Hye! I am back with my one-shot fic of Ed, Edd and Eddy. These scenes were actually possible fillers from my on-going fic called Silent Screams. I just didn't know if I could insert them so I made a decision to compile them and make it a one-fic story. So I hope you like it. This is so typical but anyway...

Note: There will be two POVs in this fic. Edd and Kevin of course. If you reach the (xxx) mark, it means the POV will change to the other.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Ed, Edd and Eddy and never ever will.

My Misery

Typical Story: Kevin was contemplating on which to choose; His reputation or his dorky boyfriend.

Just know that I'll make you hurt,
(I miss the lies and the pain what you did to me)
When you tell me you'll make it worse
(I'd rather fight all night than watch the TV)
I hate that feelin inside
You tell me how hard you'll try
But when we're at our worst
I miss the misery

~ I Miss  My Misery - Halestorm ~

"Are you guys insane!"

The moment I heard those four words that came to his lips, I knew that they wouldn't bring any good. The other jocks wouldn't know but I noticed how stiff his shoulders were. Even his voice sounded tense with the evidence that he didn't want to reveal something in front of his friends. The four corners of the locker room were making the sound coming from the jocks bounce back and forth between them.

But I refused to listen to the sound around me. Instead, the voice of my secret boyfriend of four months was more audible to my sensitive ears. His back was facing me and he was facing his friends. They were wearing confused faces as he tried reasoning to them. I was totally out in the picture and I knew that my heart wouldn't stop beating rapidly.

"Where did you get that idea from?"

His words cut me from my own thoughts. The atmosphere was getting tense and I could see it from my boyfriend's body.

"Dude, calm down. Why are you so being offensive?" I heard one of the jocks asked.

"Why wouldn't I be? You're accusing me of being a queer! I can't believe you guys!"

"We didn't say that, Kevin," The jock said with a firm tone, "No need to be rude!"

"I wouldn't be if you didn't joke about us being boyfriends," He said and to my surprise, he pointed at me without actually looking at me, "That's ridiculous!"

His words literally broke my heart into pieces. I didn't know how in the world I managed to mask my feelings to them.

"Okay, if you say so," His friend said before looking at me. Mustering the courage, I was able to nod at him. I didn't dare to open my mouth. It would only tremble if I did.

"Don't ask me that ever again."

The next thing I knew, Kevin was pulling me out of the locker room. For how he did that, I had no idea. I found myself standing in an empty classroom and I never had any recollection of walking my way in the area.

"This isn't working."

His voice caught my attention. I looked up and stared at his back just like how I stared at his back in the locker room, "What do you mean?"

"Us!" He spun facing me. His expression was disoriented, "Let's stop this!"

My eyes widened when he said that. I didn't like the idea where he wanted us going to, "K-Kevin, I don't understand. Can you please elaborate--"

"Come on, Edd!" He frustratingly interrupted me. Wiping his face with his hand, I knew that he was trying to refrain himself from snapping, "You are genius enough to know what I am talking about!"

I actually knew what he was trying to imply but I refused to understand it. I was not actually great when it came to relationships since I'd never been into one.

Until Kevin came.

Everything was knew to me so I wanted it to linger for as long as I could.

"K-Kevin, you are kidding me, aren't you?"

"Do I look like I am kidding to you?" He hissed. If he wasn't wearing his signature hat, he would have been pulling his hair out of frustration, "I can't give up my position and my relationship with you is pulling it down."

"I thought--"

"I know what I said, okay!" He walked away from me, staying for a couple of minutes by the window before he made his back in front of me, "I thought it would but I was wrong about it. Our relationship will never work. People will start to notice! Damn, the team already noticed and that was the last thing I ever wanted to happen!"

My eyes widened as I didn't know how to react, "Kevin..." I whispered his name as I reached out to him but he only took a few steps backward.

"I am sorry, Edd," Kevin said shaking his head dejectedly, "...but I can't." He turned on his heels without a second glance to me.

I swallowed the lump that was forming from my throat. My eyes watered as I stared where Kevin disappeared from. Realization hit me and it hit me hard.

Kevin ended things between us just like that.

xxx

I couldn't think of possible words to describe the feelings I had the moment I left Edd in that room. There were millions of curses and profanities I wanted to shout as I dashed out of the building that day. It had been a week since that day. I really felt bad of breaking up with him but I couldn't risk my dreams just for him. Football had been my long time career since I was little. My goal of joining different matches from different schools and winning each of them had been my dream.

I wanted to win and become a professional football player.

Being a regular player would start everything. Then I became the Quarterback and the Captain of the team. In my senior year, things were going to get serious. I would bring the team to regionals and made sure that the staffs would see what I could do inside the stadium. I wanted to be a part of National Football League in the future, be a part of a strong team.

It was understandable that this would take a long time to reach. I knew I had more ways to go and that was more the reason I wanted to focus on my dreams.

Only my dorky boyfriend-former dorky boyfriend couldn't get that. Hell, he couldn't even understand our relationship either. He had lots of things when it came to it. I was amused at his own perspective that I ended up going out with him. The four months of being together in secrecy were the most beautiful things that happened in my life. He was willing to learn anything just to make our relationship work. And we were both happy with the get up.

But people started to notice.

I didn't want that to happen. Not when I was still on the first stage of my goal. I would not let Edd ruin my dreams like that.

I was wrong of falling in love with him.

"Kevin!"

I closed my locker before turning to Nat who called me. His countenance was telling me that he wanted to talk to me seriously. Walking to the bench, I waited for him to speak.

"Is it really over?" He asked after a few seconds of silence. I knew what he was talking about and he confirmed it with his next words, "between you and the dweeb?"

