Sorry guys that it's taken me a while to upload my stories. I'm still sick and tomorrow is the fourth of july and I atleast hope that I'm well enough to got outside and watch the fire works. But I just notice that tonight is a full moon! :D P.S. his is dedicated to my new baby nephew!! He was born today, July 3rd, around two or three pm and I can't wait to meet him! 

 I don't know is this chapter title makes any sense but I might change it once I'm off of medication. Anways enjoy this chapter and tell me what you think!

~Self Interest

Tristen P.O.V.

The more that I thought about it the more angry both my wolf and I grew. She didn’t want to wear my mark yet and it was killing me inside knowing that she had everything worked out. 

Sure with marking your mate comes the heats and pain but that’s also a sign of love that we’re suppose to share for each other and to know that she doesn’t want to take that step just yet drives me crazy. 

How am I suppose to go a whole summer without marking her. We’re going to be alone in this small cabin and all I could do is just kiss her? I’m sorry to admit this but just kissing her isn’t going to satisfy me. It may have satisfied me for the past month and a half but I want more, I want all of her.

My grip on the steering wheel tighten and I wouldn’t be surprised if my claws pierced the leather material on it. I know that all four of my cannsis were showing. I knew that my eyes weren’t their original blue color anymore but instead they were black. I knew that the more that I thought about the matter at hand that I would only end up losing control but no matter how much I wanted to push the thoughts away they just came back every time I looked at my innocent mate.

I seriously need to go for a run. Being drowned in her scent and hearing her soft breathing isn’t helping me work out my hormones.

Slowly I came to a stop in front of the cabin. Three bed rooms, one bathroom, one living room, a dining room, kitchen, out door pool and a backyard that stretches on for miles. It was a small cabin but we wouldn’t need a lot of space anyways. 

Shutting off the engine I turned off the car and walked to the other side to get Payton out and carry her up to the room that I hope we’ll be sharing. Her brown hair fanned out on the pillow but her grip on my shirt was strong. I tried prying her hands off of me but as soon as I did, I regretted it. She whimpered in her sleep before rolling over a hugging the pillow near her to her body. 

I’ve never in my life would’ve admitted that I was jealous of the pillow. Her leg was draped over it and it was close to her core. Her luscious breast were pressed up against it and…..I need to stop fantasying about this girl.

I didn’t even bother to unpack the stuff from the car. I just stripped my close off phrased into my brown wolf and like a bullet I was off. I don’t know how long it was but by the way the sun was setting and the moon slowly coming to life in the sky I decided it was time to get back to the cabin. Plus, I still had stuff to do. 

I had to call the Alpha and Beta to tell them that we’ve arrived safety and I’m going to have to call the Alpha of this pack to inform him that we’ve arrived. 

Getting up from the clearing that I currently laid in, I raised up on all four and took off towards the cabin. Before I could step foot back into the cabin I phased back into human form and pulled on my boxers and jeans. As I tugged on my shirt her enchanting scent caught my nose before I could see her walk into the kitchen.

From her tired eyes, I could tell that she has just woken up and as soon as she saw me a small smile appeared on her face. 

“Where did you go?” she asked me as she leaned against the counter with her gray eyes starring back at me. I knew that my eyes weren’t back to their original blue color, the last time they were like that was almost twelve hours ago but lucky Payton didn’t seem afraid of it.

“Out for a run” I told her. 

She slightly frowned before crossing her arms over her chest. “If you woke me up I would’ve went with you.” Only if she knew how tempting her lips looked when  she pouts. Then again, I only went for that run to get away from her so that I could clear my head a little bit but how do I tell her that without offending her? Maybe I shouldn’t tell her that.

“You hungry?” 

“Not really.”

She stood there watching me take a water bottle out of the fridge and chug it down. She looked so shy and uncomfortable just leaning against the door frame with her hands playing with the material of her pale yellow shirt. She looks so different from how she usually looks in my arms but I knew that if I were to simply hold her I might be selfish and never let go until I have her completely.

Forcing a smile on my lips I nearly growled out at her, “Make yourself at home” before walking past her but not without getting a good whiff of her scent. Vanilla and strawberries, such an enchanting scent but how badly I want to taste it…..Ugh! I need to get a grip on myself. 

So to distract me I called the Alpha Stanton, the Alpha back at home to inform him that we’ve arrived in Whitplanes and then I called the Alpha Paxton, the Alpha that rules the territory of Whitplains and informed him that we have just arrived. He wanted to meet us tomorrow, first thing in the morning and honestly I wasn’t looking forwards to that. 

For some reason that I still can’t figure out is why I always bump head with high linked enforcers. I bumped heads with Alpha Stanton, I’ve bumped heads with Beta Adas and for some reason I think I’ll be bumping heads with Alpha Paxton and his Beta tomorrow….first thing in the morning. I guess the thing that I’ve never liked about Alpha or Beta or any high linked enforcement is because of the simple fact that they were too nosey. I had no bout left in my mind that Alpha Paxton was going to ask question after question. It took ten minutes call to inform him that we’ve arrived which should’ve only taken thirty seconds. 

He’s going to ask me all sorts of questions like why am I living on Stanton’s territory without being part of the pack officially. He’ll ask me why Alpha Stanton is hesitating on giving me full membership of the pack and questions is going to make me want to rip his head off. 

The only thing that’s keeping me from doing just that is Payton and her fathers threats. I keep reminding myself that this trip isn’t for me….it’s for Payton and no matter how badly I’m going to want to rip and Alpha or Beta head off, I’m just going to have to bite my tongue and keep my mouth shut. 

