"I am not easy, nor am I hard to get.. I am just waiting for that one, who will prove that I'm worth fighting for."

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Rezay's POV

"I am totally fucked up man !", I said while throwing the helmet on my bed, What have I done today ? I again hurt her ? How I become so mean ? She was hurt, it was written on her face and I just fucked it up. I just betrayed her & left while she was finding me like a paranoid. I am doing all this cause of my past, really ? That girl, whom I loved her so much, now she is happy with her married life and I am just making my life a big fuck. Due to my past, due to my insecurities, due to my fears, now someone is suffering, she is suffering, Fatima is suffering. How could I do this to her? I hurt her, now what should I do?

Maybe I should say sorry to her, but --- for what ? She would gonna ask me that why I am saying sorry and then what would I tell her? I am sorry because I ran away cause my life is so fucked up that I don't even know what to do that's why I ran away. She should not love me like this, I am afraid, I am not worth it. 

I started walking forth and back, back and forth like she was running before, in the whole mall, for me. She was hurting herself like this for me and what have I done, 'Rezay.... you should die. You have no right to live, You fucking bastard', I threw my phone on the floor and went outside. I went outside and started smoking and taking deep deep breaths to make myself cool but it didn't work until I talk to her I won't feel good.

I again went inside my home & quickly went to my room, saw my cell phone on the floor, Thank God ! it is still alive, I thought while placing the battery and turned it on, when the light came, I know its alive and fine, then I quickly started typing a text,

"Tell me, when you get home."  

and sent it to Fatima. No reply came, where is she now ? I quickly checked time on phone and asked my self, 'Its 4.00 pm now, where is she?'

I again typed,

"Give me a miscall or text me when you come home." 

Again no reply, its weird, Is she with that fucking guy ? Still ? Who was that guy? She didn't tell me before about him, I bet he was fucking dying to touch her again and again and I was just watching, I am a jerk, I should have killed him. 

'Listen you ! You guys, you don't have a fucking right to touch my girl, yeah she is mine, only mine, she loves me and I fucking love her.' 

I said to myself proudly, Yeah, I accept that, I love her and I am gonna tell her that I love her too, I will tell her. But I am just waiting for the right time. I have been an asshole but not anymore, I would tell her soon and I know she loves me too.

I quickly logged on to facebook and started searching any sign for her, but neither she was online nor any last seen since last 2 days and 14 hours. Where is she ?

I again typed,

"I wanna talk you. Reply me ASAP."

Sent it to her and then I layed on my bed with my back on bed and closed my eyes, She is so beautiful, she was even looking more beautiful when her face held a light shade of pink due to stress or due to running, I guess. She was panting but still she was looking more beautiful when a single lock of hair from her forehead falls on her face and reached to her lips and she tucked it behind her ear carelessly, she was looking so hot. I wanna kiss those lips, they were so pink. Her different expressions, different looks, from frowned to anger, from tensed to relax, from loving to hurt. Ohh god, I just love her every look, her lips, her hairs, her body, the whole her, I love her. I can't tell how cute she is, how innocent she looks. 

'Ohh God ! Ohh God ! What am I gonna do now, I love her, I love her.'

Note to self: I just have to tell her.

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Tani's POV

I felt my body vibrating, but my eyes couldn't open, what the hell, what's that? Is that---No way, "Earth quake." I sat up on my bed while shouting and shaking the other ones beside me, now my eyes were wide open, I again felt vibration on the bed, then I realized and laughed, 'ohh its just my phone.'

I quickly picked it up beside my pillow and while rubbing my eyes and yawning I tried to check the caller Id,

'ohh Rezay' -------- 'What Rezay?' 

But why he is calling me and so late, I quickly tried to check the time, but it was so dark in the room I couldn't see the time from the wall clock, so I quickly grabbed badra's phone and checked time on it, It was 2.30 am. '2.30 am? Why he is calling so late ?' 

He is an owl who don't sleep at night, No, no it must be an emergency, I should pick up his call while saying this to myself I picked up his call and said,

"Hello ? Rezay?" I asked questioning.

"Fatima ... where were you the whole day?"

"I was sleepinggg... uhh." I said while yawning.

"The whole day?"

"No no, not the whole day." I heard him chuckled, "I think I told you about the whole day, that where would I be."

"But its already so late, you didn't reply me after that, the whole day, not in the evening, not even at night."

"So ?"

"So what ? Why didn't you reply me?"

"I didn't get your messages." I said carelessly. I know he is showing care for me but the next moment he would be hurting me. I should show him that I am angry with him.

"You are lying."

"Why would I ? I am telling you the truth, I didn't read them, If you have sent me" I was saying the truth, I didn't read them, well, I should be strong before him. 

"Ohh, its okay fine."

"Hmm." I said

"So what were you doing?"

"Sleeping I guess."

"Ohh yeah yeah, so do you wanna go for sleep now again?" 

"No."

"Say it, if you want to."

"No Rezay."

"Means you wanna talk to me." My mouth fell open, now that's creepy. I bet he would be smirking while saying that.

"I didn't say that, I am awake now, Its just, I can't go to sleep again so fast." I lied although I was still feeling sleepy but yeah I wanna listen him for what he has called me.

"Okay, then---" He paused and said,

"---Come with me to the sky."

"What? I mean-----"

"Shhh-- just come outside and look up to the sky."

I went to my window and look up to sky. It was so dark yet so beautiful, chilled air, beautiful view, I just loved it.

"Yeah ?"

"There you can see a light coming out of dark clouds, can you see that ?"

I looked up and saw a light actually coming behind the dark clouds.

"Yeah, I can see that." I was not saying much, I just wanna listen him, what he wanted to say.

"That's you." He said and I just kept silent for a while then asked.

"Okay and ?"

"You see the dark clouds?----That's my fears." I kept silent, I let him finish.

"---And that sky?-----That's me." He was thinking so deeply and giving gaps while saying.

"Fatima, that light tries to lighten up the sky. You know----But it can't, the dark clouds are just stopping it from doing that. That's----that's how my life is."

I felt bad for him, what's his fears? I wanna know, I wanted to erase his all fears. I heard sadness in his voice.

"You know what?" He again spoke up.

"Yeah, What?" I asked.

"That dark sky wanna meet that light so much, but---clouds are stopping the sky too."

I got him, what he was trying to say. He proves me right, he was there. I know Rezay, I know.

"I know." I said smiling.

"You know that?"

"Yeah I know that." I felt his light sigh, then he said,

"If one day, I leave you without any reason----" I wanted to say but I let him finish.

"Could you survive after then? If one day, I would die, then what would you do?" I felt my eyes started to fill up thinking about him going away from me. Why is he asking me this weird question? I stopped myself, gathered myself together and started,

"It would never happen Rezay, are you listening? you can't die before me and you won't, don't ask me why and how. I just know."

Cause, I love you. I love you Rezay.

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Short but cute chapter, what say ? Do you like it ?

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-Fatima

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