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I'm updating bc I'm bored and I feel so weird about it lolll

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At long last it was carnival day.

After two meetings from hell, stress about a boy that made you want to tear your hair out and a really freaking peppy girl you were here.

Chaerin was driving both you and Sowon to the park where the carnival was being held after the three of you got ready together.

Chaerin was driver, Sowon was in the passenger seat and you were in the back row of seats in the middle.

It was a basic all-black outfit as they were supplying colourdy aprons and if it was for Sowon's bartering over the phone with Amie, you would be wearing pig tails so at least you didn't have to do that.

"I can think of twelve things on the spot I'd rather be doing right now than this" Sowon groaned.

"Same, but you just have to keep telling yourself this is for charity, this is for charity" that's how I'm going to do it anyways"

Sowon turned around in her seat to face you. "How are you holding up?"

"What do you mean?" You asked.

"Well with the whole Amie being madly in love with Jimin and all that" she said and you tensed at the two names in the one sentence.

"I'm not exactly happy about it, but if he's happy I would never take that away from him. Why would you do that to someone you love?"

"Because you love them and only want them to be with you?" She said and you sighed.

"That's how I feel on the inside, I can exactly tell him to see no one though when I can't even promise myself to him" you explained with a simple shrug of the shoulders.

"Why can't you promise yourself to him though?" She asked with longing in her eyes.

"You know why I can't So" you replied to her as you began to pick and your hands and fingers while Chaerin sat quietly, continuing to drive.

"I understand why you broke up with him, but I've seen you with him over the past few days, you look ready to be picked up and twirled around by him" she admitted and your lips turned up by the thought. "Aren't you not ready to go back to him? You've seen him yourself y/n, he's really sorry"

"I know he is and I'm sorry for he stuff I did to him but I-....ugh I don't know" you shook your head.

Chaerin parked her car in the large car park and turned around to face you also.

"You do know, what is it?" Sowon encouraged, placing a caring hand on your knee.

"I'm scared" you whispered.

"Scared? Why? You know Jimin would never hurt you-"

"Of course I know that" you cut her off. "But look at me, I'm pathetic. I broke this guys heart like what? A month ago? And yet I'm ready to go crawling back to him now" you rolled your eyes.

"No, that's not what happened. You took some time away for some well-needed healing which you got. Y/n all you had to do was figure yourself out first and you did that with the help of Hongjoon, but even he's saying that you're doing a lot better since he started with you" Sowon explained.

"And y/n everyone works differently some people need to have the comfort of someone and others work perfectly well by themselves. Maybe you just needed to get a certain distance by yourself until you reached a point where Jimin could go through till the end with you" Chaerin spoke up and both you and Sowon looked at her with wide eyes.

"Your so smart" Sowon cooed and she rolled her eyes.

"Even if it's just as friends at first y/n, you can work up further from there" she added and you nodded, squinting your eyes in thought.

"Just as friends at first" you repeated and Chaerin nodded.

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"Oh thank god you girls are here!" Amie exclaimed as the three of you entered the carnival.

It was about an hour until it opened, so Amie was a bit more frantic than usual.

She guided you three towards the stall (that was like a tiny little tent like idea of a stall) and practically threw the aprons at you.

You were a actually surprised at how big the carnival was.

"Okay! I suggest you all do some practice cones just to see if you can work the ice-cream machine, yes? Okay good, good" she said walking off to where we had met her.

"Damn she's worked up" Chaerin pointed out.

"Yeah, more than usual" you added.

"Oh. My. God." Sowon deadpanned.

"What?" Both you and Chaerin asked

"These are hideous" Sowon gagged as she held up the apron that you didn't properly look at yet.

It's true, it looked like whoever made them left a six year old in a room with the brightest paint imaginable and every colour glitter in the world.

Yes, they were glittery too.

"Oh well, we will just have to live with it" you sighed tying the apron around you.

"Why couldn't they arrange us like the powderpuff girls?" Sowon pouted.

"Yeah, no" cheating scoffed.

"Oh come on! Me as Blossom, you as Buttercup and y/n as Bubbles" she enthusiastically explained, you could see her plan it out in her head.

"You've really lost it" you laughed and she pouted as Chaerin joined in the laughter.

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Amie wasn't wrong when she described the assortment of sweet treats that would be at your stall.

Jars among jars of different chocolates and sugary things as well as trays of liquorice and marshmallows and jelly snakes and so on.

As well as the ice cream machine and all the toppings that same with that.

You were quite busy when the carnival started. You and the two girls had a system.

Chaerin but the ice-cream into the cone and you put the sauces and toppings onto it and Sowon did the sweets and candies.

You also did the money for the simple reason that your station was closest to the money box.

"Here you are" you passed the change to one of the customers and moved onto the next person to see a familiar face.

"Hey Jackson" you smiled and as you said so the girl beside him looked surprised that I knew him. Your eyes panned down and saw their hands belt together.

"Hey y/n, this is Katrin my girlfriend" he smiled shyly.

And you couldn't help but smile brightly.

"You've found a great guy Katrin" you told her and she smiled.

"T-thanks" she said and you noted that she was a shy person.

"Well what can I get you?"

They asked for an ice-cream and you made sure to add extra toppings for them and then they walked off together after paying and you felt a sense of what you could only describe as relief.

