Chapter Twelve: Missing Him

{ Jessa }

Sunday morning I made breakfast for mom and I, we had breakfast out on the back porch since the weather was absolutely gorgeous.

But after breakfast I did the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen and told mom bye as I was heading to the pack house to fine tune the last details on the sock hop.

When I pulled up to the pack house I stopped at the mail box and grabbed the mail from Friday before I unlocked the front door and let myself in.

Unlike my previous pack there wasn't anyone who lived in the pack house as this was essentially Vale's home. But he did have a designated House where pack members could go to if they needed a place to stay for however long they needed.

I sorted through the mail as George and I also get mail here.

George had a box so I walked into his office and put it right on his desk. Then I grabbed all of Vale's mail and walked into his office.

But as I walked into his office a weird sensation filled me, I'd be lying to myself if I said I didn't miss him.

I closed my eyes and thought about the last time we were both in here, he was teasing me because I had decided to wear my hair in pigtails and he said something along the lines of looking like a cartoon character.

"Jerk." I said as I opened my eyes and smiled, I turned to leave his office and found that Wex was standing in the doorway watching me with an amused look on his face.

"You good pinky?" He asked.

"I'm fine...just bringing in the mail."

He nodded, "And bringing in the mail usually results in you blushing and smiling giddily?"

I rolled my eyes, "I'm not smiling 'giddily' just smiling normally because it is a good morning." I said as I walked out of his office and closed the door behind me as I made my way to my own office now.

Wex followed me like an annoying little sibling. He made himself comfortable on the small loveseat I had in my office, It made me think of the times Vale would get bored and let himself into my office where he'd then flop onto the loveseat letting his long frame stretch out as he pestered me to go with him to do something.

"You miss him don't you?"

"If you're talking about Vale then I can admit that it is weird to not have him here..." I replied as I opened my laptop and begin looking for anything to do so he'd see me working and leave me alone.

"Come on Jessa, Its me...let's be real for like one second, you two are so obviously into each other and you're like the only two who can't see it." He said with a smile.

I loved the fact that since moving back not only had Vale and I become friends, but Wex and I had also become good friends... but where Vale and I can be silly Wex and I have a more open and honest friendship since I saw him at club a couple of towns over, he was making out with a human guy. Of course I wouldn't tell anyone he's gay, that's his life...but it did sort of get us talking more.

"Vale's our Alpha and our boss Wex...do I enjoy his company, yes...but at the end of the day he is the Alpha and I'm no Alpha's daughter and clearly not his mate, he's a great guy no doubt and he deserves his happiness, whoever she is."

"All political responses aside...You make him happy, or hadn't you noticed?"

I shook my head, "Vale and I are just a good team, that's it...please stop making this into something it isn't." I practically begged. "He'll be back tomorrow and everything will be back to normal so please please drop it Wex."

He shook his head, "So stubborn...but whatever, play dumb if it's what you want...I just think things would be a lot easier if you two just admitted you like one another...plus you've practically been sulking since he's left."

"For one I have not been sulking, Bored maybe but I do not sulk...and for two what in the hell could possible coming from me saying 'oh hey Vale, so glad you're back I really missed you, I think you're really hot by the way and we should go out sometime?'"

He held back a smile, "Well I never said to go saying all of that now...but would it kill you to admit that you do find him attractive."

I sighed, "Of course he is attractive."

"Oh heavens...I think the earth may actually burst open at your admission" He sounded dryly. "...but you see, no harm in admitting you like the guy."

"But there is harm in it." I sighed. "Things could get back to him, he could not feel any attraction toward me, things get awkward and then not only do I lose my job but also my friendship with him...It could all just get really messy, plus I'd still have to see him as my Alpha...ugh, that would suck so bad Wex, Having to see a guy who clearly doesn't feel the same way you do every single day."

"Heavy." He said as he sat up. "But you do like him though right?"

"Get the hell out of my office!" I said as I threw an unsharpened pencil at him.

He got up and laughed, "That wasn't a no."

After he closed my door I folded my arms and rested them on my desk before I brought my forehead down against them, I sighed heavily. I knew I couldn't admit to Wex that I like Vale because I was having a hard time admitting it to myself. But I knew it would never work out so I needed to keep things cool between us, no blurring the lines. He's my Alpha, and I'm his assistant...but even I have to admit that things can get a little blurry when it comes to our friendship.