I really don't like this chapter :(

It's a filler btw

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"That's tragic!" Hongjoon exclaimed.

He was visiting you at work like he does every day and you both were watching the red carpet on his phone for a big award show that's on.

"Whoever their stylist is needs to be fired" he exasperated and you just chuckle as you dried some glasses that were just washed as you listened to him rant about the outfits that celebrities were wearing.

He noticed that you weren't watching the video on screen so he switched off the phone and placed it down on the countertop.

"Okay, daily feelings session" he announced and you groaned.

"No, not the daily feeling session" You whined and put the now dry glass on the table and put your head in your hands.

"Ah, ah, ah, no whinging" he instructs. "You know we have to do this, it gives me an idea of how you're doing inside that head of yours"

This is the third day that you and Hongjoon have been doing this as he finds it easy and productive where as you feel as if your being interrogated in a way.

But through this exercise you have learned a little bit about your emotional state at the moment. Like you know that you're not satisfied with yourself, but you sure are doing a hell of a lot better than before. Your guess as to why you're feeling better is due to seeing Jimin and seeing that he isn't mad.

He doesn't hate you for leaving him.

And what a relief that was. That's probably one of the main reasons you were avoiding him up till now; You wouldn't be able to live with yourself if he looked at you any other way than with loving eyes.

But the day of the last meeting he gave you a lot more than loving eyes and there was a permanent blush on your cheek due to that fact.

"Okay well I'm like a good medium" you said. "I'm not exactly sad, but I'm still kinda thinking about my mom a lot ever since that panic attack like a month ago. I mean I always think about my mom with every giving day that passes, but they were good memories. They weren't like these ones that I'm having now about that horrid night" you shuddered at thought. It was a hard topic for you to openly discuss, but you understood why Hongjoon wanted to do it.

"Well that's just the trauma that you ignored for years coming back to bite you in the ass" he said and you nodded.

"I know, but what am I supposed to do? Ignore it like I did before?"

"Well, not exactly, that will only come back at you again in a couple of years if something else happens" he explained. "You have to come to a peace within yourself with that fact. It's a hard thing to do and if I'm being honest, I don't even know how you would go about it. It's completely up to you about how you settle this with yourself" he said and you nodded. "You have to deal with your trauma and terrors head on"

"And I mean it doesn't help that I'm seeing Jimin again tomorrow at the next meeting and miss Barbie is all over him while I'm over here working in an ugly uniform with messed up hair and a tired face" you sighed and showed him what you meant with your messy bun and your unseemly outfit.

"Oh please, you're always pretty" Hongjoon tries to brighten your mood.

"Not compared to her though" you meekly smile. "I really miss him" you said after a few moments of silence.

"He misses you too"

"How do you know?" You ask, hoping he had number into him somewhere and he said the words himself.

"Were you here during this meeting? His eyes were practically superglued to yours. And when you were both left staring at each other, I swear if there wasn't other people in the room he would've been by your side in milliseconds" he chuckled and you smiled.

"You're a good person" you admit and grin a little bit more.

"Thank you" he took the compliment. "And see now that's the smile we want to see" he said gesturing to your smile.

"That's why I said I was a medium. I'm a lot better than I was before. I'm eating properly, thanks to you, I'm on top of my school work and this job is going okay. I know there's the bad stuff, but other than the ones I've already said, everything is going well" you openly admit to him.

"I'm glad" he beams. "Now I don't mean to be putting you out by saying this, but would you be able to even think of being in a relationship with Jimin?"

"Well in some ways yeah. Like he's my Jimin, but I'm also scared that he's still not fully recovered. I heard that he's quitting smoking and I'm so unbelievably happy to hear that but what about the other things? The excessive drinking and hanging out with his group of friends that go to dancing with him. What if he still wants to pick parties over me?" Your speaking your mind and whole thought process to Hongjoon, which is not an easy thing to do, but you have to do this - it's for your own good.

A customer leaves the diner and you glance over to see the money left on the table they were sitting at.

"I feel like my life is going well at the moment, I'm finally getting to a place where I can live my day-to-day life and not feel depressed every moment of it. But I feel like if one more thing is put on my plate to weigh it down, everything is just going to topple over"

"That's completely understandable" he encouraged. "It's also completely normal, most people feel like that on some days, because some days are better than others. I mean most people don't have the same problems that you have and they're not to the same extent that you have them, but still a problem is a problem" he explained and you nodded. You really understood what he was saying and you took everything on board.

You had a lot to think about now.

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It's now the next day, and the annoying voice is back again.

"I'm so glad you all could come to our second meeting! The carnival is practically set up now in the park on the east side of the college. We will be meeting there at around five thirty, and no one is to be late!" She chuckled.

You and your friends who sat at the counter last time were in there spots yet again at this meeting.

Amie of course had taken Jimin the minute he walked through the doors.

But it's fine because he's not your boyfriend.

He's just the love of your life, but anywho.

"If everyone could just sit with the people they are running their both with and I'll come around to all of you, in your individual groups, and explain what each of you have to do!" She speaks and everyone does as told and everyone has their own separate conversations as she is going around.