After all it took Mr. Adas a while to convince the Alpha to trust me enough so that I could stay on one of his close friends territory and I should just be grateful that at least I’ve got Mr. Adas backing me up one hundred percent now……but getting to the Alpha is going to be a challenge. Hey just look at all the bullshit I had to go through with Mr. Adas but it was all worth it because now I have Payton. 

I sighed deeply as I scrolled through my contacts until I found the person I was looking for. The phone only rang once before he picked up. 

“It took you long enough to call” you could tell that he was serious but still kidding at the same time. 

“Yeah Alpha Paxton just don’t shut up, he just kept going on and on.” 

“Don’t talk that way until your off of his territory and back home safe and sound. He may not shut up but you need to keep him sweet until the end of this summer. I didn’t convince the Alpha what you were trust worthy enough to leave this territory with my daughter for nothing so don’t make me regret this.” Mr. Adas’s words were all too serious. 

It made me all the more determined to make this summer last because he kept thinking that I’ll some how screw it up. “You won’t regret this” I sighed and the inhaling deeply through my nose only to caught that vanilla and strawberry scent that makes my mouth water.

“Yea, you better pray you don’t because if you do your ass is mine.” By the tone in his voice you could tell that he was joking.

I laughed, “Don’t worry Joshua, you can count on me.”

“I don’t believe that I’ve ever said that you can ever call my by my first name” Only if it could see his face. With a raised brow and a slight playful smirk on his face. Even though I know he’ll never admit this anytime soon but I knew he loves me. No homo but he does. he was having a conversation with the Alpha and told him that he couldn’t pick a better mate then me to be with his baby girl so that got to mean he loves me or at least count for something.

“Whatever you say Mr. Adas.” 

“Tell Payton to call me and her mother whenever she has time.”

“Sure thing Joshua” I told him and I couldn’t help the smirk that was on my face as I could imagine him rolling his eyes at me. 

I could feel another presents enter the room and by the enchanting smell I knew exactly who it was. At that moment I could hear Mr. Adas mumble, “What the hell am I going to do with his boy” and that only caused the smirk on my face to widen. 

My little mate made her way over to me and sat right next to me on the love seat. I was to busy listening to Mr. Adas mumbling into the phone and starring at the ground to look over at her but then she laid her hand on top of my free hand and then leaned her head against my shoulder. 

“Just tell Payton I love her.”

“Alright, love you too Joshua” and with that I quickly hang up the phone before he could correct me. Yup, he got to love me. 

“Was that my dad?” Her voice was soft and careful.

“Yea, he told me to tell you that he loves you and to call him and your mom whenever” I couldn’t take the distance between us so I stood up instead. When I finally looked down at her she looked both upset and hurt.

I knew what I did hurt her but if she doesn’t want to get physically and emotionally hurt then she might want to keep her distance away from me for a while. It hurts to think about he away from me but that was the truth. 

“What’s wrong with you Tristen?” her voice was low but hurt as she wrapped her arms around her small waist and her usually beautiful grey eyes became both stormy and glossy. I felt like punching something. I’m so stupid…..just look what I’ve done to her. 

“You’ve been acting different all day. Your eyes have been black ever since this morning, it’s like you don’t want to talk to me any longer than you have to and it’s like you repulsed from my touch.” She was clearly upset as she stood up with her arms across her chest. “I don’t like it, not one bit.”

How do I explain this to her without her getting upset, mad or scared but no matter how hard I thought about it, it always came out as her reacting in one of the way that I don’t want her to react in. So here goes nothing….

“I just feel pressured. I’m trying to make everyone happy and it’s taking a lot of energy and patience. I’m trying to keep your dad happy, I’m trying to keep Alpha Stanton happy and trying to convince him that he could trust me and now tomorrow we’re going to have to meet with Alpha Paxton and his Beta and guess what…..I’m going to have to keep him happy too.” 

She still seemed upset but her eyes told me she understood. I wrapped my arms around her waist all while she starred up at me with those eyes. “I’m sorry if I’m making you upset because I’m trying to do just the opposite. Keeping you happy is the only happiness I care about the most.” 

It was true, if I didn’t care about her happiness then I wouldn’t be here right now but I do. Keeping her happy is my job and I’ll die before I could hurt her in anyways possible and by not marking will keep her happy then let it be so but I don’t know how long that’s going to rock real well with my wolf. So help me god I’m praying that he could wait as long as it takes for Payton to realize that she wants to be wearing my mark.

Surprising me she stood on her tippy toes and gave me a quick peek. “Your not alone Tristen you’ve got me and if you really want to keep me happy then I want you to relax and be yourself. I love it when you hold me and kiss me and tell me that you love me and so far I’ve had none of that for the past couple of days.”

“Then that’s all changing right now” leaning down I captured her lips with mine. I kissed her with passion, want and need but I held back. She wasn’t ready for all of this. When we pulled apart, both of us gasping for air and her lips red and puffed out, both of us were satisfied but I knew better. My wolf would only want more and more with the way she was looking at us.  

“I love you mate” I told her and as her answer she wrapped her arms around my neck and once again our lips were moving in sympathy.

I couldn’t resist her but in a way this was a way for me to escape making everyone else happy and instead….make myself happy. Call me selfish all you want but I’ll take everything that she gives me until I just can’t take it anymore. 

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Aw, aren't they cute! I know but I hope you know this chapter just gave out numerous clues to what will happen in future chapters! Well you guys and we'll see if your right & I hope you all caught on to the fact that Tristen has a thing with nothing getting alone with high enforcement and such. So if you think you could try and put everything together then try but I bout you'll get it right!

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