I'd never thought I'd see the day......

But it's here......

Last night I started questioning my sexuality.....

I'll be honest with you guys.....

I never questioned my sexuality before......

Cause I never had a reason to question it.....

For my whole life I've been straight.....

But now I'm questioning on weather that's true or not.....

I've always had an admiration for boys.....

But I'm not gonna lie, back when me and this girl were friends I started feeling a certain way......

And I started thinking about things that a straight person doesn't think about......

So maybe that's when it started......

But I don't know......

As for last night it was the same thing.....

Feeling a certain way and thinking about things that a straight person wouldn't think about.....

So what does this mean?.......

I didn't know at the time.....

And honestly it took me some time to figure that out.....

I started thinking about how I may not be straight.....

And when I thought about it, it all started to make sense.....

It would explain why I felt a certain way and why I thought those things.....

I'm still trying figure myself out.....

But something about changing my sexuality feels right.....

I'd never thought that this day would come....

And now I'm scared.....

If my sexuality has changed then I'm gonna have to tell my family.....

And that's hard......

Especially since we all grew up in Christian household.....

And of course I still am a Christian....

The only thing that's changed is my sexuality.....

I'm still the same person.....

But getting my whole family to understand that is gonna be hard.....

When my Brother came out as Gay....

My father thought that if he went to church, he would change his mind.....

But you can't change the way you feel.....

This is why I'm so scared.....

And I think it's why I never questioned my sexuality in the first place......

I know that they're my family and that they love me no matter what but telling them something like this is nerve wracking.....

But I know that I'll have to tell them eventually......

The point is that my sexuality has changed.....

But because I still like guys, I'm not gay....

I'm just Bi....

This is my sexuality now......

I can't change the way I feel.....

But please remember that I have not changed.....

I am still the same person.....

The only thing that's changed is my sexuality.....

And though I haven't 100% excepted it yet....

It's what I am.....

I understand if you're mad or angry at me.....

But it's not something that I can change.....

Sorry for the rant.....

I just wanted to tell you guys this....

And thank you guys who have supported me and have been there for me every step of the way.....

And I look forward to see what the future holds......

Glittersilver
JellowMarshmello
MissElizaSparrow
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SamBam260
Painted_flower
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