The pic above is dash, my baby and little monster that caused this mess, he's cute, but I quote Taylor Swift " Baby, I'm a nightmare dressed up like a day dream" that one sentence pretty much sums up his personality and what he's like😂

WARNING!: this poem is pretty dark, it's over dramatic and I'm not THAT upset, but when I write, I just let my subconscious go, and I close my eyes and write my heart out. Remember, my horse is what caused this. And I know that there are people who care about me, and I have something to live for! So don't get worried! I was just in the pits and depths of despair of depression when I wrote this.
    Thanks~

Snow falls gently on my face, tears stream down my face, my eyes look shattered, for they shine no light.
   I am so broken, barely breathing as I lay in the cold depths of the snow. Someone once said that ones eyes were the door way to their soul. If this is true, then I am shattered beyond repair.
    I am broken, my heart has been stomped on too many times to count, each time, I never had time to recover.
    My body trembles in its attempt to keep me alive, but I am beyond caring about surviving at this point.
    There is nothing left for me to live for, nothing that gives my life purpose or meaning, nobody wants me, my life means nothing.
    I close my eyes, and tears stream like that of a leaky faucet that never can be repaired. Forever dripping salty tears.
    I was happy for a while, but it never lasts, tragedy and misfortune haunt me like ghosts in an abandoned house. They may disappear from time to time, but they always come back in the end.
    I have carried this burden for so long, and i am weary and cannot continue on. I'm tried of crying, I'm tired of trying, I am done with this mask of false happiness, for I have been depressed for years.
    I cannot sustain this way of living any longer, no longer shall bruises and abuse hack away at my body or mind. I have no feelings left.
     So as I lay in the snow, and my body begins to freeze, eyes half lidded I look up at the sky. "There are no such things as wishes that come true, I wished on 3 shooting stars, and alas none have come true. " I say so faintly that even I could not hear.
    I am no longer a child, but an adult burdened by reality and despair. I close my eyes that shine no light, and reflect the image of broken glass. One last tear rolls down my cheek, and my heart beat slowly fades, the child full of hope, and full of dreams is gone. No innocence remains after the monster that has left all these scars. The child is no more, she died and I was born, cold, distant, and untrusting, when you look at me, remember monster, you have created me, and killed the very last bit of a child that used to be me.

I warned you it would be dark, and yeah dash's behavior has given me PTSD, and it's left a lot of emotional scars. But I actually really loved him, he was my baby, but I'm going to find a horse that won't try to hurt me and that I can do things with.
    In the poem I wrote "my hearts been stomped on too many times" this refers to a period of time where I lost everything I cared for, I lost the two horses that meant the world to me, they were still alive, but some drama went down and I lost them. I was depressed for months on end, it's the reason I bought my own horse, and then when I came back, things got fixed and I have the two horses back in my care again. But I lost both horses, horse after horse I rode eventually left and then my own horse broke my heart when he became aggressive. I have never had time to recover.

So when I get the new horse, I will finally have a chance to feel better again!💕☺️

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Sincerely,

                  ~RoaringRiver~