I just like spent an hour giving myself like a pep talk after watching a sad movie bc it made me think.

But, the point is.

Im paranoid about everything but now I'm not gonna be anymore.

Life is perfect and it's only perfect if I think it's perfectso it's gonna be perfect.

No matter what happens life is perfect bc life sucks so I mean if life sucks than it can't be perfect unless you let it be.

So life is perfect..

The smart alic in my school is moving back to Canada.

She was a bitch.

But now the position for smart alic that knows everything is open

And I'm gonna take that position next year.

I'm gonna be so far ahead I'm printing out the class syllabis and turning it in at the open house thing where I meet my teachers. It will be great.

And I'm gonna make new friends bc if they're good friends than it shouldn't matter that I'm annoying and weird lol. When I'm being myself that litterally how I make friends. In Spanish class when me and someone else just randomly started talking I didn't realize we were going to be friends and like so I wasn't rlly scared of what to say but now we're friends and like yeah! All my friends I have made from being myself and like yeah!

But then when I'm not being myself bc idk how to make friends and I'm too scared to make friends then I don't get friends that way bc idk...

So yeah. Alot of people next year are gonna think I'm weird and crazy and others are gonna hate me just cus I'm the smart alic and others are gonna be my friends and others are gonna be my enemies. I don't give a damn anymore.

And so yeah. I'm gonna start reading more and I'm gonna try to meditate more and everything and I'm gonna do whatever I want whenevwr I want.

I have proven time.and time again that I can do anything I wanna do, so it's time to start actually doing what I rlly wanna do. Go Big or Go Home. I'm not a freshman anymore. So I haven't gone home yet (reference to the "go home freshman" chant of the upperclassmen) and so it's too late now. I'm gonna take this home but I'm gonna do this by means of home run, not running home. Haha puns!

Lol, yeah, I'm bored.

Idk. Tonight I'm gonna start reading for my summer homework and then I'm gonna try to meditate and I might try to find something on YouTube for finding spirit guides or mindscape or something. Idk. But yeah.
It's summer!!!

Omg it's only Saturday and it's already weird not going to school... I wouldn't go to school today anyways?? Lol