*Jay Pov*

While they both are resting, I got myself a pacing spree in the living room. Wasn't morning scenario not enough?

That I saw her past to come and knock on my consciousness. Why did I start thinking all this is going to last?

Soon, she will get back together with her family taking Lakshmi away from me and I will be dismissed completely. I snorted thinking the irony of all this.

How many times did I dismiss the women from my life? Karma is really a bitch that strikes back then.

I sat down and closed my eyes, which became a habit from the past few days, but all that was for irritation and now it was for fear of losing everything.

A slight moment made me to open my eyes only to see her walking out of her room rubbing her face with both hands.

"Is everything okay?" I asked and she got startled before staring at me.

"Yeah! I was just hungry." She replied and I stood up remembering it is past the lunch time.

"I am sorry! I thought of taking you to the restaurant after the doctor's visit so there is no lunch cooked." I explained.

"Why do you keep on apologizing? I can cook food for us." She mumbled and started walking towards the kitchen while I just stood there.

"Isn't Lakshmi hungry?" I finally asked following her.

"She had food again when we were going to the hospital, so she is not hungry I guess. Anyways, she is sleeping." She replied, shrugging and took out vegetables.

"What are you cooking?" I asked after a few minutes, feeling weird to just stand there while she is moving here and there.

She stilled and turned towards me with a frown, but I even glanced at the knife she is holding. She sighed and asked, "What is it?"

"What?" I asked back leaning on the kitchen door.

"Why are you... why are you behaving like this?" she asked as if she doesn't know what to say about it.

"Because I am feeling restless." I replied honestly and she immediately relaxed.

"Fine! Take that bowl and come here." She said, gesturing the one she placed aside a few minutes back.

I immediately nodded and followed her instructions and in no time I am cutting some of the vegetables along with her.

After that I stayed back and watched her cooking the food for us. We both sat down at the dining area which was a little surprise for me as we stopped doing this after that day.

"It is nice." I calmly said and she nodded without glancing at me.

"So, what are your plans?" I asked after a few minutes.

"About what?" she asked back just having her food.

"About what happened today." I replied and she closed her eyes.

"I want my son back and want him to understand me." She stated.

"What about him?" I asked not saying the name out but she understood.

"What about him?" she asked back and I sighed.

"With these repeating questions, nothing is going to change." I replied and she leaned back finally staring at me.

"There is nothing to think about him." She stated.

"Why?" I asked her frowning.

"You are asking me that? When I didn't allow my friend to let you go off the hook of your mistakes, then why would I?" she asked back as usual and I sat in silence for a few minutes.

"But he returned within a few months and not seven years." I replied and she just stared at me.

"And you already know the reason for his return. My son's tears brought him here." She mumbled and stood up taking her plate.

I followed her holding my plate and she threw her in the basin before turning around with force while I placed my plate calmly before washing my hands.

When she stood there just glaring at me, I took her hand in mine and washed it before cleaning our hands with the cloth near to us.

"What do you want me to say?" she asked, still fuming at me.

"Just what you can." I replied and brushed her hair away from her eyes to see her expression properly only to move my hand over her cheek in the process of moving her hair.

Then my hand passed her neck and she fell into my arms before crying her heart out. Not able to stand anymore, I slid down with her still in my arms.

She snuggled closer, hiding her face on my chest with which she ended up on my lap, but seems to be oblivious of everything but concentrated on her crying.

I sighed and rubbed her back with one hand while holding her to me with the other. I wish I can say something to her like I understand her pain.

Do I? Yes! I do understand the pain of own son moving away from you. But I can't compare it with her because they already have a strong bond while I didn't even had a little bond with mine.

I understand the pain of betrayal. I do, don't I? From my own Mom who was hell bent to give one after the other betrayals till her last breath but is it comparable to her?

No! I had other people whom I pushed away by myself while she was pushed away by the only person she can trust.

So, I can never tell her that I can understand her pain. I pulled her more to me and settled in silence and she eventually calmed down but stayed like that.

"I am sorry!" she mumbled and tried to move but we both forgot my hold on her making her unable to move.