Jimin of course comes to the counter as Jungkook was sitting there and he personally didn't want to be anywhere near Amie anymore.

You saw him as he walked towards the counter, looking at his feet, and you made a bolt for the kitchen before Hongjoon stopped you.

"You have to deal with your traumas and terrors head on" he reminded you in a whisper and you sulked.

"Can I have a tender basket with extra garlic sauce for So?" Chaerin asked and you nodded.

"Yeah, 'course" you said whipping out your handy notepad and pen. "Anything else?"

She shook her head and you nodded.

Yugyeom came out of the kitchen with a tired smile. "I'm finished" he smiled tiredly, his eyes practically closing themselves with exhaustion.

"No your not" you chuckle. "Tender basket for Chaerin"

He took the order and glared at Chaerin, "you're dead to me" he said as a joke and you giggled.

"Dude it's not funny, I'm tired" he sighed.

"I know you are, you poor baby" you squeeze his cheek and he pulls your hand away.

"That hurts" he pouted.

"Go and whine to your girlfriend dopey" you chuckled and he sighed and began to do the order.

"Extra sauce!" you yelled to him.

"Yeah, yeah" he waved you off.

And all this time Jimin just observed.

Observed how you smiled, but not as brightly as you used to. But it was a smile none the less.

There was now and awkwardness hanging over the group.

Yugyeom popped out eat again.

"Y/n, you want something?" He knew that you usually ate around this time.

You turned to face Hongjoon to see if it was the right time as he manages your diet and what time you should eat at etc.

Hongjoon then nodded and you nodded toward Yugyeom.

"Alrighty, What will it be today?"

"Taco fries, I beg" you said and Hongjoon giggled.

"Make it two" Hongjoon laughed seeing how excited you were.

This was a treat and you were only allowed them on Fridays apparently to Hongjoon.

Was it childish? Yes.

But Hongjoon's methods were working, you've already gained a little weight and if this continues you could go back to feeling normal again.

"Coming right up" he smiled.

"Wait! Make it three!" Jungkook announced as Yugyeom went back to the kitchen.

"Four!" Jimin said, just wanting to join in with everyone else.

"Okay, okay! Geez calm down" Yugyeom complained and you all chuckled slightly. "I didn't realize all of you are called y/n" he rolled his eyes.

Nevertheless, he made his way back into the kitchen to sort out the food.

And you were left again with the awkward silence.

Well that was until a headache-causing voice came to fill that void.

"My scrumdiddlyumptious team!" Amie's voice is heard ringing through everyone's ears. "So that's the name of the stand you're running. You're going to be in charge of the various goodies and treats that are at carnivals, like all the different colour liquorice sweets that are as long as a seven year old child" she said and all of you looked at one another questionably at her peculiar statement. "And all the different boxes of jelly's and what not as well as an ice-cream machine station that has all the colours of the rainbow in syrups to drizzle on top as well as various different toppings" she explained and you mentally cursed Sowon for choosing that stand.

Every person is going to come to your stand and you're gonna be over-run with work.

"Now your requirements are that your hair must be tied up at all times, you must wear plastic gloves and strictly no taking sneaky nibbles at anything" she chuckles. "I'll show you everything else when we are at the stand" she said before moving onto the next group which was Jimin and Jungkook.

As she was doing so you and the other two girls looked at one another in pure agony.

"Oh! Actually, before I begin I have something to give Jimin!" Amie announced, gaining your attention.

She ran to her bag and got something out of it before hurriedly hiding it behind her back as she made her way back over to Jimin.

Once she was back in front of him she pulled her hand out from behind her and a Muffin was presented before her and you had to bite your tongue incase you scoffed aloud.

"I remember you saying something about  liking muffins so I went ahead and got you one!" She said excitedly.

"Oh...eh, thanks" he smiled gratefully, yet confused and took the baked treat.

"I wasn't sure what your favourite flavor was so I just got blueberry, but what is your favourite flavor? I'm very curious-"

"Chocolate Muffin with double chocolate chips" you answered without thinking.

Then you mentally cursed yourself for doing so.

Everyone at the counter turned their attention towards you. You still had a little bit of fiery annoyance left in you.

"Would I be wrong?" You asked Jimin who was smiling.

"No, you're absolutely right" his smile widened.

There was a bit of a pause where the both of you just looked at each other.

Not even finding it awkward, in fact it was a pleasant moment or two.

Well that was until-

"Wow you must be sweet if you like that much chocolate!" She giggled.

Jimin was still looking at you as she was speaking.

You clearly got annoyed the minute she began to speak again and you tore your gaze away.

Jimin blinked a few times before turning around to Amie.

"Right" he answered before Sowon began to explain their requirements for manning the both they were at.

"And like I said last time, your uniform is black pants with no top" she chuckled. "All the girls will think you're a hit" she added.

You were almost 10000% certain she would've asked them to be shirtless even if they were just doing the funky mirror booth.

"Alright, that's all I have for you guys now" she said as she moved to the next group. "Oh, and I hope you enjoy your muffin Jimin" she winked.

And because of that, you had to physically restrain yourself from crawling over the counter and attacking her.

TBC

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