Just cus I posted a few chapters with fml in it doesn't mean I'm not ok. I'm fine. I just have 17 hours of a book to read and I have like 3 hours to do that bc I never read a book. I'm fine. I just can't do this thing called homework and it sucks and I'm wasting my time writing these chapters and idk why I'm even posting them. School is fine. I hate my grades when alot of other people would say im doing good. I just know I can do better. My lowest grade is like an 83. I hate anything below a 90. And an 85 is the equivalent of ig a c or d to most students. I'm just very big about school and grades. I'm done with the escuses my parents make like that though. Ik I can do better and me being in honors classes doesn't make a B automatically an A and a C a B etc etc. Honors means I shouldn't ever get anything below an 85 bc I should be better. It's called honors for a reason and I shouldn't be getting bad grades like this. Sorry for all the rants. I'll stop now.

I'm litterally complaining about grades and stuff people want. Like that's halarious. Like, haha, litterally people get Fs and D's and C's and they want Bs  and low As. Then I'm here complaining about that. Haha. That's halarious.
Like, lol.
I have everything people would want or need: I have a family that cares about me, online friends who I can count on, irl aquaintences that I can count on, ok grades, 8 phones, freedom of what I wanna do somewhat. Then I complain about homework. Lol.

Last year, I gave myself extra homework for fun. This year I do other people's homework for fun. I gave up on school bc it got hard. Everything has always been easy for me and now that things start to get hard I can't give up. I can't sit here and make chapter amongst chapter of just cr*p. I need to actually do something. I need to finish this book. I need to go to my mindscape and find my spirit guides. I need to quit this sh*t and do something about it. I don't care how "stressful" it is. Bc it's only stressful bc I make it stressful. I just gotta take a chill pill as people say and just do it. Then maybe I'll actually be able to get sh*t done.

It's probably rlly ibvious I took a few minutes before writing that last part bc there's barely any cuss words and the ones that are there have the asterick and stuff, so like, it's ok, so like, yeah...bc life is perfect, I just forget that sometimes.