November 16, 2018

As the book opens on the first day,
I prepared my pen with a lot of words to say,
“I wish to be with you under the rain;
I'd like to put your initials H.C.O on a chain.”
And so I wrote a new chapter inspired by pain.

It was still early and we were little
I silently stood on the pavement and whistled
Minutes later the bus came and as I try to mingle,
I suddenly wished for someone I can lean on
Apparently, I was on my own after all.

I could see my parents as they waved goodbye
To be honest, I really wanted to cry
For I was filled with mixed emotions that time
I closed my eyes then smiled
“Now's the time to create a new life design.”

So I opened my eyes and looked at the road
If you were with me, would you take a treacherous slope
Just to save me from a chair and rope?
If no, could you let me know?
So that I wouldn't waste my love for a guy like you?

I made you as my motivation and made new friends
It was the second day and I didn't want it to end
But a day wasn't enough and so limited,
Challenged by all 7th region in my head
Yes I failed, but at least I tried my best.

When the day came for home,
I realized what you felt all along
How could you be so chummy like nothing's wrong?
Your personality and heart was the one I wanted to own
And I blame your smile for making me love you for long.

Now I became bitter,
But it isn't constant like a weather
Guess what hurts most than burning letters?
Thinking he treated me more than a sister
When in his eyes, I'm only an inoperable crumpled paper
On the ground with no one dares to bother.

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Date made: January 30, 2019
Time made: 11:21 p.m
Inspiration: Regional Level Press Conference 2018, self and Water
Message: Just in case you're wondering why most of my inspiration in writing my poems is this person I called "Water", it doesn't mean that I'm obsess with him okay? It's just that, he gave me so much ideas to write not just poems but my stories and song lyrics as well. (Yes. I wrote him a song too.) He taught me pain and I changed. Maybe no one has noticed it but I did change. So if you think I'm obsess with him, then I repeat and capitalize the letters N & O. Big NO. Got it? XD