"The only reason why people hold on to memories is because memories are the only thing that don't change when everything else does." -Unknown.

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Tani's POV

"Wake up, Tani?" huh?

"Hufff Tani, you sleep alot, we've reached here, now wake up---" I heard giggling, who the hell is laughing ?, "--Wake up you sleepyhead or else I'd pick you up and then carry you in my arms to my house." Wait what? My eyes shot open when I heard his last line, yeah.. Ofcourse, It was no one but Faiz, he was so close that I could feel his beautiful three-coloured-eyes piercing through mine and before I could get lost in those deep dark eyes, I quickly sat straight in my seat and asked by creating the distance between us.

"Ah.......err..... Are we at your home now?" I asked stuttering, he chuckled and said,

"Yes, we're here, let's go inside, mom is waiting for her future daughter-in-law." I looked at him with shocked expression on my face.

"What? Why are you so shocked? Not only mom but also dad, they both know everything my dear." He said happily and I didn't want anything at that time, but just the sudden urge to hit him so hard that he could come back to his senses, but I knew that, it was of no use. What the hell is wrong with him ? He can't even see that I'm not happy?

"Nothing, let's go." I said and quickly opened the door of my side and jumped out of his car and closed the door with a loud bang so that he could know that I'm angry, I'm NOT happy, yes.. I'M NOT.

But as usual, he didn't even notice that and started moving with me by clutching my hand tightly in his as if I'd run away or would get lost any moment, when we reached towards the main gate, I noticed after a long long time, I was standing infront of his home, where we used to play when we were kids. It has been years now and I have never visited this house again after that fight between us, but the thing that I was wondering about is, in these so many years still... nothing changed, nothing changed at all.

His home was same, as always of my liking, I still remember everything about his house, a big spacious house with giant rooms, a big hall and a lot of space to play, with a huge kitchen area with the hall and a big garden outside of the house, the main thing that I loved the most and where we use to enjoy a lot was a big swing set in his garden. I turned towards his garden, it was still there, this was the best place, whenever I use to come here, I always go for swinging first and then we played other things, that was fun, really. 

I wonder sometimes how we were in the childhood, so close, so into each other, so like best--- no --- bestest friends, I'd never thought about anyone besides him as my friend, if he wouldn't have changed himself suddenly, I'd be still his friend, only his. If he wouldn't have changed I don't think I'd ever fall in love with Rezay, Yes! that's true. How silly I was? When I use to think about him and my----No! About our life together, I use to think he'd be my husband, he'd love me, he'd protect me. But the reality is that we were kids, we use to see each other as husband and wife because we were kids, but who knows about the future. And then one day, that happened, which I never wanted to happen. After a huge fight, which I don't even remember what was that about and then---- he changed suddenly, he started avoiding me, talking with me, he started ignoring me and then one day he totally ignored me and left me, just like Rezay did. Everyone whom I loved, or use to love, left me. Is this my fate?

And when this same person, that I wanted to be in my life years ago, wants to marry me. So now? I don't want it, I don't wanna marry him, everything has changed now, I'm not his Tani that I was before, I'm not that old one now, who use to love him, who use to see him as her husband, who use to dream about her family with him. That was nothing else but just my childhood foolishness, that was not love, the thing which I wanted before, I don't want it now. Now? I want no one but my family back just like they were before with me, now? I want Rezay back in my life, I want Sami back, conscious, alive in my life just like before, now? I want my friends back like they were before with me. I want my that fucking life back, I don't wanna live here, with him, with his family. I don't wanna marry him, I love Rezay and I don't know if I can ever forget him or not. I want no one but just Rezay! Am I asking for too much ?

"Tani, do you remember how much we use to play here when we were kids?" He said pointing towards swing set where I was already seeing. The memory of our childhood again came to me and I smiled thinking about our old----but gold memories. I smiled and looked at him and his childhood image came to my mind, he use to look so cute and still his features, his face, nothing changed. He still looked like that old cute Faiz. I nodded and said,

"Yes, how can I forget? Those were our memorable days. But --- " Suddenly my anger started rising and then I said, "---Faiz? if everything changed between us so that's--- that's because of you. You were and you are the reason behind it." His expression suddenly changed from happy to regretful. Yes he should regret what he has done. He hurt me before and still he is, by suddenly claiming that he wanna marry me. i'd die before marrying him or anyone besides Rezay cause I love him, only him. He was my only love, my only hope. And also about Faiz? If I'm not wrong, I'm sensing something more in him now but I don't have a proof, I don't wanna believe that he could have done that to me but if he had, then he would and should surely get punished.

"I'm sorry Tani, but I think you don't remember anything that why I had to change myself, why I had to stay away from you, you don't know anything." WTF he is talking about, what he is trying to say, I remember everything, I know everything.

"I know everything Faiz." I said sternly.

"No, you don't. You don't even know the reason behind that fight between me and Hamza, and you already took your bro side and then---" No, he is lying I knew the reason, but---but why I couldn't remember the reason behind that fight? okay, wait Tani! Let him finish first.

"Then----?"

