"Grief is the price we pay for love." -Queen Elizabeth II.

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Tani's POV

"Going somewhere?"

He asked from behind me and I quickly turned by recognizing his voice, yeah I was sure about that from whom this voice actually belongs. When I turned, he was standing there, in front of me, so close, so close for my liking, but I don't know why I felt safe when I saw him with me. I relaxed a bit when I saw him and again I forced myself not to smile at him or else he would think that I asked him to meet me because I want him again in my life although that was true but I can't handle myself hurting more, more, again, by him. I don't wanna face rejection again, I don't know why he is back now after saying those hateful words to me one year before. I still remember his every word, his every hateful word for me. But I know whatever I say, whatever I do my face would be showing nothing but love towards him and I bet if he can see that, he'd have already seen it.

I frowned at myself thinking if he is here, that means I was wrong, I was again wrong I don't know why whatever I predict for Rezay it comes out always wrong. Last time I thought it was our date when I met first time, which came out as a horrible day of my life, and today, now, when I was about to go by thinking that he won't come, so here he is, standing before me, raising his eyebrows at me as if asking what am I thinking?

Ohh I forgot he asked something and I was suppose to reply him now. Shit! I mentally slapped myself, sighed heavily and changed my expression from frown to stern one and replied,

"Ohh--uh-- I-I---" I again started stuttering, WTH is wrong with me, why can't I speak normally in any serious condition or--- maybe or, before him? I gathered my courage and started again,

"I thought you'll again betray me like always." I replied sternly and his eyes got wide. He opened his mouth two times to say something but miserably closed it.

"Umm, Can we sit now?" He asked, I nodded and then we sat against each other at the same table where I was waiting for him since 10 minutes. Yes these 10 minutes means to me a lot cause he was late so if I am angry, it's my right to be angry at him. I agreed with myself and nodded.

"What are you thinking ?" He asked suddenly from nowhere and I got nervous. I didn't notice that he was looking at me, I was so busy in my thoughts but what should I say? What am I thinking? About you? Or should I simply lie?

"I'm thinking, that what took you so long to come here?"

"Ahh.. Traffic."

"Really ? Traffic?"

"Yes!" He simply said confidently and by piercing his eyes more into mine and I felt nothing but his eyes all over me.

"Lame Excuse!" I murmured under my breath but it was enough for him hearing me.

"No, It's the truth if you wanna believe you can and if you don't, okay! I don't care." He said and my eyes got wide. He don't care whatever I think, he don't care about me, I looked at him but my eyes betrayed me and I quickly removed my gaze from him and tried to hold my tears back when I heard him cursing himself.

"Shit! WTF I did." I was about to stood up when he grabbed my hand and stopped me.

"Fatima, please, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. I was just saying yeah, I'm late, I'm sorry." He said and then he closed the distance between us, lifted my chin up and made me to look at him, then started stroking my cheek and I shivered under his touch and forgot everything around me. Then he said,

"I'll never do that again, I'm sorry. Please! Can we sit now?" I nodded and he smiled. When I sat again he started,

"So? What do you wanna talk about?" I stared at him blankly and he raised his eye brows then smiled and said,

"Whatever you wanna ask you can, okay?" He assured me and I just nodded then I said,

"Why did you text me today? What does it mean you're back?" He shifted uncomfortably on his chair then said,

"I actually mean what I wrote. I'm back, I'm sorry for everything that I did before one year." I again nodded and asked,

"You're back! So what are we now?" He looked at me, for a while he stayed like this then said,

"I don't know." He replied and I couldn't say anything more, then I asked,

"What do you want from me?"

"Fatima!---" He sighed then started,

"I don't want anything if you are fine with me we will be together like before---" How simply he said that doesn't he know what happened, what he'd said to me? Don't he remember anything ?

