"Selfish persons are incapable of loving others, But they are not capable of loving themselves either."_Erich Fromm.

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Tani's POV

I was so lost in my thoughts, that I didn't even bother to look around in my surroundings, I can't believe this, what my life has become lately ? I'm really NOT who I was, I've changed, now--I am scared, terrified, I lost my confidence, I lost my boldness. I was a fighter, but that one day, that one kidnapper or maybe that kidnapping made me like this, I have no will power to fight back, when I know that my all suspicions were wrong, he is not that sheikh, he is one of my relative, that means he was always closest from me or--or--maybe he is, that means they were right, Iqbal and that old man was right, there are 3 persons involved, but still--it doesn't explain me that why there are three, okay if I take one as my angel, second one would be my relative, now still---who is the third one? Still, it doesn't explain me that there are three, maybe they have guessed right, but still it's just a guess, not a full-proof thing. But first, the thing that is bothering me the most is----that who can be that kidnapper? And if he is one of my relatives, then who it is, who can do that and why? I remember he told me that he loves me, if he loves me and if he is my relative, then he should have send his parents to talk to my parents for him to marry me, then why he needed to go with this big step like... kidnapping me? Now, he became criminal, don't he know that, he lead his life in so much big trouble, what about his parents? don't they know what their son is doing? they should forbid him to do that if they know about him then, and what about him? Don't he know how big shock would be this for his parents, when they'd actually know all about his evil intentions and his crminality.....But----

WTF is my problem? why am I even thinking about his family. I should think about my family, my--my family Tani. My family is in same danger as me. He is in my home, that fucking bastard is in my home, how could he go this way far to take revenge from me? Yes.. Revenge! There is no way I could take it as his love, if he is doing that just for making me love him, then he'd be a psycho. But who? who could be that? I should find out. But how? How am I gonna find this? From where should I start? What about now? What should I do about his presence in my home. I glanced outside of my room while keep sitting on my bed but I found no one. I glanced at those aunties in my room, I felt disgusted, here I am scared and continuously thinking about something and there these ladies were continuously chirping over my head. Then I saw two ladies came towards me but I didn't recognize them as my relatives and I didn't even notice them in my room. Suddenly, I became cautious. If they'd be---? Before I could think more, one of them spoke up,

"Ohh sweet Tani, how are you feeling baby?" Sweet? Baby? WTF! And now they realized that this is fucking my room and I am sitting here, so they should ask me something?

What should I reply them? that 'Actually aunty I'm so pissed off right now, cause you all big-sacks-of-meat just wasting your and my time here in my room with your horrible hot-topics, and that's just making me more and more angry and I swear if you all won't get out of my room right now, I'd just jump over you all and smashed your heads on that wall' but I can't do that, its nice to think that all but can't do that. I groaned with anger and glared at them.

"Actually---I'm feeling really good, Aunty, But I don't know you two or do I ?" It sounded so ironic but it felt good when I saw their expressions changed to scowl, I felt really good. They were doing nothing for me, they were just ruining my mood more by flashing their ugly and fake smiles on my face, And here comes again a very fake smile, she quickly hid her scowled expression and gave me fake smile and said,

"Ohh we're your neighbours." Ohh so they are my fucking neighbours? Really? How come, I didn't see them before. I think she could read my mind cause she replied,

"And we are new, I mean, we recently shifted here, just after watching news we came here to--to---"

"To console me? or to get any hot news from here? But I'm sorry, I have nothing new or hot to give you, neither any news." I spat at her and suddenly all aunts started glaring at me. What? What have I done, I said right, it was right time to say the truth, I was right, they are actually here to get any news, any weakness of us, so they can use it in future against us. What kind of neighbours they are? Ohh my---ohh neighbours? How can I forget that? That house, that house where I saw someone standing, who was that? Is he one of my enemy? or it's just all in my mind? But, I should discuss this matter with police, maybe I could get something, some proof from there.

