*Jhanvi Pov*

"Jay!" I called him when he was about to walk out of the door.

He immediately turned around with shock covering his face making me realize that it is the first time I am calling him by his name.

"What is it?" he asked clearing his throat.

"I need to go one hour early today." I replied and he nodded.

"I will come early." He stated and we both stood there in silence.

"Lakshmi must be wondering about me." I said, gesturing my hand to her room.

"I must go too." He said and at once we both turned around before walking away in our directions.

This is so awkward! I thought moving my hand to slap my forehead but stopped myself. It's been just two days since I cried my heart out about my fears and insecurities and my another stupidity.

Who asked me to kiss his cheek? Did he or is there any need? No! But still overwhelmed with everything, I went and did that.

Now, I am feeling so awkward to even talk to him. It's not like I talked to him before but that was because of anger and all but now it is because of awkwardness.

I think it is better if I stop using that word right now. I shook my head and smiled seeing Lakshmi waiting for me near the doll house he brought day before yesterday.

I asked him what is the need for it so soon, but he shrugged, saying, she talked for the first time and she deserves a gift. In short I ended up rolling my eyes but couldn't ignore the happiness he showed in his words.

However his another word struck me as he calmly said when will she call him as 'paa'. I didn't know what to say because I never thought him as her father at all because all I thought was after everything gets clear and I can take care of her then we will be going away.

But now all that feels little selfish. However, I know he stopped his life because of us and if we don't leave then he can't too.

I sat down beside her and we both started playing. This part of the day is best for me even though I know I should take a rest for sometime, but I don't want to miss any minute with her.

But then I remember Kalpana's voice saying, don't be so much attached. She said that too many times and even talked about Ali too saying how can he stay away for all those years.

However, I felt nice to think he will come one day with my eyes closed than to see reality that I was alone.

Now, I am paying for being so ignorant. I wish Kalpana is here so that I can just lay my head on her shoulder and cry.

At the same time I don't want her here because I know she will be angry and hurt that I betrayed her by marrying him.

I just fell from one round of chaos to another, but I just want to be ignorant again. I smiled the way she is arranging the people and it slipped when I realized what she is doing.

"Maa." She mumbled showing a lady figure and tapped herself showing the little girl and then pressed a finger at the male figure before glancing at me.

And then I realized I was the most selfish person in the world because I kept quiet not saying a word feeling the fear of loosing her.

However, from that moment the memory started eating me. Even when he was giving me the keys, I took it not meeting his eyes.

He sighed, making me realize, he is thinking that I detest him being the reason for my behavior, but how can I say that I just detested myself for the morning incident.

I wanted to correct it, but didn't have the strength so stayed silent. I made another mistake by expressing my mistake which I realized the next minute I blurted it out.

"We need to go to hospital." He said and I nodded.

"I don't think I did any mistake recently. Why are you avoiding my eyes for the past few days?" he asked gently and finally I looked at him.

"Lakshmi was playing with her doll house and arranged three of us." I started and he immediately smiled.

"Really? She is so smart." He said smiling to which I gave him a weird look.

"She called me pointing the female figure and pointed herself using a little girl and she then pointed you." I said and he frowned.

"And?" he asked with confused look.

"I stayed silent. And... and I realized I didn't want you there." I replied and saw him taking in the words and a look of hurt passing his face which immediately turned blank.

"Get ready! We need to even take Lakshmi with maid leaving early today." He said standing up and started walking away without having his breakfast.

"I... I don't know why I felt like that." I said weakly.

"I know! I don't have any right to even think of having a daughter like her." He calmly said and walked away while I frowned.

I didn't think like that because of his behavior or anything but because I felt scared he will also take her away from me like Ali. But seems like he misunderstood my reason and I wish I can correct it but now it was his time to dodge me.

The moment I entered the doctor's room, I know there is something wrong with the extra glow in her face.

"I have a surprise for you." She said but then glanced at Lakshmi in my hands.

I smiled at her and sat down before setting Lakshmi down who immediately walked to the couch where Jay is sitting down in silence.