"---I know, nothing would be like before, but at least we can try." My anger started rising and I said,

"Don't you remember anything what you did last time when we met ? You betrayed me, you lied to me, you took me at some place where I had been when I was kidnapped, it hurt me Rezay, you hurt me by taking me there again, then you said some shit like you kidnapped me that I never believed, this---- y--your this fake confession almost killed me Rezay, then you said those mean, hateful words to me, that I never wanted to hear at least from you Rezay----" I sighed and my voice started quivering then I finished what I started,

"---I wanna ask Rezay, I wanna ask why you said those hateful words to me? Why you did that to me? Why you lied to me? Have you never loved me? A bit? I wanna ask Rezay how did you know about that place? How did you know about my kidnapping ? Do you know anything about my kidnapper? Do you know anything, anything Rezay that can help me in finding my kidnapper? Tell me? Do you know anything? Rezay!" I finished myself and he stared at me with blanked or hardened, mixed expression on his face then he started,

"I don't know what came to me, but whatever I said that was not true, every hateful word from me was not true, they were not for you, I--I just knew that you were not save with me---" I opened my mouth but he gave me that expression by raising his index finger and said,

"---Let me finish first, Fatima---" I nodded then he sighed and said,

"Fatima, I loved you, or I don't know I still love you, maybe or maybe not, I don't know about my feelings but I just knew that I lied to you last time everything I said, It was nothing but just a sack of lies, i didn't want you to get hurt, I didn't want anything to be happen with you that's why I left you, I left you for good and that place?---" He stopped for a while, kept looking at me as he was trying to read what was going on in my mind, then he said,

"---I can't tell you right now that how do I know about that place but I want you to just trust me, I know I'm asking for too much but just please if you loved me a little bit then please for the sake of that love, believe me I'm not lying today, just trust me, I will tell you that soon---" It was funny how he was asking me to trust him although I do, I still do trust him maybe more than I trust myself.

"--- I don't know anything about that kidnapper, if I'd, I'd have killed him already so in real, I don't know anything about him but I know who did that to you--" He pointed towards my cheek and I realized he noticed that and what does he mean he knows who did this to me? But how?

"Ho---" I was cut off in between by him,

"--It was your cousin, right? I know about today's incident, I can't tell you how-- but I know! And I won't leave him alone, he can't get away with this, no one can touch you, no one can hurt you except me." Wait what ? Am I his possession ? And why the hell can't he tell me ? what's he hiding ?

"Rezay! I'm not your property."

"Yes! You are."

"No, I am not."

"Yes, you are Fatima."

"No, I am not Rezay!" I said sternly by crossing my arms against my chest.

"Yes, you are Fatima because I love you."

"No, I am not Rezay and I love you too." I said simply and when we both realized what we just confessed we both looked at each other, we both were in a shock until we realized there was someone else who heard our confession.

"Ah--I'm sorry Ma'am, I didn't hear anything I wanted to ask are you ready for the order now?" I looked at him with shock and embarassment plastered on my face but when I realized he was embarassed too I started laughing, not only me, Rezay too started laughing, we laughed and laughed like some maniacs and the waiter got embarass more then he smiled and I cleared my throat by holding my laughter then said,

"Uh-- yeah, I'm sorry and Yes, I'm ready, actually no-- I mean yes--- Rezay will tell you what he wanna eat and whatever he'd tell you, it's same for me too, okay?" I said softly, he smiled, nodded and moved towards Rezay who was now looking at the menu then he said to me by raising his index finger towards me,

"It's my treat." I simply said,

"Okay!" And smiled at him.

"Two Quarter Pounder with cheese, two bag of chips and two drinks, Please!" He finally ordered after a while. Then he realized his mistake, stopped the waiter in mid way and asked me,

"Ohh I'm sorry, Is it good for you or should I change this?" I smiled then said,

"No, although it's too much for me, but it's fine, okay! Done!"