Luckily, all aunts started to get out from my room, I know, I know, I did wrong and that was so rude of me, but they actually deserved that, cause if they were here for me, they'd not be giving me nasty stares.

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When they all gone, Did I say that now---I actually started feeling fear and lonely, cause now only I was in my room but no one was there with me, no one. Damn! I should have atleast controlled my anger for my own sake. Also, I by myself made them run away, if it would be one of them then ? I don't know now who else is left downstairs. I am so scared that I can't even go to check who else is left here, in my home, I decided to do something, but what? My eyes started searching for anything that I could do to know what is going on in my home, should I go downstairs? No... If there would be lots of people? and if he'd also be here, he could easily kidnap me again in that crowd, cause I don't even know who is that and he could easily make me fool, if he is really my relative. My eyes flickered to my phone and I quickly grabbed it and started texting Ghannu,

"Tell me how many people are downstairs?"

Beeep

I knew that she would reply fast, cause she always stick to her phone,

"Why are you asking? and why are you even texting me, you could have just called me from your room and I would be there with you."

I quickly typed,

"Just tell me, don't ask me questions back. Just, tell me, its serious and....and important."

Beeeep

"Here, me and mommy talking in the kitchen, pop is in his bedroom, hamza is outside of home, but why you are even asking that? what happened? tell me?"

Just my family? I can't believe this, that means whoever he is, he is near my room, or else he had run away? ohh my Allah! what would I gonna do then ? I quickly typed again,

"Any one else?"

"Nop, no one, just a while ago, some aunts came from your room and now they've gone too. Wait...I am coming there, you are scaring me." No, no, no way in hell, she should come here, if he'd be standing outside of my room, or if he'd be hiding somewhere, he could do anything to her.

"No, no, you are not coming here, upstairs, in my room, do you get it, be there with all, till police come."

"But Tani? what happened? atleast just tell me, why police would come, again?"

"Ghannu, I will tell you, just wait and be careful and take care of mommy and pop, if you'd feel anything bad, then tell me or just start shouting. But be prepared and keep any weapon in your hand."

"What? But why?"

"Just do as I say. Also, call hamza to stay in here with all of you."

"But what about you?"

"I'm safe here, don't worry. Please, be there." I started trembling more after typing that.

"Okay." She replied and I sighed in relief that she's not gonna come here for saving me, I don't really wanna throw any of my family member in danger.

After fighting more with my inner self, I finally tried to stood up from my bed and started taking steps towards my door, should I go? should I check? What would happen if I go outside, what more could happen? Still, I should be careful. I was so so close to my door way when I heard some footsteps coming towards my room, no, no, no. who is that? should I hide? or should I fight with him? But Tani you are so weak how can you gonna fight with him? my inner self reminded me of my condition, but still, there is no way I could let him again kidnap me, what should I do then ? I quickly searched anything in my room to fight back but I got nothing, simply nothing. I started panicking what should I do? My whole body started aching, my legs trembled, my knees felt weak, I froze on my spot, I don't have anything, I can't fight him back, I can't, while saying this my vision started to blur and I started falling, falling back on the floor, right when something held me and I just heard someone----someone saying my name and everything again blacked out.

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I heard some voices,

"She is moving, she is waking up." I heard a pure concerned voice.

"But why she fainted again?" It was another voice.

"She told me that something is not right, she texted me to remain alert." I recognized this voice, its ghannu and I know what was she referring to, she was referring to my last conversation with her through texting, I started remembering everything, everything, someone was in my home, yeah---but whom she is talking to? I quickly opened my eyes and saw---everyone, literally----everyone in my room, even those police men and one another man was standing beside them, whom I didn't recognize, my whole family, even Sami was there. I quickly searched my stole, which was covering my head, Thank God! I quickly asked looking at all of them one by one,

"Wh--what is going on here? what happened?"

"You passed out in my hands, one hour before now." Sami spoke up, that means it was him who was coming towards my room.

