after spending time with harry, i can't stop thinking about max

the other day, i found the note he gave me before he passed. the yellowing paper was rippled from the tears i had cried while reading it

"dearest louis,

my time is nearing the end, but i hope you know i'll miss nothing in this world more than i'll miss you

in my life of ups and downs, you were always my constant. you were the steadiest shoulder i ever had to lean on

thank you for being strong for me, even though i know seeing me deteriorate physically and mentally tore you apart inside

if there's one thing i ask, it's that you don't mourn me when i'm gone

(now of course, i know you won't listen. you were always a stubborn one, but i found it endearing)

please know i'm always here for you. whenever you need to talk, i'm all ears. you know where to find me

just look up and i'll be there

don't let me hold you back from discovering the joys of life and love

with that being said, i'll always love you, louis

yours truly, max"

it's been two years since i read this letter. i read it once at your funeral, and never again until i came across it today

i promise i'll keep pushing forward, max

i met someone the other week. he's an absolutely wonderful man. you'd like him

i think i'm finally ready to give love another chance

i'll write to you again soon

yours forever, louis