"Lower your voice, Nat," I said through gritted teeth, "I don't want bigger issues. Especially not in the future."

"How could you do this to him then?" My friend's voice was firm, "He has been trying to get your attention. Making sure that no one would notice."

"I don't care."

"He cares!" He walked closer to me, "You don't know what you've been missing! He's a sweet guy! He's always worried about you! How can you be so heartless!"

"Saving my reputation is not heartless!"

"Bulls**t!" He smacked the locker next to him. That got me look at him straight to his figure. I'd never seen Nat so serious before. His next words were so unnerving, "You're stupid than I already expected. If your damn reputation stays I am sure as hell Edd will not. If you are not going to do anything to get him back, I am sure that I am not just going to sit and do nothing watching him crumble into your feet."

I frowned at his words then they hit me, "You are moving on him."

"I'll get him and I'll make sure that he feels valuable than just a stupid reputation. And once I do, I'll never return him to you." He said all the words straight to my eyes. He turned around without saying another word but I couldn't help myself as I asked what was bugging me for a while.

"Why?" I stood up. He stopped walking and waited for my next words, "Why would go that far?"

He turned his face sideways giving me a sideway glance. His left eye was intensely staring at me, "Edd, He's more than just that. If you don't know it yet, you'd realized how lucky you were until he's gone. And it will be too late by then."

He continued walking after that. I frowned at his words. His warnings were bothering me but that didn't reach my fear of losing my dreams. Edd clearly understood my dreams even before we became a couple. Of all the people I knew, I wanted him to understand me the most.

I was not ready to give up football and it wouldn't happen in a few years.

xxx

I'd never been this disoriented before. No matter what the obstacles I encountered, I made sure that I'd solve them without panicking. But this kind of obstacle was hard and it wouldn't solve without me not panicking along with it. It had been two weeks since Kevin broke up with me. Things had not been the same since then. Kevin made my world upside down, literally and figuratively.

He was my everything.

I'd given everything to him. My first time. My first kiss. My first hug. All of the firsts I could give to him.

I simply wanted him back and that was what I'd been doing since the day he broke up with me. And none seemed to be working to him.

I just wanted him in my life. I never meant to hinder myself to his dreams. In fact, I would support him all my life. If he wanted to hide me, that would be fine by me. I was never the person's people in the first place.

I wanted Kevin to know that.

My heart was beating rapidly inside the cage of my chest. My mind was set to find him that afternoon with only a few people left behind when I literally jumped when someone grabbed me to my arm. I exhaled when I realized who it was.

"My goodness, Nathan! You couldn't have scared me more than that!" I exclaimed when he let go of my arm, "What are you doing here?"

"I could ask you the same thing," He said with the hint of seriousness from his voice that I heard for the first time, "What are you doing?"

His question felt odd that I looked everywhere but him while looking for a perfect alibi to say, "I told my best friends to meet me here. It seems that they haven't arrived yet."

"Cut the crap Edd! Your best friends have gone home already. Stop lying to me." His tone made me look at him. Nathan never called me by my name unless it was necessary. But the way he called me was something not to be underestimated about. So much for the alibi.

"Stop..."

I blinked my eyes once, twice. I couldn't read his face. My eyes widened when he suddenly walked closer to me. The sudden movement made me walk backwards making me hit the wall.

"Stop thinking about him," He firmly said placing both of his arms on the wall cornering my face between them, "I am tired of seeing you trying hard to get his attention again."

"I don't get what you mean, Nathan," I said not liking what he wanted to imply. I didn't like where we would get to this, "And cut the seriousness already. I am not used of seeing you like this."

"Stop pursuing him, Edd! He's not worth it!" He grabbed my shoulders this time, "I don't want to see you get hurt."

"Nathan--"

"How could you love a guy like him! He's a soulless bastard! Forget about him!"

"Nathan--"

"He doesn't know how to cherish you! He doesn't know how to value your relationship! He doesn't know how big of a prick he is! He doesn't care anything about you!"

"Nathan I--"

"But I do!"

I was stiffened as I stared straight at him. His eyes were intensely looking down at me. Nathan had rendered me speechless. Seeing that I wouldn't say anything, he continued speaking.

"I am here, Double D," He whispered removing his hand and placed it on my cheek, "I always have been."

"N-Nathan," I whispered back. He really surprised me. And he surprised me even more when his other hand went to my other cheek and gave me a firm kiss on the lips. I gasped audibly as my eyes widened at the sudden move. I got my wits back when I realized what was happening and willed myself to push him away, "N-Nathan, what are you doing?"

"Your effort of getting his attention," He muttered, his eyes staring at my doe-eyed ones, "Give it to me. I'll gladly accept it."

I was totally shocked. Nathan wouldn't be saying those words. He was never serious like this. Nathan was a goofy one.

"Edd!" He caught my attention once again. I was distracted once again, "I am in love with you."

I gasped at the confession. Nathan loved me. I never knew.

"Choose me instead."

Things felt like a whirlwind. I didn't know how to respond to that. I found myself slowly scooting away from him.

"Edd."

Shaking my head, I was able to get away from him, "I-I am sorry. I..." Without finishing my sentence, I bolted away from him. He was calling my name but I ignored him. I was thankful that it was already after school. My worries of being seen would be less. I didn't want to gain more attention that I already had. I was confused. I didn't want to hurt Nathan but I still loved Kevin.

I couldn't move on with that realization.

I turned to a corner and bumped into someone's back. My attempt to apologize was held back when I realized that it was Kevin that I bumped into. I could recognize his back wherever he would go. Even though he wasn't looking at me. He knew that it was me for he didn't bothered looking at his back. He just started walking forward.