"Same for me please!" I ordered the waiter in a most gentle way, then he replied,

"Okay! Ma'am it will take almost 10-15 minutes. Anything else?" He asked,

"No, it's already too much, thankyou!" I said and Rezay laughed a bit, when waiter was gone, I asked,

"What?" I laughed seeing him laughing then he said,

"You should start eating more cause you'll gonna need it with me." I raised my eye brows when I realized what his mean by that, I blushed and said,

"okay! Christian Grey?" I laughed and he raised his eye brows, smirked evilly then said,

"Christian Grey, Ahawn, you can say that." He smirked more and I hit his hand playfully, then we both laughed.

"You read novels too much, you should stop reading these cheesy novels now." I laughed and said,

"Why? I love them, they are my life." I said laughing and he said,

"Now, Just... I should be your life! I don't want your shared attention, i want your whole attention." My expression suddenly changed and I asked,

"Rezay what are you hiding from me?" His smile changed into frown.

"Fatima, whatever I'm doing, whatever I'm saying, just do know that I'm doing this for your safety, just---trust me. And I--I know my tongue slipped there but it's true, I still love you and I know you too, so we should stop playing with each other." I nodded agreeing with him and said,

"But you don't know what else has happened with me and---"

"Fatima! I know, I know everything, that incident on your engagement day, about Sami, your today's incident, about your hostel life, about your job, I know, I know everything." I looked at him with shock, how? How? Why can't he just tell me?

"How do you know all that, we were not in contact, you were not with me."

"I was, I was with you the whole time, I just didn't want you to know, I was with you, I was watching you the whole time, you can call it as stalking or creepy or whatever but I was with you, whatever you've been through I was with you, I was facing everything with you, you won't believe me but I wanted to come in your life before to comfort you, to save you, but you should just know that I couldn't do that, I couldn't comfort you, I couldn't face you but believe me that was just for your safety. I stopped myself coming in your life again just for you, for your safety Fatima." I smiled and said sadly,

"But I was saved with you Rezay, Can't you see that I was saved with you? Today, your words comforted me, they soothed me, I feel safe with you, not without you Rezay and if I'm not safe with you it doesn't mean I can be safe without you, why can't you just get this? But at least if you'd be with me, the feeling of being not safe wouldn't be there. Rezay!---" I took a deep breath then again started,

"---I wanted you, this whole time I wanted you Rezay, I needed you. Whenever I cried I needed you, whenever I was scared I needed you, whenever I felt alone I needed no one but you. Can't you see that? You were my everything or maybe still you are. Rezay I'm not sure about my feelings now, I--I need time cause I can't forgive you just like that for everything you did, I can't forgive you, you didn't even ask me what I'd need, you never asked for my opinion, for my decision, you just decided that it'll be good for me if you'd leave me and you did, you did it for my own good?---" He nodded then I continued,

"---Now here you're confessing me something more that you're my second stalker, Really Rezay? Really? But what type of--- of---coward--Yes, what type of coward stalker you were that you never came forward to safe me, you never came forward to fight for me, you just kept watching everything that was happening with me, you just kept seeing everything, like--- like some watcher or spectator? Yeah I'm-- I'm sorry for using these words for you but that's true Rezay, that's the truth, you kept watching and there was someone else, some angel, from Allah, who always come forward to save me, who always come forward to fight for me and I think now, I loved a wrong person who can't even save me, I should love him, yes him, I should love my angel, my saver who saves me every time whenever I need him, he is there, just there." I finished myself and when I looked at him, he was smiling, I frowned,

"Why the hell are you smiling now, I'm serious Rezay!" I exclaimed and he laughed a bit then said,

"Cause you can't love anyone my lady except me, you can just love me, wherever you'll see you'll just find me, whoever you'll see you'll just see me." I frowned and he laughed more,

"What do you mean by that?" I asked,

"You'll know soon." I frowned more but when he laughed again, I just smiled.

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After a while our orders came and we started eating silently but I know our minds were still thinking, thinking and just thinking, about us.

It was amazing how we fought before, tried to explain things, teased each other, confessed our love for each other unintentionally and then laughed maniacally. It was amazing, we were sitting here, eating together, looking at each other as if nothing has changed between us, as if we are still like that we were before.

