Let me fall.

I can't fight this feeling.

You're a failure..
You'll never have it..
You don't deserve it.

Those words.

I try not to believe.

Not to think.

All these thoughts,that never end.

These words that sink in.

I want to be miserable,

Mean,
Heartless.

But you won't let me.

Just please,let me fall.

Let me miserable.

No matter what you do,

I can't be mad,
can't cry.

You wont let me.

Won't let me fall.

Won't let me face this world,

Cold and Alone.

My chest tightens,

I sob.

You hush me.

Its okay Shan,
You'll be fine,
You're fine.
Its okay.
Dont
Think
About
It.

A tear rolls down my cheek, I close my eyes bringing the sheets to my face.

You'll be fine.

With that thought,

I drift into sleep.