You were so happy he found someone, because he deserves a sweet and loving girlfriend.

As you were facing away, the two girls mutually agreed to leave so they could go make out somewhere.

"Me and Chaerin are just going to find a bathroom somewhere and she's coming so that I don't get lost and-"

"Go and do whatever you're planning, but dear lord don't tell me about it when you come back" you said, seeing past their little story.

"Thank you" Sowon explained and grabbed her girlfriends hand before rushing out the back of the stall.

"Don't take too long!" You yelled after them.

"Okay!" Sowon yelled back.

You turned around a saw a man waiting patiently. He asked for a small bag of the green turtle jellies (if you don't know what they are you didn't have a childhood. Period.) and you gave him the jellies after which he kindly paid.

Your eyes then drifted over to another booth that was very busy.

The high striker booth.

You looked over and saw a string of girls and some guys too lining up to have either a go at the game or having a go at staring at Jungkook and Jimin's chests up close; in which they would pretend they couldn't play the game properly and one of the two boys would help them try to do it.

You forgot how mesmerising Jimin's upper body was.

Your eyes shamelessly stared him down, every ripple on his torso that came together to make his six pack and the two mountain high muscles on his bicep.

And if it wasn't for his head lifting up and glancing in your direction, you would still be drooling.

But instead you knocked over a jar of sweets from the suddenness of his eyes peering over at you.

You quickly picked up the jar and sighed in relief that it wasn't shattered to pieces you then looked back over to him to see his head looking down at his feet with a red face that was containing his laughter as much as possible and you couldn't help but chuckle at him he looked up and over at you and when you both met eyes he burst out in a fit of laughter at the situation, as did you.

The girl who was trying to do the game he was running felt embarrassed thinking he was laughing at her, little did she know that she is no where near Jimin's thoughts.

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"Well it's about time! Did you swallow her tongue while you were at it?" You asked once the girls arrived an hour later.

"Just about" charring winked.

"Okay that's gross, I'm taking my break now" you said and left them tent.

As you walked out you saw Jungkook.

"Hey, where are you going?" You asked.

"To change Jimin's patch" he said gesture of to the patch in his hand.

"So who's manning the stall?" You asked.

"Oh shit! Will you change his patch? He's just over there. I have to go" he said and rushed back before you could even protest.

You sighed and stared down at the nicotine patch in your hands. You then looked in the direction where Jungkook pointed to when he said where Jimin would be.

You followed the direction which ended up being a short distance off the carnival grounds. He was on a tree stump that was a few meters away from a big tree thats branches spread out all around it and it sheltered his head.

His back was facing you and he wasn't aware of anyone approaching.

Well that was until you stepped on a twig and he jumped up.

"Woah! Oh-...muffin?" The nickname slipped absentmindedly.

"Jungkook sent me to change your patch" you explained and held up the patch.

"Oh" he said. "You know about the patches?" He looked down in shame.

"Yeah, nothing to be ashamed of" you assured him. "You're doing a good thing"

"It doesn't feel that way" he murmured.

"They were destroying you" you said and he looked up. "Ever since you quit, you've become more like you again. Like the Jimin I used to know" he sat down on the large stump of a tree trunk again.

"Like the Jimin you used to love?" He asked.

"Well I love every version of you, good or bad. I could never not love you, your my Jimin. I just can't really live with some versions, for example the smoking version. I love you too much to see you slowly kill yourself" you explain as you kneeled down in front of him and began to remove his old patch and begin to stick on the new one.

There was a few moments of silence where you focused on your job and he just watched your face as you concentrated.

"You're amazing" he whispered without thinking and immediately got shy.

You blushed lightly and looked at him.

"I missed you" you admitted to him and he leaned down and placed his forehead against yours and he brushed his nose against yours.

"I missed you too" he murmured.

You pulled away your head from his.

"I actually wanted to talk to you" you said and he looked curiously at you.

"So I was thinking-" you began. "I've gotten a lot better over the past month and as you can clearly see from what I said a few seconds ago, I miss you, like a whole lot. I want you back in my everyday life, well I always wanted you back, but now I'm ready to have you back" his face began to change into a euphoric expression. "- just this time, it would be as a friend" you added and that expression was wiped off his face.

"You want to be just friends?" He asked in bewilderment.

"Just for now! I'm getting better, I really am and I'm so happy with myself for that. I'm ready to have you but not have a relationship. If that makes sense" you said nervously. "I love you Jimin, I really do. It's almost stupid how much I love you" you admitted to him and he smiled and pulled you into a hug and then pulling away slightly to look at you whilst you spoke. "But I'm after coming so far and I need to go in baby steps so I promise we will be together again, if you want to of course. But for now, I can't do that yet"

He pulled you closer to him and you wrapped your arms around his neck. "Baby steps it is" he said against your ear kissed your temple and you nearly melted at the familiar, comforting gesture. "And I'm ready for the relationship whenever you are muffin" he said and you massage his scalp as he spoke.

You nearly collapsed at all the loving gestures he gave you.

"You just go at your own speed, I'll be there" he whispered.

TBC

A/N: I have re-written this chapter twice and it's still not how I want it.

For those of you who don't know what the turtle sweets I mentioned in the chapter look like,

This is them^^ and they taste like my childhood.

Lots of love xx