*Jay Pov*

I can feel her stirring in my arms and then her stiffening after a few minutes. Then I felt her slowly moving my hands away, which are around her.

"Do you really feel unsafe with me?" I whispered and met silence.

I opened my eyes to see her giving me a glanced before closing her eyes. She opened her mouth a few times and closed it.

"Forget the question." I mumbled moving away and got up from the bed.

By the time I walked out of the washroom, she walked towards me and got inside it before locking the door.

I got ready lost in my thoughts, but glanced to my side to see her standing there with a frown covering her face while staring at her clothes.

"Wear this!" I whispered and hugged her from behind.

"Jay!" she whispered, pushing my hands away, but I held on to her.

"What?" I asked brushing my lips on her cheek and then her neck before nuzzling it.

"Leave me!" she replied, but I sighed pressing my chin on her shoulder.

"Don't do this to us." I stated making her turn to stare at me.

"Us?" she asked and I nodded pressing my lips to her giving a peck.

"I will be going then." I said, moving away and she turned around completely.

"Today I will go to Kalpana's house." She suddenly said and I stilled.

"Okay!" I finally got the word out, but inside I am dreading thinking now what new wedge will be created that's need to be fought.

"I will take Lakshmi with me directly from the school." She added folding her arms.

"Will you be late?" I asked, placing my hand on her cheek and caressed it.

She stared at me and then moved slowly near to me before hugging me tightly while I stilled. What happened so suddenly?

"I am not scared of you." She stated and I smiled hugging her back.

"Good to know, Jhanvi! I don't want you to be. I know it's a crime what I did and I will always feel the regret of ever doing it. But... but I was not in my right mind." I tried to explain and she just sighed.

"It depends on how it would be when I meet her. So, I can't say whether I will be early or late." She said moving back and I nodded.

"If it is late, then give me a call. I will get you both from there." I said and she slowly nodded while I smiled.

I kissed on her forehead and walked away from the room before entering Lakshmi's. I kissed her forehead and walked off thinking to to finish the work early today.

And also hope something else will not get added to all this. I just want everything to settle down and be as it was before.

*Jhanvi Pov*

"Jhanvi?" Kalpana said, looking at me in surprise.

"I hope you are not busy." I said and she smiled.

"Of course not! Come inside." She said, opening the door completely and I walked inside to see even more amazing décor.

I thought the house was beautiful looking outside, but inside it is even nicer. I walked to the living area to see an older woman sitting with Sudhir.

"She is Manohar's mother." Kalpana said and I smiled at the woman.

"She is my best friend Jhanvi." She added gesturing me.

"Kalpana talks about you so much. I am so happy that she finally get to meet you." Aunty said, standing up and walked near to me.

"How is Jay?" she asked and I glanced at Kalpana in surprise.

"Fine!" I replied and she nodded before glancing at Lakshmi, who is standing beside me holding my hand.

"And who is this beautiful girl?" she asked smiling at her.

"My daughter!" I replied and she pinched her cheeks before taking Sudhir and her to get them snacks.

"She is crazy for kids. And don't worry about Lakshmi, she will be fine." Kalpana said and I smiled at her.

"I need to talk to you." I said and she nodded before taking me to her room saying it is best to talk there.

"So, I hope I didn't create anything worse for you both." She said the moment we sat on the bed.

"I should know all that and I wish I had known it way before." I said and she frowned at me.

"Why?" she asked and I groaned covering my face.

"I don't know! After getting to know about his action, I am feeling this anger and hurt within me. I don't know whether I have a right to feel either of them and I am confused." I replied and she placed her arm on my shoulder.

"Do you love him?" she asked and I slowly nodded.

"I know, he was your... you know. I know it is against all I ever talked to you about him. But... but he was so caring and with him I never felt like I should do some miracle to understand his feelings because he always laid them before me. And it's been long since I felt this happiness." I replied and removed my hands to stare at her.

"I stopped loving Ali long back." I added and she smiled.

"I know! That was the main reason I kept on trying to make you move on in your life. To stop talking to Harsha about Ali. I knew you didn't love him from your words, but I couldn't say anything when I saw you were so happy when he returned thinking I thought wrong about your feelings." She explained.

"I was for Harsha." I mumbled and she nodded.

"Maybe you are feeling anger as my friend and hurt as his wife for his action." she commented and i stayed silent thinking about her words.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked, breaking the silence and she nodded.

"Why did Manohar want your kid when he could have his own marrying someone?" I asked and she sighed.

"It was actually not possible. He can't have kids." She replied and explained everything.

"After knowing everything how could you marry him? Didn't you feel like he is still saying lies?" I asked her frowning.

"For what? The money? But he has too much before which all that property will be very little. For revenge? But the person who hurt him already died to see his win. And he was not angry at Jay until all this kidnap fiasco. He genuinely loved me and trust me, I thought too much before coming to this. And he loves Sudhir too much." She replied and I felt relief that she really has found happiness.

"Now, I hope you will not let one thing which happened in the past to affect your relationship." She added but I just stared at her.

"Aren't you feeling uncomfortable with the thought of him and me?" I asked and she smiled.

"It felt in the beginning, but then no one can say what life takes us to and with whom we fall right?" she asked back and I nodded.

"Did you never thought to give Jay a chance? I mean he fought for you to the end of even kidnapping you." I asked and she laughed.

