I cannot believe that you hid this from me for so long
Did you really believe that by hiding it nothing would go wrong?

Did you not think about the pain that I would feel?
Did you decide that it would be better if the reason were concealed?

Did you never think that I could have died?
Did you never think that I may have really tried?

Did you think that I wouldn't want to end my life,
Whenever I felt down about my conflict and strife?

Yet you act as though I had known all along,
Even though I know that you never told me something is wrong.

You act as if I'm the bad guy for being mad
But you never once considered how I felt when I was sad

You never thought that maybe someday
I would feel so upset that I'd make my life go away

Away from my body and away from this home
Yet you act as if nothing is wrong, I had to do this alone

You say you want to help me get away
But now to you I have nothing left to say

I considered giving you a second chance to change
But now I know that you will never decide to change

All the excuses that you have to me
Saying that I was blind to not see

Not to see that I had been told at the time I was diagnosed
Said that I had known all along I suppose

But I know for a fact that I was told nothing at all
And now that I have learned the truth I will make sure to stand tall

I will be strong as a face you until I make my getaway
I should have known all along that you would always be this way

You say that as parent you will do so much to help your child
Yet whenever something like this happens you wait until I go wild

I already know what will happen when I leave
You will paint me as the bad guy again, wait and see

But I will reveal the truth to them all
It's up them to decide to back away or stand tall

Stand tall and look down at you for what you've done
Seeing the truth as you try to keep close to your son

He is the only one so far who has yet to hate you
But I have a good feeling that you be late too

In making sure that he stays close to your heart
But I will make sure that you won't even be able to start

Because how could he love you once he knows the truth?
How could anyone love you when I reveal the truth?

You let me believe that wanting die when I'm sad is normal
That everyone is like that, something perfectly normal

That wanting to slit my wrists is completely natural
When in reality all people being that way is not factual

I know for a fact that I am not the only one
There are plenty more people like this under the sun

But to not know at all for a few years after the diagnosis is done
It makes me realize that I really do need to run

Run away from here as soon as I can
That is something you will never understand

You should have told me sooner, your actions out of order
You should have told me that I have Major Depressive Disorder

But it's too late now, too late for you to let me know
The way I feel towards you now is colder than deep snow

But this was only another missing piece
To a puzzle that I have enjoyed the least

I have realized over time who is right and wrong
And so for now I am just going to play along

I will not let you know how soon I will disappear
I will not let you know about that out of fear

Fear that you will find a way to keep me away
From the place where I will be, where I will stay

You are a snake with poison, too toxic to be near
But you have fooled many into believing that there's nothing to fear

There is also a rat who I once hated more than any
But times have changed and those who I hate are now many

He has changed a lot since the way he was in the past
He is not like how he was when for people I turn to he is last

But I cannot forget the way that he was
I cannot stay near him and that is because

He could easily go back to his old ways
And neither of my siblings trust him because of those days

Both the snake and the rat were supposed to help
But instead they make me cry out, calling for help

Both were supposed to love me, supposed to be kind
But neither of them decided to pay me any mind

At some point in their lives they had been that way
How could I carry on? I have nothing left to say.

Now I must act quickly, I must make sure that I can
Escape from this place, I have to make sure for my plan

I am ready to escape from a place such as this
But if I act too quickly then I will be trapped forever in the abyss

I was in a cage, now I am trapped in a new cage
You leave me here boiling over with rage

But soon you find that I am nowhere to be found
And you will begin to wonder if I am still around

But you will never know where I will be
And you won't ever look as far as I can see

I hope you will learn someday about who you truly are
How you are an ice cold planet, but I am a shining star

Soon I will say goodbye and you won't know it will be the last
The last goodbye you hear from me. My words have been cast