Anne looked at him with a smile making me remember she likes him but he has this blank look that a hurt look passed her face.

"I would have given this surprise two days back but we couldn't find the file where you wrote your address. And as per the wishes of some we couldn't call you." Anne said looking at me but kept on glancing at him but he is not even looking at us as he is busy with looking at Lakshmi.

"Are you excited?" she asked but I frowned.

"They were told about your incident and reached the hospital and from there the doctor send them to me. I told them you will come today and they will be here soon." She explained and this got Jay's attention.

"Who are they?" he asked frowning.

"Kalpana?" I asked her frowning and he immediately stilled.

"Here they are." She said when we heard a knock and the door opened.

Before I can turn around towards it, I felt two arms hugging me saying the word, 'Mom'.

I gasped and turned around holding the arms around me to see it is Harsha. I felt my heart beat skip and stared at him in shock before taking a deep breath but my vision blurred.

"Har... harsha!" I mumbled and he started crying, making me hug him before crying myself.

"I missed you, Mom." He said crying more.

"Shh... don't cry." I said brushing his tears away.

"You are also crying." He said smiling.

"Let's go to home, Mom. We are here waiting for you for a few days. Now, we can go home. Dad too has some work." He added and then I glanced up to see Ali standing near the door.

Then the anger, pain and humiliation increased too much that I was shaking but closed my eyes. I had to open them feeling another set of arms around me now saying faintly, 'Maa'.

"Lakshmi!" I mumbled and turned to see her looking at me with fear and worry.

"Who is she?" Harsha arms while her hands tightened around my hand.

"Harsha! She is my daughter Lakshmi and your sister." I replied smiling at him but he stared at me with wide eyes before stepping back.

"No! I don't have any sister." He said frowning.

"You have now." I said with a gentle tone, but he shook his head before rushing to Ali.

"Harsha!" I said in a weak voice.

"Don't worry, Jhanvi! I explained Mr.Ali everything and in what circumstances you had to get married." Anne said and I closed my eyes.

"Thanks for your wonderful help, Ms.Anne." I heard Jay's voice for the first time.

I turned to see Lakshmi and slowly stood up holding her hand. I smiled at her assuringly and released her hand before moving towards Harsha, who is hiding his face.

"Harsha! You are my son, but she is also my daughter." I said staring at his head.

"No! You forgot me and you didn't miss me." He screamed and I staggered back.

"Harsha! You know that I love you dear." I said and turned to see Lakshmi hiding herself holding Jay.

I glanced at Ali to meet a blank look and at Jay to receive the same look before glancing at Anne to see a pity look. Shut up! I wanted to shout at all of them, but in the end, I walked to the chair and sat there.

"I want to go home, Father." I heard Harsha's voice and closed my eyes feeling the same pain.

Then I heard Jay's voice saying, "It is better if he has some time to adjust to the idea."

"Can you give the address?" it was the first time Ali speaking.

"Sure!" Jay said and there was silence which I can think of him giving his card and writing the address.

"Harsha!" I mumbled weakly, but heard the door closing.

"I am so sorry! I thought she would be happy." Anne mumbled.

"I am! But so much happened..." I trailed off and she nodded like she can understand.

"We will leave." Jay said and I turned to see him holding Lakshmi in his arms.

I stood up and followed them with her hiding her face in his neck. He passed her to me when we reached the car and she clung to me making me press a kiss to her head.

We reached home in silence and then he mumbled, "I should have made other arrangements for Lakshmi so that she could have stayed home."

"No one saw it coming and it is not your mistake." I mumbled back.

"Why don't you take a rest and also not go to work today?" he asked and I nodded before walking inside my room along with Lakshmi before laying her on the bed.

I called the hospital to take permission and laid down beside her immediately felt her clinging to me making me cry in silence.

Oh god! Why is all this happening now? It has been just a little moment away from Harsha being with me, but again he was taken away.

I closed my eyes only to see two images side by side. One is with Ali along with Harsha is clinging to him and the other is Jay with Lakshmi in his arms. And I immediately sat up in sweat after getting those images. Oh god! What is all this? I thought in fear.

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