"Kevin, wait!" I called before I could stop myself. He was already in a locker area when I held on to his sleeve to make him stop from walking, "Let's talk please."

"Let go. There's nothing to talk about." He tone was emotionless. Like it came from a deep narrowed hole. But I ignored it.

"There is, Kevin," I said making him to look at me, "Please, Give us a chance. I'll be more careful, I promise. We don't need to date. And if you go, I won't stop you. I'll accept long distance. Just don't leave me."

"Stop it."

"Please, I'll be good. I'll keep my lips sealed. I'll do anything." I begged. I forgot my pride and followed my heart. Loving him made me stupid but I didn't care. I was scared to lose him. I'd do anything to have him back, "Kevin, I don't mind secrecy if you just keep me again."

"I said let go." He said firmly as he tried prying my hand away from him. But I wouldn't let him.

"Don't do this to me!"

"Let go!"

"No!" I ignored as I pulled him closer to me, "Kevin, I really want to be with you. I want to. I love --"

"I said LET GO OF ME!"

What happened next was really fast. The next thing I knew was my hand that was gripping his sleeve was swatted rudely and it followed by a felt a sharp sting that hit my left cheek causing me to bit the side of my lip. The impact threw me to my right side and hit my shoulder to the locker. I immediately collapsed on the floor when I felt the pain to both my cheek and right shoulder.

Shock was registered to my face. When I looked at his eyes, they were the coldest and scariest things that I'd ever seen. They were looking down at me. My hand unconsciously touched my left cheek and realized that it was bleeding.

I couldn't believe that Kevin punched me.

I was not aware what happened next. What I knew was Kevin approached where I was sprawled at. His fist grabbed the front of my shirt and harshly pulled me towards him. My eyes widened as I stared at his eyes. They were cold, emotionless, fiery and stern.

I had never seen that look from him before. It was actually scary.

"You listen. I will say this and only say this once," He said firmly. His tone had a hint of warning that made me focus on him, "Don't look at me. Don't talk to me. Don't approach me. Don't call my name. Don't touch me. Don't do anything. I don't want to see your face around me. Stay the hell away from me."

His words painfully hit me both emotionally and physically. I knew I was holding my breath at that moment but I didn't know for how long I could hold on to it. His grip to me tightened as he whispered venomously to my ear.

"You don't want to know what I would do if you don't follow what I said that you'd wish you weren't born in this world. So don't ruin it. Understand?"

He didn't give me a chance to answer him for he released me harshly making my back hit the locker behind me. I yelped for another pain.

"Scram!"

I was already on my feet before I could understand what he was saying. My mind was disoriented that I couldn't think straight. I only found myself running away from him. Holding my bruised cheek, the left side of my lip was bleeding from where I accidentally bit it with my teeth when Kevin hit me. I only stopped when I was outside the campus realizing how my body trembled from the event.

Not even in our past would make me realize how scared I was at the moment. It hit me really hard.

I was terrified of Kevin right now.

xxx

"Kevin! Keep your head in the game! Stop slacking!"

I cursed when I tried retrieving the ball from the other. Yeah, I lost the ball for my supposedly touchdown. Twice.

I didn't know what was happening to me.

Kicking the invisible dirt, I marched back to the bench when the other team finally got their touchdown.

I grabbed a bottle of water and opened the cap. I took a swig until the bottle was half empty. My feet took charge and made their way to the bench where my bag was. Grabbing the towel on the top of my bag, I wiped my face with the towel before draping it around my neck. Rolf sat next to me and didn't waste time asking my flaws.

"What was that stunt Kevin? That was a clear mistake coming from you."

I ignored him as I continued staring ahead of me. The field was having a commotion about the game but I didn't care about that. Even Rolf who was speaking his worshipping way but I was not actually listening to him. My mind was elsewhere and it wasn't helping me when I spotted the person I didn't want to deal with in the moment.

Nat. The other person who made the other team win, stealing the victory from mine. He kept doing it these past few days. No. It started over a month ago.

When he confessed about pursuing the dork.

He was true to his words. The bastard did everything to get his attention. The only thing that kept him going was the dork himself hadn't answered him. The nerd was also true to himself. He took the effort of getting away from me. He made sure that I wasn't near the vicinity where he was or vice versa.

It wasn't like this until Nat started pursuing him one month ago where I witnessed his confession to him. And while the dork was utterly speechless, much to my shock, the bastard took advantage of him and slammed his own lips to him. Something inside me snapped that time and I really wanted to beat anyone.

Alas, the dork found me after a few seconds that happened. I couldn't help myself and hit him before threatening him. It was afterwards that I realized what I had done to the dork. I was totally harsh at him at that time.

That thought made me feel the rage inside me. It made me stand surprising the still talking Rolf sitting on the bench. I made the show of leaving the field by grabbing my duffel bag.

"Where are you going?"

Rolf asked but I ignored him. I continued walking towards the exit and this time, I knew that I was getting the other's attention.

"Barr! Get back here this instant! You just can't walk out like that!" The coach's voice boomed through the whole field. If given another circumstance, I would've followed his orders and went back to the back to the field. But not even his voice would make me.

"Sorry coach," I firmly said not looking at everyone, "But I am just not into it." I continued walking out of the field despite the coach calling out to me. I needed to cool my head and make it up to the team. It just wasn't the right time to do it. My mind was jumbled and I didn't care where my feet would take me. I just needed to get away from the field. It was distracting me for a moment.

I found myself standing at the entrance of the library. I didn't know why my feet brought me here but I knew my brain did. The moment I entered the library, my eyes found him. He was standing near one of the shelves placing some books in front of the aisle.