"You mean, that was you, th-that was your foot steps, coming towards my room."

"Yeah Tani, what did you think, who'd be that?" Obviously Sami, I thought it was that kidnapper, atleast I should have checked before panicking.

I looked at Iqbal for any answers of my confusion and also for explaining everyone about that call and my fear. He seemed to get my gaze and he started,

"Actually--- I called her about one and a half hour ago to tell her that someone is in your home, cause the other number that I traced, I found it working and it was showing the location of this home, that means he was in this home and I highly doubt that he is among one of your relatives, so I quickly called her to keep her aware about her enemy, maybe that's why she could have thought that--that was not Sami, that was him---him, I mean kidnapper." I quickly nodded in agreement while looking ar my family who was in shock, but whatever he was saying it was true.

"Did you find anyone? Did you find him? When did you come?" I asked quickly to Iqbal.

"No, no Ma'am, that person would probably have run away, after or---maybe when I called you, but we have found some other thing, something more, in your lawn." In my lawn, what could have they found from there?

"What?" He quickly handed me some thing that looked like---

"Cell phone? who's that is?" And it was broken too.

"It's his cell phone, he is so smart, he intentionally left---no, broke his phone---" Then his face turned into scowl and he said,

"But I didn't get one thing, that why he threw it here, cause this is the only thing which proves that he was in your home, cause it was broken there in lawn like someone has thrown it from somewhere high, like roof or gallery or from window and only your room is upstairs and then roof. That means he don't want us to track him anymore or maybe---" I cut him off.

"---Maybe he also wanted to show me that he is still near me, he can do whatever he want, like today how---how easily he got here, and he was maybe outside of my room or maybe on the roof and then he left, after throwing his phone in my lawn, he left and no one saw him, no one?" I asked in disbelief by looking at everyone horrified faces, I mean really? no one saw him doing this? How can it possible?

"What should we do now? where should we hide her? where should we send you? Should we---?" No, No way, I knew what she was trying to say, but there is no way I'd go to Pakistan without my family.

"---No mommy, no, I won't go to Pakistan, without you, without---all of you, and what if he'd come there too? then?" I started panicking, there is no way I'd go there, without my family, also here I am doing my bachelors, I have friends here, Rezay is here too, I can't go back there just to hide from some---some freak, I won't. Mommy nodded understanding my point, then Iqbal directed towards mommy,

"Ma'am we are trying our best to find him, don't worry, just keep an eye on every movement and please don't---just don't trust on anyone and anyone means anyone, not on a single nearest relative." Everyone nodded with agreement, including Sami and me. Then I started,

"Iqbal I have something to tell you more, I have a doubt about some--thing."

Then I started to tell him every detail about that house and that creep, I know it was just a doubt but I can't deny it that this time I have to think about every single thing, I have to doubt on every single person. When I finished,

"Okay, Ma'am, when we will go to check that house and if we find anything, we will surely update you." He said, I nodded, then he greeted, took that phone from my bed and went out and behind them my Pop and Hamza too, It seemed like they wanted to talk to them alone.

After a while, everyone went out of my room, leaving Ghannu and Sami with me, I was so upset only with the idea of my shifting to Pakistan that I didn't even bother to talk to them. Although they were trying to lighten my mood and making me forget about everything, but it seems like I was stuck there. I was just thinking about that kidnapper.

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Days passed, so as weeks and then the whole month, I got no call from any unknown number not a single message, I was amazed as everyone was, but no one said anything, they were even afraid of discussing that topic again as if that kidnapper would appear from nowhere and would attack me. I got a feeling that maybe he got what he wanted, he changed me, he made me scare, maybe that was he trying to do. In this whole month I rarely talked to Rezay, cause I was so much busy in studies, I was just focusing on my studies and also that kidnapper, but I again reached at nowhere.

