Happy Birthday parkkx !!!

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You were still asleep on the couch.

Jimin was sitting in his bed, contemplating over everything that has happened over the past few hours.

He felt like crying.

His eyes were red, as he would forget to blink while he was lost in his thoughts.

There was a pit in his stomach.

He clenched his fists hard.

And overall his body was incredibly tense.

And he knows how to fix it and loosen up his structure.

He could do it quickly, just slip out and go outside for a few minutes.

The thought of it made his veins shake in desperation.

He stood up and got the pack and lighter from his coat pocket and tip toed to the door and in doing so, the floor creaked.

You woke up and your hands immediately went to your head, shielding your eyes from the bright daylight coming through the window but also cradling your head as there was a thumping feeling at your temples.

Jimin wasn't sure did you wake or not but still he twisted the door knob.

You heard the noise of the door opening and you sat up and faced him.

"Where are you going" you said with a raspy voice.

"I was going to get some fresh air" he said warily.

Now let me just tell you something, you aren't dumb.

And you certainly are not dumb enough to believe that he was going outside for fresh air.

You were almost certain that any air the he'd be breathing in would more than likely be toxic than anything else.

"I see" you murmured and sat up, beginning to put your shoes on.

"W-what are you doing?" He asked.

"I'm coming with you, I'm not supposed to leave you out of my sight incase you do something stupid" you explained and stood up, grabbing your jacket and making your way towards the door.

"I promise you that I'll be fine" he tried to persuade you to stay here.

"Well you also promised that you would come to my speech and you didn't" you spoke, your eyes fixated on anything but Jimin as you zipped up your coat.

"Seriously, you have to bring this up now?"

"Well it's better then us walking on eggshells around each other" you admitted.

"Okay fine, we won't go down stairs, we will talk about this" he said, closing the door and walking to his bed.

You gulped but followed him to the bed.

And that's where you both sat, opposite sides of the bed, not knowing what to say.

You sat there picking at your nails as you felt your eyes well up and no one had even said anything yet.

"I'm sorry I missed your speech" he said quietly.

One tear fell.

You wiped it away quickly with your sleeve. You couldn't even reply you were so frustrated.

"Y/n?" It still feels foreign hearing your name from his lips and not the nickname you adored so much.

"It was so humiliating" you whispered.

Two or three more tears fell.

"I know" he replied softly and your temper flew.

"No! Jimin you don't know!" You exclaimed. "Do you have any idea how mortified I was to get up on that podium in front of a hall full of people and speak my heart out about you and you weren't even there! I looked pathetic!"

Tears were now falling by the dozen.

"Alex and Jinyoung came all the way over here to see me make a fool of myself and Sowon and Chaerin saw the same. And don't even get me started on Jackson"

"Jackson?" Jimin asked bewildered.

"Yeah" you scoffed. "Jackson was there and you weren't and then he asked me where you were and couldn't even get words out because I was so embarrassed" you shook your head, cringing at the memory.

Jimin didn't know what to do, so he sat in silence and just continued to listen.

"What did I do wrong?" You asked. "What the hell did I do to deserve that?" You asked.

Jimin crawled over to you and put his arms around you. "You did nothing, I'm so sorry. I was just so fucking stupid and I'm sorry" he choked, tears beginning to fall from his eyes as well.

There was a pause of silence and within that you fell asleep and Jimin held you close, cradling your body in his arms.

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It's been three hours and you were still laying in the same position.

Jimin was dying for a cigarette at this point.

But he didn't move, he held you closely.

You began to stir in you sleep and you cracked an eye open and saw Jimin peering down at you with a guilty smile.

You sat up slowly and checked the time in the clock on the wall.

"I have to go to work" you said with a raspy voice.

"I see"

"You're coming with me" you added and his eyes widened. "Doctor told me to not let you out of my sight" you further explained and Jimin nodded.

You stood up from the bed and started to walk towards the door.

"How about I need you there in like a half an hour?" Jimin asked, hoping he could run outside and smoke a quick one.

"I'm going to my room and putting on my uniform and I'll be back in a few minutes and we will walk together" you deadpanned, once again already knowing what he would do if you left him go.

"But-"

"Jimin, please don't argue with me now" you hushed him and he looked down. "I'll be back in a few minutes" you yawned before leaving to your room.

Jimin quickly pulled out his pack and took out one roll. He lit it and opened the window, leaning out the gap.

He puffed and puffed anxiously trying to get his nerves to calm, but it wasn't working.

"Fuck" he sighed.

He needed that extra strong one that Minho had last time he was at dance practice.

Unfortunately, Jimin was naïve enough to think that leaning out a window while smoking should hide the scent.

The scent was faintly in his dorm, you could smell it when you walked in a few hours ago.

He quickly put out the cigarette when he heard your two knocks at the door. He then sprayed some cologne around the room and closed the window.