His movements were smooth. The way his hands handled the books like they were the most precious things in the wold. The way he stood from where the cart he was pushing was a posture of someone who had a bright future.

The dork was awfully genius in his own kind.

I walked further to go to a certain table. From the corner of my eyes, I noticed that he saw me so I immediately looked away before he could catch that I was staring at him. By doing that, I saw how he quickly hid himself from the shelves. He was really doing what I said. Instead of sitting, I went to the direction where he was hiding. I didn't look that way as I passed it but I saw him from the corner of my eye.

He was trying to hide himself in the corner of the shelf. I went to another aisle and grabbed a random book to borrow.  I went to the front and gave my library card to the librarian before leaving the area.

I was three classrooms away when I realized what I had just done. He was distracting me once again. He should not be included in my brain where I was supposed to be focusing on my game. I was lagging behind and my teammates  noticed it.

Hell, the coach even noticed it.

Cursing on my way to the campus exit, I decided to keep my head in the game. I had to remind myself that I choose my reputation over him. And I shouldn't lose my concentration like that ever again.

xxx

I sighed deeply as I made my way to my locker.  It had been two and a half months since we broke up. Almost a month when I started avoiding my former boyfriend. It was painful calling him and it was fearful calling him by his name. I didn't even want to think of him. I couldn't even believe that I was counting the months and everything that happened between us was still fresh in my memories.

The once feelings I had for Kevin turned into a scary one. Even since he hit me and threatened me, I couldn't stand being in the same room as him. And saying or hearing his name made me flinch. It wanted me to run away as far as I could when I sensed that he was near me.

He wasn't the same person I knew.

Sighing, I opened my locker and gathered the things I needed before closing it. Turning on my heels, I started walking towards my next class.

Only to spot the last person I wanted to see. I gasped when I immediately recognized him. He was looking down on the book that he was reading. I used that chance to bolt to a door near me before he could see me. I quickly closed the door as quietly as I could before leaning on it. I hoped that he didn't see me. Seeing him that close was making my heart pound painfully in my chest.  I placed my palm where my heart was panicking.

Never in my mind would I expect that he could affect me like that.

Biting my lower lip, I waited a few minutes to calm myself and making sure that the hallway was empty. When the coast was clear, I slowly made my way out from the room and continued walking. I just turned to a corner when a firm hand grabbed my elbow and spun me around. At first, I thought it was Kevin that made my heart start to panic but when I stared at the culprit's face, it didn't calm my heart still.

Nathan pushed me to a corner.

His hands were planted to each side of my head. His stare was serious and intense as they looked to mine. The place was quiet knowing that it was almost school free. I calmed my heart down before placing both hands to his chest and pushed him gently.

"Seriously, Nathan. I appreciate the effort but you know that I can't."

Fortunately, he moved away from my personal space but not until he smirked at me first, "My adorkable Dweeb, if you just open your eyes and look around, you'll see what you really hope for. You just don't look behind him."

I blinked at him for several times. Seeing that he was that close to me, I had the the liberty of studying his face. He was good looking, that was given. There was some sort playfulness in his expression as his smirk was giving it away for him. His eyes showed promising words but I wasn't sure if he would keep them until I'd seen them with my own eyes. His stare had a radiating heat and warmth as I looked at him. Nathan was unique in his own way. Any person could fall in love with him.

But why I couldn't?

He would make my heart beat fast but I felt that it was something he could do to anyone. He was kind and overprotective to his friends. He was gentle as I witnessed that during occasional situations.

"Earth to Dweeb, hello?!"

His words and hand waving in front of me brought me back from secretly analyzing him. I tried hiding it but I knew I was blushing. Nathan noticed my expression because a smirk was form on his face.

"Are you considering me? I'll just need more convincing to do if you are."

I also tried calming down, Nathan was really making an effort. Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath before walking towards him and wrapped my arms around him, catching him off guard in the process, "If things would've been easier, I'd done it a long time ago," I whispered to his ear. His breath was calm but somehow, his posture was a bit stiff. He didn't expect me to hug him like this. I could hear his heart beating a bit faster than before. I couldn't help but smile at that, "I wished you were the one I would have fallen in love with instead."

He didn't say anything until he returned the hug and whispered, "I really wished you did."

xxx

"KEVIN! OUT FROM THE FIELD! NOW!"

Gritting my teeth hard, I stomped heavily on the ground walking towards the exit.

"DON'T GET BACK UNTIL YOU CLEAR YOUR MIND! YOU ARE TOTALLY OUT OF IT!"

I refrained myself from cursing loud. The others were looking at me but I couldn't careless. They knew how bad my mood was and getting in my way would only result to broken bones and such. Before I could do anything worse, I made my way to the locker room and sat on a bench. It made me think why my life had been so miserable.

I made several mistakes in the field once again, hence, removing me from the field. It was worse than the last few weeks. Another week had passed. I always had all the wrong timings in the world.

Why did I have to witness that?

They must have expressed their feelings finally. He was smiling when I saw him hugging Nat. It was the first smile I saw in him after of almost three months. I didn't know but that scene was distracting me.

"What's gotten into you, Kevin boy?" I didn't notice Rolf and Rave entered the room, "That was a nasty mistake!"

"Yeah, you never made a mistake like that before." I heard one of my teammates said.

"There's always a first time!" The other one commented.

"Just leave me alone, guys!" I snapped at them not looking at my team, "Things aren't going my way right now. I don't want to pass them on you."

The team became silent as no one dared to oppose me... not until Rave spoke.

"Why don't you just admit it?"

I looked at Rave suspiciously, "Admit what?"