"Lakshmi was just scared. You need not worry." I finally said she glanced up to look at me with a surprised look.

"How do you know I was worried about that too?" she asked frowning.

"I know! You felt like I will take her away from you but remember my promise I gave in the beginning. She is yours unless you think otherwise." I replied and she closed her eyes before moving her hands around my neck hugging me.

"Thank you! I was really scared." She mumbled and I shook my head.

"There is no need to thank me at all. After all, I don't deserve her and you need not feel bad about the incident you explained in the morning." I said and she immediately moved back to stare at me.

"You are really guilty?" she asked, frowning and I just smiled before brushing her cheek which is completely tear strained.

I don't know why or how it happened, but there I was pressing my lips to her and kissing her still holding her tightly. To my utter surprise, she kissed back and I felt myself slipping into the passion.

I was kissing my way to her throat and down, moving away her top to continue my explore when we both heard a small voice. Within the next second we scrambled away from each other with wide eyes staring back at me and maybe I am giving the same expression.

"This..." she started saying, but I shook my head.

"You were emotionally drained and I took advantage." I said, but she shook her head.

"It is not completely your fault." She mumbled, but I shook my head.

We both stopped looking at the door to see Lakshmi standing there while rubbing her eyes. I smiled at her and she smiled back before turning towards Jhanvi.

She immediately rushed to her and hugged her while I sat there staring at both of them. Lakshmi turned towards me and waved me to her.

I moved near them with complete hesitation before reaching them and saw Jhanvi stilling. However, Lakshmi pulled my hand, making it go around them and hugged Jhanvi again.

I fisted my hands, but in the end hugged both of them when she again turned to glance at me. I calmly whispered near Jhanvi's ear, 'sorry' while she just gave a curt nod.

After that I don't know how the day passed as I tried to make myself scarce inside the office room. Making sure they both slept, I went inside the kitchen to have my dinner.

I was about to take a first bite when I heard someone entering and glanced up to see Jhanvi entering the kitchen and sat opposite me.

I placed the spoon back on the plate and she sighed. She looked around before finally staring at me.

"Please do not beat yourself thinking you took some advantage of me. We both were lost in our thoughts and it was a weak moment. I can understand that and it would be completely awkward if you keep on thinking like this." She said staring at me while I frowned at her.

"Isn't it awkward already?" I asked and she looked surprised.

"No! She needs both of us to come out of this fear. Did you see what happened in the afternoon? She is not ready to go back to her room too." She replied.

"I will try for it to be not awkward." I said, giving her a small smile.

"Well, try more." She snapped and I immediately felt anger.

"Then come here." I snapped back.

"For what?" she asked, backing away even while sitting on the chair.

"See? How you are worried even to be near me and you are saying it is not awkward." I said, shaking my head and started having my food while she sat in silence.

After finishing I stood up and walked inside the kitchen to dump the plate and returned to see her still sitting there.

"Good night!" I said in a calm tone and started to pass her, but she suddenly held my hand.

"Wait!" she mumbled, standing up and gazed at me before moving away from the chair to stand before me.

"It should not be awkward." She said and then hugged me while I frowned but hugged her back.

"I know what things are going around in Lakshmi's mind. It is better if we both try to take the fears away from her mind." She added and I nodded closing my eyes.

And we did for the next few days with every power we have. We were always together with Lakshmi and doing as many things as any family would do.

There was a result too with her finally smiling and not moving around with fear. She even started sleeping in her own room.

"Okay! I will leave for my office." I said, nodding at her after Lakshmi settled for playing with her ball.

"Okay! Today I don't have to go to work. So, you need not hurry to come fast." She said with a small smile, but I can still see the sadness in her eyes.

Who wouldn't be? She was coming to the terms of losing her son to only have him back and again lose him.

"I will try to come early and we will go somewhere." I said, smiling and she nodded glancing at Lakshmi.

I placed a small kiss on Lakshmi's forehead before walking to the door and opened it only to go stiff in my stance looking at the people before me.

"Harsha!" Jhanvi called him, seeing the people and the kid slowly walked to her while I stared at her ex-husband Ali, who is staring back at me with a determined look making the sense of fear of losing everything return with full force.

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