Hey y'all! It's been a while! As most of you know, I've been taking a break from Wattpad for my stress and mental health because school is a demon. But! I have found time to write something and this has been something that has been weighing on my chest for quite some time now. It feels good to let it out, and I want to share it in case any of you can relate to it and in case it helps in any way. I'm still on my break, but I will publish when I can. I love you all so much! Hope you enjoy the latest depressing poem!

I pick up a pencil,
Yes, I pick up my pen.
Smile as I think,
It's been awhile my friend.

It's been so long,
Since I shared my thoughts.
And let myself,
Be free to call the shots.

Now you listen close,
And you listen here.
You put too much pressure on yourself,
You might just disappear.

Trying so hard,
To save everyone,
To prove to others,
That you deserve their love.

Why do you do it?
Take in so much.
You cannot keep up.
So why all the fuss?

Well, the answer is clear,
I do not like pain.
I have suffered myself,
And do not wish others to also be stained.

I have been hurt,
You shouldn't be too.
I don't want you to cry,
As I so well knew.

I want to take all burdens,
All weight from other's shoulders,
And I would wear it on my back,
To carry this large boulder.

Then there's also my pain,
The one I hide away.
It adds stones to my back,
The ones I wish would simply decay.

There's the pressure of school,
All the work I put aside,
The ones I put away,
To help others like you help where your worlds collide.

Why do I do this to myself?
It's not healthy, I know.
But I can't stop myself,
From helping you on the road.

I need to learn,
Learn to be,
Selfish, so selfish,
To take care of me.

I hope I learn,
Others want me to.
But I can't seem to put you aside,
As I know I should do.

Well, that's all for now.
You now know what's been on my mind.
I now have to see,
What is left that I need to find.

To pull myself together,
Is not an easy task.
To focus on me…
How to do that, I must ask.

Maybay4