"You are distracted."

"I am not distracted."

"You are," Rave disagreed, "Your boy is moving on from you."

"What?"

Rolf answered for him this time, "He's talking about your Edd boy. He's trying to forget you."

"You can't be serious about--"

"Stop that, Captain!" For the first time, I was interrupted by a member, "We all know it!"

My eyes widened at the realization. I stared at everyone. The member who interrupted me was taken aback and he rephrased his sentence.

"I mean we could see how you looked at Edd with such longing... and probably hurt. You know for something awful that you did to him."

"You can't play well because of your unfinished business," Rave said coldly, "and we don't want a captain who plays halfheartedly in the game."

"What did you say?"

"Face it, Kevin. You like Edd. That's all."

Rave's words cut me. I didn't know how to make of it. My heart was pounding so fast. I liked Edd. He was my boyfriend. Why did I deny him in the first place? Why did I hurt him? It was because of my reputation. My jumbled thoughts were cut when a hand was placed to my shoulder. The member who interrupted me gave me a reassuring smile.

"We won't judge you." He said.

I stared at my teammates. Did I just hear them right? They wouldn't judge me? Why was I hearing them right now? Something dawn to me that made my heart heavy.

"He wouldn't talk to me," I looked away as I said that, gripping my hands tight that were sitting on my lap, "He moved on from me just like you said."

"He didn't."

The voice caught everyone who was inside the room. Nathan stood at the door staring at the other jamb of the door.

"He couldn't, Kevin," He looked at me seriously, "He still has mind on you."

To say that I was speechless was an understatement. I just couldn't believe what was happening. 

"What are you waiting for?" The nearest member pulled me to my feet, "Go get your man!"

I found them motivating me. Nathan gave me a slight nod. That movement made me realize what to do. I just hoped that I was not too late for it.

xxx

"Come on sockhead! Can't you do it tomorrow instead? It'll be Saturday."

For the umpteenth time, I sighed and faced my shorter best friend, "Tomorrow is another day, Eddy. Why would I do the project tomorrow if I can do it today?"

"So you can have more time with us." Eddy insisted.

"We can have more time tomorrow." I said packing my things and swung it to my shoulder.

Eddy groaned and didn't reply back. He knew that I was right. I didn't mind spending time with them despite that Eddy would mostly create a prank once again.

"Are you sure you want to overstay? I can keep you company."

I looked at him questioningly. He never suggested that to me, especially when it came to studying. A smile was formed to my lips. I knew why he did that.

"I'll be fine, Eddy. Don't worry about me."

He studied me for a while before sighing, "Alright. But make sure you'll go straight home right after you finish your project."

"Yes, mother." I teased.

"Very funny, sockhead," Eddy retorted as he slung his bag to his shoulder, "If anything, you are the mother hen in the group."

"I'd like to think otherwise, Eddy."

We both turned around after that. I made a quick dash to the library and started doing the project that would be due on Monday. The project was not that hard but it took longer than I expected. The moment I finished my project, it was already dark. I began packing my things and secured my project inside my bag. I carried the books in my arms as I made my way outside not forgetting to thank the librarian for staying up late as well. I was fumbling for my keys when I was suddenly collided with someone. I was thankful that I didn't drop my things but that didn't mean the person I collided to wasn't dropping anything. I looked up to apologize.

Only to be stunned.

Standing in front of me was the last person I wanted to see. Better yet, never. I only had a glimpse of him before I looked away. Kevin was staring at me. Shocked but there was something at his stare and I didn't want to find out what it was. I gripped the books I was holding tightly before moving to his side and walked past him.

"Wait."

A wisp of air behind me told me that he was trying to reach out so I did the only thing I was good when it came to this situation.

I ran away.

I never expected that he would still be at school. Their practice was long over so why was he still here?

"Edd!"

I gasped and my eyes widened when I heard him calling my name. Oh my goodness! Why was he was following me?

"Wait!"

He called again. He was making my heart beat faster. I tried to run faster, ignoring the lack of oxygen from my lungs. Being the captain and the quarterback in the team, it was not a surprise on how fast he could run. I turned to every corner I could reach until I exited the building.

"Edd! Wait!"

I closed my eyes shut as I went into the back of a building. He wasn't planning on stopping.  I opened a door and immediately slipped in the moment I turned to a corner. I closed it as quietly as I could, fearing that he would hear me. The room was dark but not enough to hide me completely. I realized that I entered the storage room. I placed my hand to my chest trying to calm my heart down.

"I just want to talk!"

My heart skipped a beat. I crouched down on the ground trying not to create a sound. I could hear his footsteps nearby. That thought alone made me tremble.

"Please!"

I gasped and clamped my mouth shut with my hand while holding my book with the other to my chest. Why was he doing this? What did he want? Why did he want to talk? Why was he chasing me?

"Eddward!"

My vision started to blur as I felt my eyes to water. I closed my eyes tight before I could see the tears fall, hoping for Kevin to go away. I could still hear him calling my name but I didn't move or create a sound. I should have listened to Eddy. I should have gone home with him. Now, I had to keep myself in check to make sure he wouldn't hear my tears as I crouched on the ground hoping he would leave soon.

Because that was the only time I could leave too. I didn't care how long I'd wait in the storage room that night.

xxx

I felt restless, tired, disoriented and horrible. My head was throbbing from overnight thinking on how to make things right with Double D. He refused to talk to me and I couldn't help how hurt that was to me. I realized how hurt it was more to him.

Three months.

I let the both of us suffer for three months.  I wouldn't blame him for not speaking to me after all these months. After what happened last Friday, I realized how heavy the misery I gave him. I wanted to change that.