I looked at him while taking a bite of my cheese burger and almost moaning with it's taste in my mouth, he has almost finished his burger and I just took a first bite of it. God! He is so fast, I thought, he was busy in eating, I observed him more, he was eating but also looking in our surroundings as if he would have a fear of anything or anyone to come. I started wondering who he is afraid of and why or Is he doing this to just protect me, for keeping me safe, or something else is in his mind. How much I wish I could read just---his mind so that I could know anything or everything about him, about his fears, about the things he is hiding from me, In fact, everything, everything about him, his life and his thinking about me or--- for me?

I didn't notice that I'd almost stopped eating while observing him until he waved his hand before my face two times and I blinked then said,

"Ohh sorry!" I said and he smiled at me,

"Eat babe!" Babe? Did he just call me babe?

"Babe?" I questioned and he laughed,

"Yes babe!" He said laughing then I smirked and said,

"Okay! Baby!" Now I laughed and he smirked,

"I loved it!"

"Now eat!" I nodded and started eating.

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He has almost finished his food and I was shocked with his speed. After more half an hour when we're done with our foods. It was 9:00 P.M now. When I checked time, I panicked,

"I should go home now" I exclaimed, he nodded and quickly said,

"Yeah, I'm dropping you, just wait a bit." He quickly called the waiter paid the bill then said,

"Let's go!"

"I will call Faiz, Rezay! There is no need for you to drop me." I said, he groaned then said,

"No Faiz, I'm dropping you and that's final, no need to argue more Fatima, okay?" I frowned at his dominant nature then I agreed,

When we reached the parking, I saw he didn't bring his car, he brought a heavy bike, Ohh No! I frowned,

"I don't sit on bikes or most importantly heavy bikes, I'm afraid of them." I exclaimed loudly.

"Ohh don't worry you're with me, you'd be saved." He laughed,

"Rezay but I'm afraid of them."

He held my hand, kissed it, then stroked my cheek and kissed it too which brought a high volt current in my whole body, I laughed nervously and asked,

"What was that for?" He laughed and said,

"See! You almost forgot about bikes, if you'd keep on crying like a kid, next kiss would be on your lips." My eyes got wide,I shivered when he said that thinking about him kissing me on my lips, he laughed, stroked my lower lip and said,

"Shall we?" I playfully pushed him and said,

"Rezay! No!" He asked,

" Why not?" I laughed and said,

"Cause it's not fair, it's wrong."

"Everything is fair in love and war, my lady!" He smiled and again started taking steps towards me, when I quickly said,

"Okay, okay, I'm ready to ride on a bike with you, but just for tonight, okay?" He smirked, put his helmet on my head and said,

"Okay Ma'am, your wish, my command." I smiled and when he sat on his bike, I climbed behind him and grabbed his jacket tightly, but he removed my hands from his jacket and put my hands around him and said,

"Don't hold my jacket, hold me, okay? I don't want you to get hurt." I heard smile in his words and I pinched his shoulder and said,

"Okay, let's move now."

He started the engine of his bike and asked me last time,

"Ready?"

"Yes!" I said breathlessly and heard him laughing. I slapped his back and he started his bike with a jerk and I got almost a big heart attack.

He was riding his bike too fast and I was clinging to him like a kid clings to his mother when he get afraid of anything. After a while, I said,

"Rezay, please! Slow down."

He asked, "Why? what happened?" I was afraid of fast riding and I was feeling like dying that time, my eyes were wide like saucers and my breath was uneven.

"I'm afraid, I'm not feeling good." I said seriously and he stopped his bike at the side of some road, turned and said,

"Heyi, Are you alright?" He said removing his helmet and stroking my face,

I nodded, "Yes, I'm just not feeling well, I feel like puking." Now he looked worried and said,

"I'm so sorry, i didn't know that you were that afraid of riding on bikes, okay wait." He started pulling me towards him and I asked,

"What are you doing?"

