It's been over four hours since we did everything we could to help Newt. I just hoped that he would be okay. Mentally and physically. I knew it would take a long time but I knew he would make it. He had to! He had to make it he couldn't leave me here alone.
   There was a small knock at the door.
   "Go away Clint I'm fine." I shouted.
    "It's not really Clint." A voice said. I turned to see my brother.
   "Gally." I began to cry again as he set down a plate of food. Strong arms wrapped around me and o turned into his chest."Gally I don't know what to do. I'm gonna lose him aren't I?"
     "Natasha you can't give up that quickly..." Gally began.
      "What?! Don't lecture me about giving up Gal. I have tried to hard to get over Alex and the death and all those things that happened. There's another girl here! I mean I'm overwhelmed and your talking to me about giving up?! We've been here a whole damn year Gal! We should have been out of hear. Shouldn't we?!" I yelled. Gally looked at me shocked.
"Natty were is this coming from?" Gally asked. His voice was full of concern and fright. Where was this coming from. My head was spinning.
"I'm not sure Gal. These things just keep coming into my head. I can't do this. The memory's have stopped coming and I just don't know what to do." I began to cry again. Where were these emotions coming from?"And now Newt."
"Hey Newt lives you so much. As much as I hate that your in a position that your heart could be broken I see that he really does love you." Gally said brushing tears away.
"Why was he seeming so distant?" I asked.
"Probably cause he wanted to hurt you as little as he could. Now look the whole glade is hurt. And I don't want you to be anymore hurt than you already are." Gally handed me a piece of bread from the plate."Please eat." I smiled and nodded. Gally pulled up another chair as I sat down and began to eat. He watched Newts still body a moment and than turned back to me.
"What?" I asked.
"I'm just thinking about how amazing it is to have a sister. It's like having an unbreakable relationship with someone." Gally smiled.
"I guess it is. I had this one memory of us and this one other kid who seemed close to us. He had dark hair and brown eyes....I don't know something like that. We where all playing in the snow and you told me something. You told me that with family no matter how far you are from them you never really lose them." Gally looked at me and a bigger smile spread across his face.
"I'm glad that I have you hear with me. Even if hear isn't really a great place your still with me."
I blacked out as soon as the last word left his lips. I found myself in a dark room. A girl stood in the middle with a sword. Her opponent looked much bigger and stronger than her. He was also a guy. The girl looked maybe twelve or so. They bowed to each other and began to fight the girl let him strike first she jumped around. She was trying to find his weak spot.
Wait how did I know that? Oh right that was me. The girl was me training. I seemed extremely focuses and ready for any strike. After several hits I slammed my foot into the guys chest. He stumbled back but came back swinging I smiled as nunchucks appeared in my hands. How did I just do that?! I wondered. The younger me seemed like it was a casual everyday thing. She through several more kicks and punches not letting the man recover for even a moment. He held his hand out and began coughing. The younger me stood back smiling. How was I enjoying his pain?! This is awful this was terrible! How could anyone want this how could anyone do this to anyone? Was I really like this for the maze? Was I so wrapped up I hurting people?
   The image faded I was laying on the floor Gally looking at me.
   "Nat what happened?" Gally asked. I lay there not wanting to move not wanting to do anything. I was too shocked to do anything. I wasn't sure if I was really me anymore. I looked at my brother. Did I ever hurt him? Is that why I stayed back to save him and the two others? To punish myself?
    I shot up and ran out of the medjacks room. I ran deep into the deadheads. I sat down and tears streamed down my face. Did I hurt Newt? What about that other boy I keep seeing? Or the girl? Did I hurt them? Why was I training to hurt people?!
    What kinda of monster was I?

A/n: okay guys what do u all think so far? You like it?! Please comment what you'll think!!
Love, Natasha💝