That last thought remained in my mind as I spotted him standing on his locker, getting the books that he needed for the day. My heart began to beat fast. I knew it had something on what I was about to do. Taking a deep breath, I made my way to his locker noticing that the place was a bit isolated. I was lucky that it was. He just took a step backward and about to close the door of his locker when I did it for him. That action made him turn around and face me.

Shock was registered to his face before he looked down, gripping his books tight as fear was visible on his face.

He moved back to the locker as I placed both of my hands on each side of his head. I felt a pang in my chest. These feelings were intense now that I was paying attention to them. I didn't want to see him like this.

And it was my fault he was like this.

"Edd," I called almost chocking. He flinched and tightened his hold to his book, "Edd, please hear me out."

He bit his lower lip but he didn't look at me. He was just looking down. I took a deep breath and hoped that he would listen.

"I know that you don't want to talk to me. I understand but... I--want to change that," I started lowering my gaze to him, "I know that you wouldn't--forgive me. But I want to try. I wanted to approach you when I saw you from the window of the storage room. But I couldn't... I."

I watched his eyes widen. My hands clenched on the locker when I noticed the shiver that emitting from his body. I never expected that I could affect him so badly... because of what I did.

"I am asking... for your forgiveness, Edd. And hope you'll give me a chance," I said sincerely but he only looked down even more. I inhaled deeply trying to get my bearings, "I don't care how long it takes. I'll wait until you'll accept me again. If you let me make things right, let me make it all up to you, I'd do anything."

He bit his lower lip and his breathing was increasing. I moved closer to him but he cowered away from me. It was my turn to be surprised. Eddward was really afraid of me. And there was nothing more painful than that. Slowly but carefully, I leaned my forehead to his. I caught a glimpse of his eyes shutting close before I did mine.

"I am so sorry. Forgive me. If  I have to apologize to you everyday, I'd do it. I am willing to do everything just for you to forgive me," I opened my eyes when I noticed him fidgeting and now was looking to his side, "I am really sorry, Double D."

Edd still didn't say anything. I moved away a little to see how flushed he was. He was still refusing to look at me and he was in a verge of tears once again.

"Edd, please..."

His expression was really hurt as he spoke for the first time. The word that came from his lips really surprised me.

"E-Eddy!"

Before I could register what was happening, I found myself being shoved away. The force was really strong if it wasn't for my quick move of balancing, I would've fallen on the ground. My eyes found a shorter guy standing in front of Edd glaring at me. His hands clenched into tight fists and I knew that they were so eager to punch me. I knew that he would if I provoked him.

"Stay.away.from.Edd," He said each word like poisons he wanted to spit on me. I wanted to reply a snarky comment at him but seeing Edd's teary eyes made me hold back.

"L-let's get out of here, Eddy," Double D whisperd as he tugged his best friend to his arm, "Please..."

Eddy continued glaring at me before Edd let him tug him to walk the other way. I kept a neutral look as I watched them go. He never once looked at me and that was really painful.

I didn't know how long I stayed there before I found myself walking towards the locker room. Not really aware what I was doing, I just sat on a bench and brood randomly.

"Has someone died?" I heard Rolf asked. I looked around and saw everyone staring at me. Nat looked at me and he understood. It made me turn my head and glared at my hands that were gripping in front of me.

"Leave me alone." I murmured, loud enough for them to hear.

"So that's it then? You are going to give up?"

I looked at Nat and glared at him afterwards. I wanted to retort but for the first time, I didn't know what to say. Am I giving up and probably let him win his heart instead? That thought made my blood boil. There was no way I'd give Edd up. I knew that there was a way to get for Edd to talk to me. My resolve was noticed by Nat as he walked towards me. He knew what I wanted even without me saying it. He tapped my shoulder before he faced the rest of the team.

"Come on guys, we have got some hunting to do."

xxx

Things became different after my encounter with Kevin last Monday. I couldn't look forward fearing I'd see him if I did. The bullying miraculously stopped after that. Ed and Eddy seemed to be weary but they kept their distance not too far from me. Unfortunately, they had to stay after class for getting caught from doing pranks inside the campus. I warned them not to overdo it but they didn't listen. Since it's Friday, and they were not with me, I promised them that I'd go home as long as I returned the books that weren't needed to be studied on the weekend in my locker.

With that resolve, I dashed my way to my locker and left the books at a record time. I just locked the door when I heard Nathan's voice calling out to me. I faced him as he ran to my location.

"S-Salutations, Nathan! What can I--"

"I need your help! You've got to help me!" Nathan cut me off.  Without warning, he grabbed my hand and pulled me out from the locker. Because of the abrupt action, I left my bag on the ground.

"Wait! My bag!"

"Leave it! No one's going to steal it there. I'll assure you."

I tried to protest but it was only swallowed by my saliva. My heart was pounding so fast. I didn't know what was going on. What help was he talking about? We stopped abruptly almost bumping into his back. I was about to ask what was he doing when he produced a black cloth in his hand. My eyes widened when I saw it. I took a step back when he grabbed my arm.

"Excuse me, Edd. It won't take long but please..."

"W-what are you doing? Why would you need that?"

"Just let me blindfold you for a while." He moved closer to me and reached to my head tying the ends of the cloth before I had the chance to reject him.

"Why are you blindfolding me? What help do you need me to Nathan?"

"You'll find out soon enough." He answered. His breath fanning my face. I felt him move away in front of me. The next thing I knew, he was holding me to my shoulders, "Now, let's get going."

Since my sense of sight was incapable, I let my other senses work this time. My heart couldn't stop beating really fast. Somehow, Nathan was making me nervous. But I still let him lead me to who knew where.