"I'm making you sit on the front, so that you could just look at me or nothing else." I laughed nervously,

"No! Rezay! I'm fine, let's move." He shook his head, again kissed my cheek and pulled me completely on the front, now I was sitting in front of him. My front was facing him and my back was facing the road, that was weird but cute for him to do that for me. I smiled and said,

"How will you gonna see on the road." Hearing this, he came closer, closer, more close to me, as he was about to kiss me then while smirking he passed his face from my lips to my shoulder, put his chin on my shoulder and said,

"Like this." I laughed and said,

"Okay! As soon as you're not trying to kiss me it's fine with me." He laughed and said,

"Now, okay, should we move?"

"Yeah!" I said and he started his bike again but slowed down this time.

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After a while, we reached at Faiz home and I jumped down from his bike and he laughed at my excitement then he asked,

"You're gonna live here, from now on, right?"

"Yes!" I nodded sadly,

"Don't be sad, try to make any excuse and tomorrow I wanna meet you at your hostel, okay?" I opened my mouth to protest but then closed it quickly, he was right, I don't wanna live here, also i don't need to, when I can live in my hostel, I have to ask about this with mom and Hamza and will tell them my final decision, I agreed with myself and smiled at him.

"Okay, so we're meeting tomorrow too?"

"Yes! Now, we'll meet everyday, I'm going to part-time live with you." I laughed,

"Part-time?"

"Yes, day at home and night with you or night with you and day at home." I crossed my arms across my chest then said,

"It's a same thing Rezay." I laughed, he was looking so cute while saying that.

"Ohh!" He said realizing his mistake.

"I meant to say, day at home and night with you, or day with you and night at home." I smiled, pinched his cheeks, his eyes got wide at my sudden attack and asked,

"What's that for?" He asked laughing and stroking his cheeks,

"Oww! it hurts." He cried like a kid, I laughed and said,

"Because you're looking so cute while saying that, also don't you know our sleeping with each other is not allowed in Islam before marriage." He raised his eye brows and said,

"Who said we will gonna sleep?" He smirked and my eyes got wide at his double-meaning dialogue and I pinched his shoulder and said,

"Don't even think about it."

"Then what about actually doing it?" He asked, I blushed but quickly covered it with anger.

"Rezay?" I said with straight face, he laughed and said,

"Okay, okay, Ma'am, I'm going." He laughed, bowed before me, kissed my both hands and leaving me with weird feelings, he asked,

"My Lady, Can I leave now?" I laughed and said,

"Yes, you can." I said and he stood straight, closed the distance between us, gave a quick and sudden peck on my lips and said,

"I love you. Come with me!" His breathing was touching my face and I was shivering by the act that he did just before. He started stroking my lower lip and again said,

"Come with me! Spend this night with me, Please! Stay with me." He almost asked and I shook my head by backing away a bit,

"No, I can't Rezay! Not tonight!" I again shook my head, I was trying to remove the magic of his touch, or of his given feelings, from me, then he suddenly took me in a bear hug and said,

"Beware of your surroundings, Just do know that, I love you!--" He took deep breaths and I was enjoying his embrace when he continued,

"--Now go before anyone come out." I nodded in his arms and then he removed his arms around me and said,

"I love you but I don't wanna rush things for you, you have all the time in the world. Don't worry, Take your time." I wanted to say that no, I want him, I want him more than he wanted, but that was true I didn't wanna rush things for myself, also for him again, so besides this I said,

"Thank you! For everything." He smiled and said,

"No need. Look someone is coming out, Allah Hafiz!" He said quickly by climbing on his bike and I said,

"ALLAH HAFIZ!"

Then quickly turned around and saw no one but Faiz on the door. I heard the engine and then the screeching of tyres and I knew that Rezay was gone now. But he will come back tomorrow again, right? Right! I tried to believe myself and nodded.

I just hope, May this time he haven't left me for-ever.

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