"Leave it, let's go inside."

"No, Faiz tell me? Please."

"No Tani, you don't know anything, you don't know why I became like this and how, what I wanted and what I still want, you don't know, you don't know anything."

"What are you talking about Faiz? I'm confused. Please tell me clearly?"

"I can't Tani, I can't. Every truth will come out then, the truth behind your this condition, the truth about your family, the truth---" WTH! My family? What is it with my family? I felt like I need a ventilator, I can't even breath because of his words, my mind started throbbing, what he was trying to say?

But before he could say more, the main gate suddenly opened making me jump in my place and his mother means my aunt Mummy came out smiling from ear to ear and I caught my breath that I didn't even know I was holding before. 

I looked at her and noticed, her features, she looked exactly same like my mother, like they'd be twins but they were not, Mummy was one year older than my mom, but they looked amazingly same, no one can ever differentiate between them except of their heights. Yes, my mom was taller than her, like Ghannu is, than me. I tried so hardly to speak and I finally said,

"Assalam-o-Alaikum." I greeted her and she smiled more than before and said,

"Walaikum Assalam honey! So you two are here? And I was waiting inside when I heard the honk of your car Faiz, What was taking you two so long to come inside?" Mummy asked with amazement, and I was standing still and then Faiz smiled, hugged her and said,

"Ohh Maa, you know how am I? I was showing Tani our old garden and were discussing our old memories and also planning our future memories." He threw a wink towards me and seeing my embarassed expression he chuckled, then mummy hits him and said,

"Ohh my dearest son, don't you dare to tease my beautiful daughter." She suddenly took me in a tight warm motherly hug and I don't know when I gave in and hugged her back. I didn't like her before due to her habit of taunting me, but today was different, it was like I wanted this, I wanted her motherly behaviour or hug because I was missing my own mother, my own mommy.

"Ohh I can't promise mom." Faiz said chuckling.

And when I pulled away from her, she looked at me with mild expression and then said, 

"You'll live here from now on, would it be good for you?"

"Yeah it'd be fine." I said smiling at her, I don't know whenever I was looking at her I was seeing my own mother in her. She smiled and then said,

"Faiz, don't you irritate her or tease her anymore, okay? Show her room meanwhile I'm making lunch, anything special you want me to cook for you honey?" She asked me smiling and I said,

"No, no. But do you want any help in the kitchen?" I asked quickly awkwardly avoiding Faiz gaze on me.

"No dear, you looked so exhausted and hurt---" She said pointing towards the bruise on my cheek, understanding my confusion she said, "--Yeah Faiz called me before and he had already told me about that accident. You kids should take some rest now. When I'd be done with my cooking, I'll call you two." She said pulling me inside of the house more and when I was near to the stairs she said,

"Faiz take her to her room." She said giving my hand in his and he smiled and nodded. Then he started taking me up stairs and when we reached first floor, after some walk he stood infront of a room, having me beside him and started unlocking the door. I saw in my surroundings and the memory of three more rooms came to my mind, besides this one before which we were standing, there were three more which were closed and locked like this room. Faiz was only son of Mummy, I wonder what they do with these lots of rooms in their house. 

Meanwhile, when I was thinking, he opened the door and then we entered. The room was big and so beautiful and had been decorated with flowers, who would have done this elegant decoration? I thought and started taking steps towards a big king sized comfy bed. Faiz chuckled when he saw me examining the surroundings and asked,

"Like what you see?"

"Yeah, it's so beautiful, why this room is decorated so nicely and who could have done this?" I asked wondering and he looked at me, smiled and said,

"Who could have done this besides--- Me?" He said and my eyes got wide,

"You? But why? It's not like any president was coming to your house Faiz." I said rolling my eyes.

"No, not president but ofcourse--- more than a president, this personality is more amusing than any president." He said chuckling and sitting beside me on the bed and I hit his arm playfully. 

"Faiz I'll kill you." I said laughing.

"Yes, Please!"

"What?" I asked amazed,

"I said, yes, please kill me, by the way how will you actually kill me, tell me?" He said leaning towards me and I quickly backed away more from him and said,

"I--I--I'll just---just---"

"Yes, tell me? How will you kill me?" He said smirking and placing his hands beside me where I was sitting and leaning more and I started panicking thinking about that I can't back away more, if he'd not stop, I'd be on the floor any moment.

"F--Fa--Faiz?"

"Hmm?" He asked leaning more towards me and I got an idea seeing him lost in me and noticing that his back is towards the entrance, I smiled and quickly said,

"Faiz Mummy! look?" I said and he quickly jumped, turned and stood straight and that was the moment when I started laughing like a maniac.

"L--l--l--look at your f--f--face." I said meanwhile laughing and he was now facing me, not only facing but also glaring at me. 

"T--t-that's how I almost killed y--y--ou." I said laughing and his lips twitched in a half smile seeing me laughing and said,

"Now, no one can save you." He said grinning and before he could grab me, I quickly jumped away from him and fell on the floor with a loud thud.

