February 2017,
Life is living hell right now and no one realises that I haven't been myself recently, I've been contemplating a lot of things.... And I'm deciding to get rid of some people in my life. The guy that I've had a 'crush' on now has a girlfriend, the same guy that showed me what love is, shattered my heart by getting with someone else. And we have never dated or anything, Pathetic right? I've also realised I may be addicted to something I shouldn't be but if you ask I not going to tell you what that thing is. My life has gone the shit recently. My brother has confessed to feeling like hurting himself, he has developed depression and his girlfriend just broke up with him the day before Valentine's Day. Part of me believes it's my fault that his life is shitty. But I'm also kind of angry because I have so much stuff wrong with me and my parents never suspected anything, but nooooo as soon as something is wrong with my brother they realised right away. But I'm grateful because they don't need to worry about me, I don't want people's sympathy. I want to be left alone, and listen to music for the rest of my life. Also today in health we watched a video on drugs and right after it students were asking me if I was ok, then the teacher asked me if I wanted to talk in the hallway and shit, so I think they think I'm doing drugs?!