He raced to the bathroom and you knocked again. He quickly put toothpaste on the bristles of his tooth brush and put it in his mouth before opening the front door.

"What took you so-" you paused and noted Jimin brushing his teeth, the smell of smoke that bit stronger now and his window that was left ajar.

He didn't push it down fully while he was running around.

Even in the space of two minutes he had one, you thought.

"-long" you sighed. "Never mind" you continued afterward.

"Finish brushing your teeth and we can go" he nodded and went to the bathroom.

When he came out he felt the need to make an excuse to explain why he was brushing his teeth.

"My breath was really bad. I wanted to get rid of my morning breath" he spoke softly and you just nodded.

"Let's get going then"

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"The chef who is here before my shift pisses me off" Yugyeom said with an annoyed tone.

"Why?"

"He doesn't leave the kitchen the way I want to find it" he pouts, rearranging some of the ingredients.

"Understandable"

"Don't focus on that, make order six for me" you scolded.

"Alright my darlin' coming right up" he joked.

You left the kitchen and found Jimin shifting uncomfortably in his seat at the sound of the kitchen doors opening.

"What do you want to eat?" You spoke gently to him.

"Oh I'm okay, thank you though" he smiled awkwardly.

"No Jimin you need to eat"

"I feel bad though making you do extra work"

"Believe me, that's not what you should feel bad about" you deadpanned. "So what would you like?"

"French toast please" he spoke quietly.

You nodded and walked back to Yugyeom to give him the order. When you returned back from the kitchen you saw Jackson open the door of the diner.

You felt guilty, that's for sure.

It feels as if you're trying to make Jimin jealous, when in all reality you were just thanking Jackson for being there for you the other night.

"Hello" you smiled.

"Hey" he returned the smiled. "How are you feeling?" He asked as he sat at the counter, a few spaces away from Jimin who he hasn't seen yet.

"Much the same" you shrugged. "And you?"

"I'm fine thank you" he smiled. "You look absolutely exhausted"

"I feel it too" you complain.

"Order six is ready y/n" Yugyeom called.

You took the tray with food piled on it. "Thank you" you shook your head quickly and plastered a smile on your face, smiling weakly at Jackson as you passed him on your way to the designated table.

Jackson sighed and his eyes wandered around the diner, eventually landing on Jimin a few seats away from him.

"O-oh hey, I didn't see you there" Jackson scratched his head awkwardly.

"Hey" Jimin replied shortly.

There was a brief moment of silence.

"Thanks for being there for y/n at her speech presentation, I know it meant a lot to her" Jimin thanked softly.

Jackson was shocked to say the least. He was not expecting something like that to ever come out of Jimin's mouth when talking to him.

"It was really no problem. She wrote an amazing speech, you should be very proud of her" he spoke gently.

Jimin kept his gaze ahead of him, rather than side ways toward Jackson. "I'm always proud of her, I never stop being proud. She's an astonishing woman"

"I can't contradict you there" Jackson replied.

You walked back and passed the counter into the kitchen, offering Jackson a slight smile along the way that he kindly returned.

A few moments later you returned to the counter with your notepad at the ready.

"What would you like for breakfast?" You asked.

"I think the scrambled eggs on toast looks nice, if you wouldn't mind"

"Not in the slightest, I'll tell Yugyeom"

You quickly gave the order into him and he gave you Jimin's French toast. You then gave the plate out to Jimin and he began to gobble it down almost immediately.

"Thanks" you managed to hear him say and you nodded.

"You look pure exhausted" Jackson pointed out to you.

"Would you believe me if I told you that I felt that way too?" You chuckle softly.

You made small chit chat with Jackson for awhile and then Yugyeom came and also talked to him for a little while.

Eventually Jackson had to leave, telling you that he was meeting Jinyoung for lunch while he's still here and before he goes home with Alex.

So he paid you with a generous tip and left.

You gazed around the near-empty diner after cleaning Jackson's plates. You eyes eventually landed on Jimin to find him drumming his fingers off the surface or the table, his pupils were dilated. It was almost as if he was anxious of something.

Well more like anxious for something.

You hesitantly moved your eyes away from him and toward the clock on the wall.

He has to take his pills again.

You walked over to your bag and counted out the right dosage of each one and then you went and fetched him a glass of water to swallow them down with.

You place all your gathered materials in front of him.

He catches onto what he needed to do and started taking the pills slowly, one by one.

"These make me feel drowsy" he spoke softly.

"Yeah it's part of the side effects" you replied.

He nodded.

Things were awkward.

Sure, you were mad but if comes and goes in stages in which one minute you feel like you could snap at him whenever he speaks and the next minute your just sad with the melancholy feeling of your overwhelming emotions that has simmered inside you for past few hours.

You sat on the other side of the counter, aimlessly watching the time tick by as Jimin felt his stomach turn inside out.

TBC

A/N: this chapter took soo long to write and it's still shit.

What's that about bro???😔

Lots of love xx