"Ouch!" I cried and then he started laughing seeing me on the floor, but I quickly stood up and taking it as my chance to escape, I quickly ran towards the rest room and closed the door before he could enter like last time in the hospital and sighed in relief. He shouted from outside,

"Tani, open the door."

"No." I shouted back.

"I'll kill you Tani when you'll come out."

"I won't, until you're here."

"I won't go anywhere, sit inside forever." I frowned.

"Okay, as you wish." I said simply and started opening my scarf and after a while when I was done with washing my face and hands, I heard foot steps, then the sound of door opening and closing. I silently unlocked the door and peeked out from behind the door and saw no one was in my room. I quickly came out and checked thoroughly the whole room, then locked the door and sighed in relief that he has gone now. 

I sat on my bed and started thinking, it's hard now, one moment he act as old Faiz and the other he act like that kidnapper. What should I do? I can't even think that he was the one if it's true ? I can't do this, I can't suspect him, but I have to, or else I'd have to live forever in this fucking fear of my kidnapper. If I'm suspecting him then I have to find the proof. 

I groaned and said loudly to myself,

"I can't even suicide, I can't even die, I have to find that person who made my life nothing but a big mess. And if I'm suspecting him so I should find the proof and for this I have to search his house and when I'm in his home, it'd be easy, I can easily search the evidence against him but--- what would happen if it came out as a truth, if he came out as the criminal, if my suspicion came out true, then? Could I accept this fact? Could I throw him in jail by hurting mummy and Khalo? Could I ? I don't think I could, but atleast if I could find the truth I can ask him why he did that to me? If he'd answer me. 

Also I wanna know what Faiz was trying to say about my family ? What did my family do to him? I wanna know the truth. What if he was taking the revenge from my family ? But Sami has nothing to do with it? why he suffered? what was his mistake? what had he done to him that he tried to kill him? 

But I can't say anything without proof, I have to find the proof first. Yes! I have to find the truth.

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After having lunch with Mummy and Faiz, Mummy told us that she is going outside for grocery shopping and only Faiz and me would be here. Thinking about him and me alone in this big house, my heart beat started pacing, but I tried to calm myself and before he could say anything. I quickly closed myself in my room and started thinking for ways to find the truth. I thought, I'd search his house at night too, but besides night, this time was more suitable when no one was in here except me and Faiz. I could easily spy on him too and search his house too. But he has many rooms in his house and if anyone would caught me then ? 

But I can't get scared like that, It's necessary to find the truth, I have to do this. I encouraged myself and silently came out of my room and started taking steps towards his room. I should check on him first then I'd search other rooms and whenever he'd not be in his room, I'd search his room too. I silently walked towards his room seeing in my surroundings too for any sign of him anywhere besides his room. But there was no one, it was death silence in his house and seeing the light coming out of his room, I realized he was no where but in his room. 

When I reached outside of his room, I took deep breaths and silently peeked inside of his room, his room was same as mine, but having black and white furniture and black and white painted walls. 'Typical boys choice', I thought and peeked more and saw him sleeping in his large king sized bed. He looked so peaceful while sleeping just like an angel. I kept watching him more for a while, for any sign that if he was not sleeping but he didn't even budge a bit which means he was sound asleep.

I quickly turned and headed to the first room that was beside my room. When I stopped infront of it, I saw, it was unlocked and I get amazed seeing it unlocked, I started trembling thinking again about my decision of finding the proof, but I gathered myself and quickly seeing in my surroundings once again I entered in that room and my eyes got wide when I saw it empty as hell. There was nothing in that room except a single wardrobe which was attached with one wall of that room. 

I quickly headed towards that wardrobe. Thank God! It was unlocked. I quickly opened it with trembling hands, but there was nothing in it, not a single thing? I groaned in frustration and started opening drawers one by one, but those were empty too like the whole wardrobe. I shook my head in disbelief and closed it, right when my phone went off in my jeans loudly and I almost got a heart attack. I quickly looked at the entrance to make sure that there was no one and when I was sure, i quickly took out my phone from my jeans and started unlocking my phone. 

I read the notification saying, 

'1 text message from Unknown Number.'

I frowned and quickly opened it. 

But, my eyes got wide, my heart stopped beating, my breath hitched and my whole world stopped there at that moment, when I read that text,

"You're searching the wrong place and suspecting the wrong person my dear. But I'm sure, my Tani will find me soon ;) & I'm desperately waiting for that moment."

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Important A/N: okay? That was hell confusing and thrilling, How was this chapter? Well, I wanted to write more, but I don't know what to write and how? Please my readers, help me!

I wanna know your views and I want some suggestions regarding up coming chapters, I don't know what to write more? & your comments would help me in continuing my story so answer my some questions in the comments.

1-Who do you think is kidnapper and who do you wanna see as kidnapper?

2-Who do you think was behind texting her?

3-How to make Rezay come in her life again?

4-What to show next?

5-Any other suggestions?

I'm waiting for your suggestions, please help me!

Don't forget to read, votes and comments, silent onesssss... pleaseeeeeeeee!!! :(

-Fatima.