Ain't Lucky

I felt joy when I heard we're still together
After all these years, it's now or never
Believe me, I wished we could stay like this,
Running around freely with a bunch of kids.

I'm a 9th month kid—you know it
Born on the 22nd—you know it
It's a very special day but we never celebrated it
Tonight, I realized you don't deserve all of it

Like come on, seriously?
You don't know how much this hurting me
Then let's see who plays a better game this year

Say, you guys are just shy
You always repeat to me the reason why
But you never noticed every pain in my tears

I'm always open to you
Though it's the opposite to me
You have no idea what I've been through
From pain, I want to be forever free

Watch your back, you never know what might happen
Don't lose track, you might get eaten by the kraken
You're not worth every love I gave
I received pain that you all made

My heart got overdosed with so much depression
I don't even know how to use the right expression
I invested my brain too much to those who doesn't care

The knives on my back didn't go away at all
Everywhere I go, it always stands so tall
Betrayal and Chaos are just a perfect pair

I ain't lucky for this friendship
Sometimes I think it's a sinking ship
The anger in my blood keeps on flowing
Think you can pull a trick without me knowing?

Cheers for another drama this year
I'll welcome those phrases I don't wanna hear
I hope your happy when I look miserable and a mess
But I'm the queen in an intellectual game we call chess.

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Poem Version

Inspiration: So called friends
Date made: May 31, 2019
Time made: 08:40 p.m
Message: The song version will soon be published in the “Sapphire and Virgo: KeyyZ” compilation of solo written songs.