"Oh! Everything would have been different or at least I would have taken more time to choose or at least my decision would have been difficult. But hearing the Jay's words, I know it would be my stupidity to choose him." She explained.

"But why?" I asked her frowning.

"He was no longer in love with me, Jhanvi. He was there to take me back with just the wish of having a family. He was always obsessed with the idea of having a family and when his Mom did everything by revealing the truth, he was obsessed with that. Because he doesn't know who is his actual family, he wanted to possess the one which he knows as his. It was clear from the moment he came back, he doesn't love me. Maybe we were never in that much of deep love and thought of just go along thinking likeness as love or we may have just fallen out of it during the years moving on." She replied shrugging.

"Family?" I asked and she nodded.

"Even before marrying him, I know he wished for a big family." She replied and then changed the topic asking about Lakshmi.

I talked to her, but at the back of my mind, I can still feel her words repeating themselves. I finally stood up saying it is late and she nodded before we both walked out of her room.

"Pallavi is still at the office and she said she will be late. I wish you could stay more to even meet her." Kalpana said when we reached the living room to see Lakshmi playing with Sudhir.

"I will meet her again." I said and held Lakshmi's hand before walking to the main door.

"Jhanvi! I am happy for both of you. You do the same and be happy for yourself." Kalpana suddenly said making me glance at her.

"Okay!" I mumbled and walked off hoping to catch the bus.

"I was about to call you." Jay said the moment we both walked inside.

"We didn't get the bus immediately." I said and he frowned.

"You should have called me." He said, but I shrugged, taking her to the room before getting her changed.

"How did she manage without getting freshen up even after all these hours after school finished?" Jay asked, picking her up when we both walked out of her room.

"She was busy playing with Sudhir." I replied and he stilled, but walked to the living room.

"I have brought take out thinking you will be tired after today's events." He said and I stopped near the kitchen door.

I slowly smiled and turned around before walking near to the couch to see him talking to Lakshmi while changing the channels.

"That's very sweet." I said, making him look up and he raised his eyebrows seeing my smile while I rolled my eyes and sat beside him before leaning my head on his shoulder.

After having the dinner, Lakshmi slept off while we both walked inside our room. I sat on the bed while he started doing his work on the laptop.

"Did you always wished for a family, Jay?" I asked unable to stop myself.

"Yes! I did and it is my biggest wish. I never wanted to feel alone again. See? I am not alone." He replied, looking up from the laptop and smiled which I returned but inside it felt heavy.

"So, I hope everything went well today considering the smiles you are flowing over me?" he asked, settling beside me and pulled me in his arms.

"Yes! Aunty asked about you." I replied and he sighed nodding.

"She was there with me when Mom passed away. Manohar and she looked after me, but I pushed them away. How can I take all that feeling too much guilt inside?" he asked and pressed his face to my neck shuddering.

"I didn't know that Manohar can't have kids." I mumbled and he nodded.

"It is sad! If I was given that fate, then I don't know what I would have done." He said and moved his hand to caress my stomach.

"I am not pregnant! I started using the pill from long back." I said and he sighed lifting his head.

"I know! I saw the box in the washroom. I am not suggesting anything, Jhanvi. We have too much to cross to think about child and we even have Lakshmi to think about." He said and I nodded.

"But I will dream of some kids." He added and I stilled, but he kissed me letting the matter leave.

"What is it?" he asked the next day when I stayed silent sitting on the bed while he got ready.

"I am just thinking what it would have been if there was some other woman in my place. But then nothing would have been different would it?" I asked and he frowned.

"What are you saying?" he asked while I smiled.

"From yesterday evening a thought was roaming in my head, but I ignored it and pushed it back as much as I can. But I can't do it anymore." I replied and stood up.

"You said you wanted a family and now you got one. Is any woman is fine in this family part?" I asked and he frowned more.

"Do you even know what you are saying?" he asked and I closed my eyes.

"No! But... but I just want to know whether I am something special or just a woman at the right time being near you." I replied and he stilled.

"Are you asking me whether I would have been happy in this similar way, even if there was someone else?" he asked and I stayed silent.

"Why this question, Jhanvi? Why are we having different conversations for every different matter? Ask me what you want directly." He said, holding my shoulders and shook me.

"No one can forget their first love, right?" I asked and he stilled before finally walking out while I frowned at the door and slapped my forehead.

"Jay!" I said when he walked back inside after a few minutes while he moved towards his cupboard before pushing clothes inside a small bag.

"I don't know what happened to me. Why don't we talk?" I asked fidgeting with my hands not knowing what to say.

He finally walked to the door and turned towards me saying, "I shouldn't have been this selfish to you, Jhanvi. You still love Ali but I must have pressured you to be with me."

"But Jay..." I started saying which he cut off shaking his head.

"You need space from me and I am giving you that. You can have Lakshmi with you too even though I can't be away from her. Like I said I will not take her away unless you wish me to. I am going to the city like I planned the day I met you. Now, you can have all the space and time and I wish you can get your thoughts cleared soon." Saying that he just walked off.

"Jay!" I shouted, following him.

"At the end, I want to say is that, I love you." He added while I stilled in shock hearing the words I wanted all these days.

I came out of my thoughts only see him already walking out of the house. I covered my mouth and knelt down feeling weak.

What have I done? I thought moving my hands toclutch my stomach not being able to breathe properly. What have I done bypushing my happiness away with stupidity?    

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