Aise na mujhe tum dekho.. 💖

I was sat there on the bench for the last two hours mustering up the courage to ring up Krish I was trying to control my emotions my bloody shaky tone but all the efforts went down the drain when I heard his voice how would I tell him?

Not over the phone.

I need to be there when that hit him.

How to soften the blow? how to make it less hurtful? how to comfort him that I'll be there he wasn't alone?

I can't do this but I have to do this.

Abhi had trusted on me he had put a lot on me oh God I don't know what to do.

His mother came this morning to my house and she was crying I couldn't stay there, I left my house without having breakfast because it was hard for me to look in her eyes maybe I would found there accusation, betrayal, disappointment? I could have stopped him then why didn't I make an effort, why didn't I try.

Because,
I supported him I would always even if sometimes I don't wish to. And I know he had expected from me to do so.
He knew. I knew.

He'll get there and I would be cheering for him.

Something he was aware of,

I looked at the letter grazing my thumb over Krish's name. He was lucky he got to read it now.  While I had to wait for something that won't happen.

Was Abhi trying to mock me in a way through his letter that I was a fool for hoping something impossible?

I mean I was I knew it very well but I was working on it to improve and move on.

But he said 'it would happen that's why I wrote this '

maybe he was being sarcastic.

Yes that would be. Otherwise... was that Krish likes me or loves me.

God this again when will I just stop it and just forget it.

I went through my mobile to distract my mind before I drive myself crazy.

Why were there so many notifications everytime?

I didn't even get time to look at it properly.

Tiktok and Instagram.

On Instagram, my followers were increasing rapidly.

And on TikTok my video had 1k likes.

What!

This is insane! What the hell are people liking in it??

And comments were overflowing.

_Impatient_ budDy - when are you posting next? We are waiting for more!!!!! Make it now!

KairaHater_no.5677899... hey you should upload more you have a talent unlike someone named Daayan; Witch (credits goes to blahhmaggie)  you should post soon all hopes are on you we want her out !!!

Trolling_ Queen - you bitch you better start taking this seriously it's not every day you receive this much support make use of it - sorry for my language bitch

Okay.. I'm not there to take someone's place.

And why Pratiksha had so many haters?? (Oh guys she's asking!!)

There's no competition going and it's not like my second video will also be liked. It was just by chance.

But I had a weird urge to try that and see ...you know to be confirmed like I'm not that good. I mean I'm little more than okay in lip-syncing but that doesn't mean anything...

To kill my time I made one there most probably because I was bored. I watched it after getting it proper in two takes. It was okay like fine anyway, I won't be uploading it to the public. I kept it down.

I glanced around feeling like someone was watching me.

I found something moving behind the bushes. I was alone on this side of the park.

Unsurely, I walked towards it. I don't think ghosts like moving around during the daytime.

From the bushes a puppy a light brown colored puppy jostled out.

Oh.

I bent down observing it. It was cute. I was going to pet it when two hands gathered it up. "It's mine okay," said a voice from up. I followed it standing up. It was some boy who already had turned around and was leaving.

Weird.

I watched frowning

"Kyra,"

My eyes widened.

Krish I turned back.

He was there in front of me.

"What happened?" He asked huffing. Oh god had he just ran a mile or what.

He inspected me up to down then my face he scanned for something.

"Your eyes they're puffed up," he pointed out.

I touched them immediately, "no they are okay I mean they are yeah... Oh, you come here with me,"  I went back to the red bench where the letter I had placed it carelessly with my mobile on top... Wait.. my mobile was missing.. I looked all over.

I was bewildered, "my mobile was right here and now-

"It's here it was down," Krish held it out. I took it.

Confused.

down?.

I was losing my mind I guess.

I have more serious matters in my hands right now.
"Sit first," I said looking at Krish.

He gave me a weird look but obliged.

I sat back beside, staring at him. He stared back with a look okay now what.

"Okay ...Ummm... Oh! what happened to your hair?"

He inclined his eyes up as if he could see them.

I laughed while putting it down, it was standing like an antenna. "Idiot," I mumbled.

He playfully glared but smiled eventually.

I gazed down before I lose control dropping my hands in my lap. Held the letter kept there.

He noticed it now shooting me a look that was near to alarmed. 

What! did he know it already somehow?

Well if I was finding it as leverage. It wasn't helpful.

Where to start and how to say?
So without considering a lot, I passed him the letter.

"Read it," I said.

He looked at it hesitantly " Kyra I don't know..