"We're here," He announced. I heard a door opening and he guided me to walk inside. The door closed afterwards. He brought me to a room.

"W-where are we?" I asked him sensing that he was still in my back.

"I am sorry, Edd. But I've got to do this." My blindfold was suddenly removed from my eyes. My eyes weren't blocked the light that long so they immediately adjusted to the view in front of me.

Which turned them into dilated ones.

There were people in front of me. Some were sitting on a bench. Some were standing, leaning on walls, the others were behind their lockers. All were looking at me. But these weren't ordinary people.

They were football players.

My heart was beating so fast that I immediately turned around and went to grab the doorknob, "T-this must have been some misunderstanding. I shouldn't be here." I murmured. Before I could touch the doorknob, Nathan grabbed my wrist first.

"There isn't, Edd.  We want to talk. We also want to help him."

His words made me curious and face him completely, "What do you mean?" I asked him. Something was telling me that I shouldn't have let Nathan drag me here. He was still a part of the team despite of the connection we had between us. Before he could answer, I noticed another figure appearing from the other side of the room  from the corner of my eye. I slowly turned my head to that area and recognized the person instantly.

Kevin.

My heart worked so hard that it did its frantic beating inside my chest. He was just standing there, looking at me, giving me that kind of smile I had forgotten he could wear when we were together.  I couldn't react. I couldn't go anywhere. My best friends were nowhere near me. Nathan had set me up.

I was alone with Kevin's football team in their locker room.

I didn't know what to feel. I yanked my wrist from Nathan, turning around where I couldn't see anyone. I refused to see anyone.

"Double D," I heard him whisper my nickname but I ignored him. My heart wasn't cooperating with me at the moment, "I am sorry for this. I just couldn't think of anything for you to talk to me. I seek for their help."

I didn't know what was happening to me. My brain was refusing to throw any words at him. Any words would do to make him to leave me alone. This wasn't what I expected. Kevin was scary. I did what he told me.  Why was he doing this? I had to get out from here. From them. From him. I literally flinched when a hand was wrapped to my wrist. I turned to the person's hand that belonged to Nathan. Worry was plastered to his face.

"Calm down, Edd. It's fine." Nathan said looking at me before looking back towards the team. I didn't mimic his action but I realized that I missed Kevin's explanation. I was out in my own world to have missed everything he said.

"Edd..." Kevin called out. To my surprise, he placed his hand to my shoulder making my flinch in the process. I took a step forward, moving away from him and hugged myself. That was the first time he touched me since that locker incident. It made me cringe remembering how he hit me that day. I was taken by another surprise from Kevin when he slowly wrapped his arms around me from behind. I actually held my breath when he placed his head to my neck, "Edd, please..." His voice even sounded hurt. My eyes burned and became blurry. I bit my lower lip hard trying to hold my tears fall.

But they fell anyway.

"Dude, it's our cue to leave now," Nathan said to Kevin. He was leaving at a time like this. The others started leaving but when he was about to turn around I reached for his sleeve. He was stunned at my action. My face must have shown too much pain when he lingered his eyes on me before he grabbed my hand and held it with both of his.

"You'll be fine. You are in good hands." Nathan smiled genuinely at me before letting go of my hand. He nodded at Kevin who was still embracing me before turning around.

"Thank you, guys." Kevin whispered enough for us to hear. Not a minute passed, we were left alone in the room. Then I remembered what Nathan said.

I was in good hands?

The last time I was in this person's hands wasn't great for my memory. Remembering that time made my tears fall even more. Oh my goodness, I was crumbling in his presence. I was never like this. I was hyperventilating. I had to get out. Get away from him.

His hands were stopping me from doing so.

xxx

Edd was panicking.

His whole body was trembling. His sobs were starting to get audible having only the two of us in the room made it to be heard. Guilt ran through my system at the sight of him. I made him this vulnerable.

I gently turned him around and hugged him completely. He whimpered this time trying to get away from me. But I wouldn't let him so he gave in and cried his heart out. I hugged him tighter.

"I am so sorry," I whispered trying to make him to calm down, "Edd, please believe me. I regretted hurting you like that," I placed my hand at the back of his head while the other was rubbing his back, "I shouldn't have done that. I miss you so badly. Give me a chance. I'd do anything to have you back."

He didn't say anything. He never said anything. At all. He refused to talk to me. Up until this moment, he was still following what I told him. It hurt to know that. I bit my lower lip as I tried a different approach. I moved away from him but I grabbed his hands pulling him to sit on a bench with me. He stopped crying but his face was still flushed. I stared at him while he was staring down. His eyes were focused on our intertwined hands but I knew his mind was not there.

It was traveling somewhere else.

Taking a deep breath, a slowly leaned closer to his face and pressed my lips to his. It was a chaste one hoping to get a reaction from him. He flinched but that was it. I didn't mind it though. I missed his lips so I moved mine deeper to him. I was stupid of letting him go. I didn't realize until now, how great was kissing him. Why did I ever break up with him? He wasn't responding, much to my dismay. I couldn't blame him for that. I looked up without breaking the kiss.

Only to be stunned.

Edd's eyes were half-lidded and tears were forming from them once again. I slowly removed my lips from his. I gripped his hands firmly realizing how cold they were.

I never thought that they were until now.

"Edd, say something," I whispered as I watched a tear fall from his eye, "...please." I pleaded. I realized that he never said a word to me ever since I tried speaking to him. He did speak but never to me. That was another threat I told him before and I was hurting from my own actions.

"I don't want to be in a relationship."

My eyes widened when he finally spoke. It was quiet but I could hear him clearly. I'd never been so happy to hear him speak.

