Yesterday I spent the hours of night and day watching romcoms
There I heard a line I wish I put into affect in my own life
You should say I love you whenever you are feeling it in the moment
Because otherwise it will pass you by

Like Julia Roberts' character
I let it pass me by
Again and again
Because to say three words
I'll never hear back from you
Feels dirty on my hands
Makes my tongue recoil
And my heart lose its beat

I can't even write it in a poem
After brushing my teeth
The aftertaste of venom
Lingers

I can't say it out loud
I can't write it down
I can't think it in my head
Because if I even consider it
That means it's true
It's happening
Those days were not moments
Of weakness
I so heavily tried to convince myself

You linger in the doorway
Of my mind
Like the harsh taste
On my tongue
Of three words