I left my own body behind
I don't remember what I like or who I am
Instead of my usual three sticks of gum per day
It increases much more than I'd it like to
The calm before the storm and the storm itself
Are happening at the same time
The world is so chaotic but I feel lifeless
As if I don't exist