"You don't have to do anything," I scooted closer to him, gripping his hands even more, "I'll take care of you. I want to--"

"I don't want to be in a relationship..." He repeated. I was stunned when I realized what he meant. I just kept staring at him while he wasn't. I wanted him to speak but not that way. I didn't want to lose him. Biting my lip, I leaned my forehead to his while letting go of one of his hands and placing it at the back of his neck.

"Then let me this time," I whispered. He gasped audibly when I said that, "Let me chase you this time. I'll make things right for the both of us. I want to be with you." I said remembering his words to me before. Moving away from him, I stared at his glassy eyes while cupping his face with my hands.

"I love you."

I said with conviction. Having to make him blush was progress for me. He was caught off guard when I said it, "Even if you don't love me anymore. I'll still do. I'll just make you fall in love with me again."

"K-Kevin..." He choked on my name but hearing it from his lips made me happy inside. I missed it, "Don't do this."

I shook my head, "I have decided. You are more important to me. I'll forget everything. Screw that damn reputation!"

"Y-you don't mean that!" He looked at me surprisingly.

I shook my head again and smiled at him, "I learned my lesson, Edd. I am coming out, To the entire school."

"Y-you don't have to do that," He grabbed both of my arms. I didn't know if he was aware of what he was doing. His tears were freely falling once again, "Please, you must reconsider.  You don't know what it feels like..."

I gently grabbed his arms to avoid from flinching. He didn't want to be touched yet but I'd have any possible chances to touch him. His teary-eyed face was awfully flushed as he looked at me, "I'd be happy to welcome them. I made my mistake of denying you in front of my teammates. There is no way I am repeating the same mistake in front of the entire body."

His eyes got widened even more, "N-no..."

"On the winning night of the game," I leaned my forehead against his once again, "I'll announce myself to the public."

xxx

My heart was beating really fast. I couldn't calm down. The sound that was coming from the field felt like drums to my heart. It was the promised match he told me. I was actually forced to watch the game. Separating me from Ed and Eddy, Nat lured me here. When my best friends found out that Kevin wanted to get back with me, they became furious, especially Eddy. He tried blocking all Kevin's ways of winning me back.  But Kevin prevailed.

And now here I was, sitting at the upper part of the seat of the field.

Kevin's effort didn't escape my presence. He did everything to win me back. He wasn't out until this very moment.  His actions were making me nervous yet appreciative at the same time. My heart was beating really fast everytime he did something. He was down there winning the game.

And winning the game he did.

The scream the crowd made the winning touchdown Kevin barely visible by the others. Next thing I realized, people were starting to stand and jump from their seats. Hands were raised up in the air that I couldn't even see what was happening below now.  Some people were already below the stadium giving Kevin and the rest of the team some lift, making me see him from the crowd. A smile was brought to my lips. The genuine smile I first had since our break up.

As if sensing me, he turned to where I was sitting. My eyes widened when he gave me the stare that I knew about. His stare was making my heart pound loudly.  Soon, the people who were lifting him were starting to bring him down. I didn't know what came into me but I stood up and went down. I wanted to go home. No one, not even Nathan, could make me stop this time.

Except for Kevin who was already at the bottom of the stairs I was going down to.

I gripped the strap of my bag as I stared at him. I should not have came here. Kevin was going to...

"Where are you going?" Kevin asked me as he took a few steps towards me.

"The game is over." I said stupidly. Just where was my being silver tongue when I needed it.

"Without congratulating me?" He continued walking towards me as he asked another question.

I stared at him for a few seconds as he approached me. Taking a deep breath, I waited for him before giving in what he wanted me to say.

"C-Congratulations on winning today, Kevin." Surprisingly, I was able to smile earnestly at him. He seemed to be surprised by it as well but he recovered fast.

"Thank you." He smiled back at me before he became serious. I was becoming aware of the people who were still in the stadium but most of them were looking at us now.

My breath hitched when I felt his hand gently caressing my cheek. The cheek where he hit before. My face was betraying me for I know that it was flushed by now. Kevin was staring straight at me. He moved a step closer to me making my heart pound really fast.

"I need your help, Edd." Kevin whispered his expression serious.

"You don't have to do this, really." I whispered back at him.

"I want  to. It's for me as well. I am tired of hiding."

"But your reputation--"

"Screw my reputation!" He interrupted making my eyes wide. His own eyes were tensed, "I am ready to give up reputation. But I am not ready to give you up... Not now, not ever." His eyes were intensely looking at me before he decided to cross the distance of our faces.

My own eyes widened. People gasped around us. The place seemed to be quiet. My heart pounded really fast. I didn't know how long it lasted but I never moved. Kevin pulled back when he noticed that I wouldn't be responding anytime soon.

"I am serious. You don't have to love me. Just let me be," His serious expression gave a playful smirk on his lips before grabbing my flushed cheeks, "Now that I am out, I have all the chances to do these things to you." He didn't miss a beat before claiming my mouth once again.

Everyone saw what he did. The team was cheering for us. The spectators witnessed the same scene. I really hoped that they would give the scholarship Kevin desired to have.  I could only hope. Kevin wasn't seeing it and he didn't have to. He never lost my heart. It only got scared of accepting him once again but he always had it. A tear fell from my cheek as I wrapped both of my arms to his neck and finally responded to his kiss.

This time, I made sure that he knew what I meant.

That I was willing to give us another try.

Done!!! Hahaha after so many months, I was able to finish this one-shot. I started writing this last year. It was actually hard. I think I ran out of ideas so I'd end it here. I hope you like it. Domo.

(This is probably the longest one-shot I've ever made.)