I cheated,
Maybe I shouldn't have.
I am sorry I did
Even when I knew I shouldn't.

Many a reasons to blame,
Loneliness took roots
That firmly gripped all
My darkest fears.

I was prisoned I thought
By the past I went through.
Much longer it took
To realise it was all in my mind.

I am selfish
I said to myself,
Not knowing it was me
Who was being used.

Blind trust is all I did
With the wrong people.
Thrown away were
Good one like you.

For the longest time
You did not choose
To leave me,
Until I kept cheating.

I cannot pen down
The pain you went through
When you stood along
With me to live a life together.

I did not knew then
You were a God-sent angel
To bless me happiness
At the most needed time.

I promise
I never liked the things
I said I did
Out of pain and misery.

Only if I had known
You in a better way
We would've cherished
A paradise life.

Instead I gave you excuses
That kept you awake
In the middle of the nights
Wondering if things would change.