Should I be writing another entry? No.

But my guts actually feel like they are squeezing myself to death. I mean I felt like this before when I'm really upset, so hopefully venting will make that feeling go away.

I sort of feel like I'm in a tortured maze where ever turn I take simply grows worse for me. Not only do I have to go back to the very man who basically shattered my will to live, but I still live with two roommates that betrayed me.

Basically I was best friends with both the women I live with, but Cas (25 year old) brought a boyfriend home who said I was really hot 🙄 of course she got upset but I ran to my room and said I was going to sleep. I didn't even say anything to him but she decided to start hating me. She then reported me to my boss, saying I destroyed stuff in the apartment and that I was underage drinking with friends. I literally wasn't but whatever and Sally (19 year old) just went along with it because she's scared of Cas!

Those are fake names btw.

Anyway they were awful to me for the longest time, but then I apologized because that's what I do.

I just say sorry and I fall in love with people who will never ever ever care about me.

Well I almost went on a rant there so maybe I should stop for now.

But basically bottom line, I really don't want to go to South Carolina.

Next bottom line, I keep getting my heart broken in half because I keep trusting the wrong friends and romantic relationships. So I'm a mess and I'm supposed to be a grown, mature adult. And all I feel like is crying.

But thank god that the knot in my stomach is gone and I can breath again. Maybe this vent book wasn't a bad idea-

Anyway bye ya lovely person who sadly read this

Love uuuuuuu-!

~Wordsperminute