In this month Iqbal called me and told me about that house, he told me that this house was empty since two years, no one is living there after the shifting of its owner to America, no one lives there. But I didn't believe on that, cause I saw someone there that day, I was pretty sure that someone was there, if no one lived there, then he'd be no one besides him. I tried to tell him that there was a light in that room, also curtains, he told me that I was right, there were curtains in that room, also a light which works, but no one lived there, there was not a single sign of a human who'd be living there or who'd have come there. But that was completely impossible, I saw someone there in that room, and I know who was that, I'm pretty sure about that now. He was there, he wanted to live near me to stalk me or maybe just to scare me, but why he wanted to scare me, why? I didn't get that answer.

Besides all these matters, when I was completely satisfied with my studies and everything. I again started talking to Rezay. He was happy to have me back, he also told me to stay away from strangers or any random person, when I filled him with every nook and cranny of details. He started acting possessively towards me. I was amazed before but then I started loving him more that he actually cares for me and he don't want me to get hurt, after telling him about my kidnapping, his behaviour towards me never change and I love him more for that. He believed me, he believed every single word from me. I told him about my engagement with Sami too and he didn't seem happy with that idea but he didn't say anything more, he just told me to stay away from him too.

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One day, when I was setting my bed and room for sleep, I got a message from Rezay.

I quickly opened it and found...

Rezay: "I Love You !"

What?

My heart stopped beating, I couldn't believe on my eyes. Did I read wrong? I must be having eyesight problem. I will go for check up tomorrow, or maybe, I am not in my senses. Did he just say that?

Tani: "What ??"

Rezay: "You heard me, Right !"

Tani: "No, no, I mean. Really ??"

Rezay: "Yup"

Tani: "But how ? I mean when ?"

Rezay: "Dont know.." If he is really confessing his love to me then he should be happy too, but why he is acting weird or--or strange, totally strange from the previous days.

Tani: "Do you really mean it ??" I still couldn't believe this that we were having this conversation.

Rezay: "If you'd keep asking me questions like that, then I m going. I wont say it again and again and Im not here to clear you anything."

Now he came to his originality. Fucking Arrogant Asshole ! But, why he is talking to me like that? Tani! its not time to think about his way of talking, see what he is saying to you, that's what you wanted, always. Yeah! That's what I wanted. I agreed with my inner self. But, I have to ask him for one last thing or for one last favour, straight away.

Tani: "Okay okay, fine. Please don't go and just promise me one thing. Please one thing only."

Rezay: "Okay, What is it ?"

Tani: "You will not leave me, ever. and ever means ever. Whatever it takes." Yeah don't know, but I have a fear of losing someone, anyone I love most, espacially my family and then him. Now he became my priority, my everything.

Rezay: "Okay, I promise."

Did he really just promised me that? How can he? I mean what my love made him, really? Is it that the effect of my love? I started beaming happily. Now he is in love with me too.

Tani: "Thank you so much and I love you too. Really."

I was so so happy, i couldn't believe on my eyes, I was thinking that I might read wrong. I re-read his messages. But that message was there, he was there, our love, his truth was there, he loves me too. I can't believe this, he can't say it so soon. He can't confess his love to me cause I know he has a big ego problem. He could not surrender before someone, or--or before me ?? but there he was.. confessing me his love.

That day was the best, no--no, not only best, but the bestest day of my life.

Rezay: "I know."

I was amazed with his reply, Did he really know that? from when? and how he came to know that? It was that question that I wanna asked him but I don't wanted to ruin my happy moment, so I again started jumping, beaming, singing in my room, right when Ghannu came into my room and i told her everything, she was too happy for me cause I know that she knew, how much I love him.

Now, I don't have to do this fake engagement, now I don't have to worry about my life, my Rezay is with me, my love is with me now. God! I love him, I really, really love him very much. Thank God! You gave me my love, you made him love me. You melted his heart for me and I love you for that, Thankyou, thankyou so much. I was so happy that I didn't even realize at that moment that what would be coming in my life, that what more would be waiting for me? but at that moment, I was just happy to have him, to have his love like, I love him!

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