"Please Krish read it and completely,"

He nodded glancing my way. He opened the envelope and pulled out a sheet then I stared down at my shoes. It was like I can feel for Abhi now.

When I thought he would have read it I faced up. His expression was grave.

"Krish.. he crushed the paper balling and threw it away.

He stood up abruptly.

I followed him after picking the paper ball.

"Where are you going?" I asked from behind.

"Like you care,"

"What?" I halted.

He was stamping ahead without hearing.

"Krish wait!" I sped up.

"What's it, Kyra! " He faced back suddenly. I shifted back before I tripped but I lost my balance he caught my arm.

Freeing it when I was stable he said, "you could have told me Kyra but you didn't, - wait - I can't blame you he said when did you get this letter he mailed you?" He asked, sarcastically.

I tried to keep my patience as I explained calmly everything to him leaving the part about the condition applied to my letter.

"Krish..." He wasn't even listening.

"I'm going back home and say to my father to bring him back he also didn't tell me and you-

He glared at me

I shook my head, "no Krish listen -

"No, you listen he cut me off why didn't you even try stopping him? Didn't he mean something to you!"

"You can't say that," I looked up at him the words felt like a punch to my stomach.

He turned away continuing, "you were his friend actually 'best friend' since childhood then how could you even let him go? Or your friendship is only superficial Kyra,"

I backed away as my eyes filled.

Trying to extinguishing a fire will leave you burned.

I would try  later when I mend the current burnt.

Putting my mobile in my jeans pocket I made a move to leave. I was halfway when I heard him call.

"Kyra wait!"

I stopped but didn't turn back.

"What I said was wrong? " He asked nervously.

"You're asking that," I turned back wiping my tear.

He looked my face he flinched "I'm sorry" he whispered, eyes on his shoes.

I blinked trying to focus.

Slowly taking my hands in his he spoke,
"Please sit with me Kyra, my chest is burning my eyes are hurting there's this feeling I need to do something fix something like I lost my one arm and I can't express my pain it happened so suddenly everything was going fine then out of nowhere out of nowhere-

I hugged him because I can't see him like this. For a second his arms remained down but I didn't leave him even if it's one-sided.

But gradually his arms were around my waist pulling  me to himself so tight that it literally knocked me out of breath. I buried my face in his shoulder taking him in, his presence the perfume smell which I knew from the very first day.

He held my head in place mumbling in my ear, "don't worry Kyra I will be there for you always. Don't cry please,"

I didn't know when I started crying and thinking that I started crying more.

Instead of assuring him, he had to assure me.

I tried to free but he didn't let me, he continued, "we'll beat him together when we get him once. How can he leave you like that? That selfish bastard. He better be prepared the very second he lands his foot again in this town. I'll kill him what did he think I won't support him? And then he could use it in his heart melting speech.
When he becomes that so-called big cricketer and he would give that sad speech 'my friends didn't support me like my family. Especially Krish!. He won't let me go.'"

I'm not so fond of him that I would always stick to him like some pathetic gum he's so full of himself  so arrogant! Asshole!...."

He muttered cursing like that keeping me close to him, in my ear while I tried to keep my laughing silent.

It was the same spot where I bid goodbye to Abhi and now I was saying hello to maybe new Krish... ah, see me dreaming and hoping again.

Maybe it was my imagination but I heard a flash sound.

I did it!!!!!

God I had this kind of author's block where I can't write anything and was blaming my sister for putting a nazar on me...🕳️( Can anyone tell me what it is🕳️🕳️ weird things they have in emoji)

anyway, so like I was saying I wrote it at last I can guess you people were waiting.. and I didn't want to make your wait long.

So did you feel for Krish?

Do you think he should have reacted more violently throwing things, punching Kyra oh no not that punching and having a fight with a random person on street. And you know create drama??

Do you think Abhi was kind of wrong only meeting Kyra before leaving?

Do you want to see Krish and his father argument?

And do you think my updating pattern would change once Ramadan starts???

Okay close your ears
HAPPY RAMADAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
to all my muslimahs and also my brothers!!!!!

Wish you and your family a beautiful, peaceful and blessed Ramadan.

I know the lockdown ..

But Allah(God) is great he will have mercy on us and everything will be over soon. That's all we can hope for.

Thanks and don't have amnesia while voting❤️

And yeah😭😭😭😭 how will I write kissing scene now ?? Maybe at night huh.. pun not intended. I can use my mobile at night mostly because during daytime I'll be creeping around my house like snake lying here and there.

Oh well goodnight and once again HAPPY RAMADAN!!!!!