Like, idk what the fuck is wrong with me! I have everything, then the smallest of things get me sad? Like what the fuck. And why the fuck am I always saying sorry? I have no reason to? What the fuck? I am such a freak show, and no body cares. Like, people will be like "oh I care" but its like, no, you don't. Who would care about a damaged piece of shit like me? Like seriously?How can I believe anyone at this point? I hate myself and everything about me, and I always have. People tell me I don't need to change but it is all lies! Lies, lies, lies! Like wtf?? I can't stand it anymore! Why won't anyone tell me the truth? That they don't care? Like wtf?

Sorry about the rant, I just needed to let some anger out. Something I thought would really help me is obviously never gonna happen, and I'm being forced to do something that I think will make everything worse. Yeah. But whatever. I just needed to rant.